No, it isn’t ‘who came first? The chicken or the egg?’. Well, not for me at least. For me, the world’s hardest question is
Would you rather go back to the past and relive your childhood, or go to the future and be who you are to become?
For a lot of people this answer would be simple. I am kind of on the fence with this one but also leaning towards one side more than the other. You see, I had a great childhood. So many great people to look up to and so many great opportunities and experiences. When I look back on my childhood, it was such a magical time. I mean I had an imagination, lot of friends, no worries and I couldn’t wait for the next day of school. Obviously as I grew up this excitement for life shrank, so if I were to go back I would go back to when I was 5 or 6. No joke, the most I would have to worry about is whether or not I got the hula hoop during break and lunch time. When I look back I can remember that I wasn’t scared for the future. I had it so easy back then and if I knew what was going to happen, so many things would change. However, I don’t know if going to the past would be the best thing because then I have to go through all those changes again, all those disappointments and challenges that changed me for the worst. If I were to go back, I would be so far from the end and that would pain me.
Going into the future would be cool I guess, but what if I go and the world has just completely collapsed and maybe I could have done something to help it before I did. What if I go into the future and my life has become everything I didn’t want it to be but now I can’t do anything to help it. What will I have missed if I just skip to the part where I have settled into a job with a family. Although, to be fair, I would be leaning more to the ‘go to the future side’ because, well, I wouldn’t have to go through all of that fear, stress and exhaustion. I would just get to the point I am supposed to get to. It also means that I could see all the cool new inventions and how the world has changed so much from now, hopefully for the better. It would also mean that I am closer to the end. And I know you are probably like ‘umm do you need some help’. Well, not really, but what I am trying to say is that I don’t want to live forever, obviously, and I think that my life will get better as time goes on because I will have more money and, therefore, more freedom. But what I also me by ‘being closer to the end’ is that I will live my life better knowing that I don’t have all the time in the world to do something. Because now a days I just stop and think ‘I have at least 60 to 65 years to go and I have only lived for 15 years which has felt so long’ you know. And I hope I didn’t just depress somebody but I just think that when I am older I, hopefully, won’t just waste my time and slump around all day. I will do what I want each day if I have the chance to do it. Life will be more risky when I am older and I think I will like that because in the present I know nothing bad will happen to me and that I am just living a normal, boring life. It probably sounds a bit morbid to be fair but I just wouldn’t like to go back in time and have to add so many more years onto my life.
Over all though, it kind of is hard. I mean there are so many pros and cons for both sides. I mean going to the past would let me relive some of the best, most simple years of my life, yet would set me up to have to go through all of the hard shit again. And then going to the future would let me skip so many years of my life and get to the good part, yet may be so crap and I wouldn’t be able to do anything about it. The main thing is, no matter what I answer, neither will come true. I can’t travel back in time. I can’t travel forward in time. All I can do is live in the present. And although that can be a surprisingly hard thing to do, it is the only choice, so I have to just choose to be happy where I am. And that is a hard lesson to learn.
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