I’m going to try and keep this post quite small, kind of like the size of the tips people give. Yup, that is what I am talking about today and I would like to preface that this is in the most respectful way possible. I don’t feel this way towards young teen or people struggling financially, but there are a few people who may have caused absolute hell to my day or are obviously well off financially that give fuck all and I need to get it out there to someone.
Now, I haven’t been a waitress for very long and I also don’t work in a fancy restaurant, but I work my ass off and give them the best experience possible. Maybe at the end of my shift I am less chatty but I am polite and efficient. I think it is my first or second week in this job and 2 days ago I had my busiest shift. I mean there were people out the fucking door and they just kept coming. I was stressed with learning so many things and having to communicate and put those lessons into practice almost immediately. Now that may not seem all that difficult but when you are already always stressed and there is so much noise and movement, it is pretty fucking hard. But then at the end of the shift, after serving so many bloody tables and a lot of big tables with 6-8 people, I got less than £4. I may sound like an ungrateful bitch but even I tip when I go out. Like it may not be a lot but it shows that I tried.
And you see, my problem isn’t with teens not tipping because obviously they don’t know any better, and I don’t care if you just buy a small snack for yourself and/or your friend because that isn’t a lot of work for me and it is only a small bill anyways. But I swear to god, if I have to get you one million drinks, go back and forth having to get different salts and sauces or you buy lots of meals and desserts, you should at least have the courtesy of giving the waiters a bit of recognition because new flash, this isn’t what we want to be doing on a Friday night. That isn’t your fault and it is our job, I get that, but I’m paid minimum wage and could easily do the bare minimum but because I value you and want you to have the best experience, I work hard. Also, if you think we are being slow, that is probably because we are handling a handful of tables at a time and trying to prioritize and remember all the shit we have to do next. We haven’t forgotten about you, we want to get you sorted as quickly as possible and for me, someone who is new to the job, may take longer and make a few mistakes.
I have had a few embarrassing times, one just the other day, where I was so exhausted and mentally fucked that I just forgot the table numbers and I had to walk around holding plates of food and having no clue where it was. I would sometimes forget what table it was even for and then have to go back and ask the scary chefs and then I would forget what dishes it even was and have to act like an idiot. It is fucking scary to breathe and look you in the eye especially when you are fucking rude or ignorant. Even if you don’t mean it and you don’t necessarily do anything mean like throw water in their face, make sure you give them a smile and a thank you or just any indication that you appreciate their presence because if we didn’t have waiters, you wouldn’t get any food or it would be 10 times later and with worse service. Maybe you think of us as unskilled or something but we are important for you getting your meals and drinks and everything.
So here is something I feel like I need to say. I don’t feel entitled to a tip. I don’t expect every single person to tip because they may not know that is what you usually do yet. But what I don’t appreciate is when you are rude and dismissive and don’t give a tip, despite the fact we were of great service. If you don’t have anything to give, we don’t judge that, but make sure you look us in the eyes and genuinely show you are grateful. That may just be me and I may sound ignorant as it is my first week but every single waiter out there needs a bit of respect. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
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You guys have to agree with me when I say that a lot of things we do nowadays is heavily judged. Like there are a lot of things that people aren’t willing to admit they do because people will laugh at them and call them a basic bitch or a pick me type of person. Don’t get me wrong, there are a few things that mean that you are definitely that type of person but like some things are a bit of a stretch. So yeah, I guess I will expose myself today and show you some of the things that make me “that bitch”.
Being a blonde teenage girl, I feel like I am already set up to get judged 10 times more than others because you know, I look like the dumb blonde whose only personality trait is sipping iced coffee obnoxiously loud in class. But like I do love myself a wee iced coffee. It doesn’t have to be Starbucks I guess but Starbucks is the place you usually get judged for going to. Especially on holidays when you are literally sweating your ass off and you step into the cafe with a gust of cool air hitting you and the sound of the coffee machine. It is literally so good. I don’t know why but I love the sound of the coffee machines in cafes. So you can call me a basic bitch for liking a cheeky wee Starbucks iced coffee on a nice warm day because I won’t stop for nobody PERIODT
We are kinda focusing on the drinks today aren’t we but they are important ones to mention I think. I love water. I don’t know why but like water really hits different. When you are absolutely parched, you don’t reach for a bloody coke no matter what the ads show. You go for a freaking water and that shit is amazing. Like even at a restaurant, I might be that girl who orders water. That is partially because I am broke but like I do enjoy water. But then the one time that I do get a fizzy drink or something, there will be that one adult who is like “oooh, teens and their cokes these days, can’t get them off it”. And you just stare at them like “this isn’t fucking cocaine, like I haven’t had one in ages. I don’t have a bloody mini fridge of things like other teens do”. So yeah, I guess I’m just quirky lol. Forget I ever said that last part that was a joke lol. But despite the fact people think it is boring to like drinking water and every time you get it instead of a monster energy drink you are literally shunned from the friend group. And you know what, I am not taking it any longer. You all know that water is the best.
This one is kind of a different one because I don’t really think that a lot of people my age will relate to this but I actually like doing the dishes. It is just like so relaxing when you are doing something while just watching something on your phone and it is nice to see the pile of dirty dishes go down and then you put stuff away and it is very visually gratifying. I always like to see the results happen you know. And I bet that some guy is gonna be in the comments like “well it’s in a woman’s nature” and to that I say shut the fuck up and I am only one woman and I know that probably a majority of us don’t like it but we aren’t gonna get all political here sorry about that. But the one thing that I hate about doing dishes is when people keep putting dirty dishes in the pile and I’m like where was the fucking need. I mean since when did you have a whole fucking IKEA in your bedroom? I also hate afterwards when you have to clean the drain and there are pieces of disgusting food at the bottom. Literally the bane of my existence. I think that one of the worst punishments would be being in a bath and there are bits like those in it and so you can feel it all over. That would be hell
I know this one is about to get controversial but I swear that one day Ed Sheeran was just completely cancelled and I really have no clue why. Like I see so many things saying that people who still listen to Ed Sheeran are weirdos or they wouldn’t be caught dead listening to him but like some of his music is good. I mean would I be a crazy fan girl and buy his hair on eBay? No. But do I listen to some of the absolute classics? Hell yeah. Someone please explain what he did because I don’t know why I am supposed to be embarrassed for listening to him. He is a good singer too so that can’t be it. I swear to god, if it is because he is ginger!! Literally that would be so hilarious but like it’s 2021 guys, we gotta start getting over that ok.
I Don’t Cry at Movies
This one might seem normal at first. Like there are people who just don’t cry at some things and that’s fine, right? Well, what if I told you I didn’t tear up at “The Notebook”, “The Boy In The Stripped Pajamas” or “Marley and Me” but I did cry at “Moana”, “Inside Out” and “Little Women”. Yup, kinda a weird mix. And you know the 3 that I just said I cried at, those are the ONLY movies I have ever cried at. Well, excluding the time I probably cried at bob the builder because I was forced to watch it over and over as a baby. Bob the builder is such a show though you have to admit. But no, everyone says I have a heart of stone because while they are over there buried in tissues, I’m in the corner making fun of them. You do have to admit though, whenever Moana’s grandma dies it is so fucking sad and then when she comes back as a fucking fish and starts singing. Moana could have sailed in my tears bitch.
Anyways, I think that is all that I will mention for today. Don’t forget to leave a comment if you relate to any of these things or if you do things that others may judge you about. We probably all do it so like don’t even be worrying and even if we don’t, there is no judgment here. But yeah, like, follow and comment if you enjoyed this content and, if you can, feel free to donate some money in the box down below to help the blog keep going. Anything is appreciated. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
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The answer is no, but it is also a bit more complicated than that. Do I like the first day of school where everything is new, you get the new time tables, new classes, new teachers? Yes, you could say that. But in general, I really could not be arsed to go back. Lately when … Continue reading Back To School. Could I be bothered?
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If anybody doesn’t know what cancel culture is, let me explain it to you. Technically, it is just this thing were people ‘cancel’ (or make them unfamous) people because of something bad they said in their lifetime. And you might be saying “well I mean that doesn’t sound too bad” but let me tell you a bit more. The types of things they use as evidence to cancel said person would literally be from when they were literally kids. So if, somehow, a video got out of them pronouncing the word “gay” wrong when they were first learning to talk, they would take that and be like “cancel this hoe, she doesn’t respect the LGBTQIA+ community” and then their whole career goes down the drain. Basically the people who support cancel culture are the so called “snow flake” generation. And that I agree with. The only cancelling I will agree with is cancelling cancel culture.
What is so aggravating about it is that the person could have completely changed from what they had been like 10 years ago and they would still be cancelled. I could be cancelled for this post because of the fact I think cancelling people for what they said years back is bad, but like people change bitch. Unless they said it the other day and don’t actually regret it, get over it because we all make mistakes. The things I have seen people have to apologize for are actually ridiculous. There was this one hilarious video I had watched, I forget what it was about, but it was so funny. It was by Spencerwuah I think, and it was the tiniest thing about literally nothing and people in the comments were like “oh my god I can’t believe you just said that” “address it” “oh my god some people are just so awful” and there are points where you actually think it’s a joke but it isn’t and your like who the fuck hurt you to be so sensitive.
People’s whole career’s get ruined for it too. Like when we are kids our parent’s tell us things and we believe them because we don’t know what else to think, like we haven’t made our own opinions yet. And then later on in life people learn that maybe their opinion isn’t right and so they change who they used to be, but people don’t like to see that. No matter how much they apologize, their career that they once loved has just disappeared. Now don’t get me wrong, there are some things that aren’t ok such as recent discoveries about James Charles and Shane Dawson being actual pedophiles, but like that is a literal crime and absolutely disgusting and it is recent with actual evidence that they did it. But like for other times, people really do just twist words. And they also just don’t give them a chance to defend themselves or correct themselves. Kind of like if one time they misgender someone and then they are like “Oh sorry, what are your pronouns?”, all the cancel culture bitches will be like “don’t try to make yourself look like the victim you are so close minded” when in reality they just made a mistake.
So just to finish I suppose, cancel culture needs to be cancelled because people change and some of the evidence you use to prove your point is ridiculous. But don’t get me wrong, if there are pedophilia charges or rape charges, those people don’t deserve to have freedom, but if it is something from 10 million years ago, they have probably changed so get your dramatic, pasty Karen ass out of here because we don’t wanna hear it. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself (unless you are a pedophile or rapist) PERIODT
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I got my GCSE results yesterday and to be honest, I feel the same fucking way I felt last week. I mean there was no big sigh of relief or weight off my shoulders. I didn’t turn ecstatic, it was just another part of my day. Like it was literally just reading letters on a … Continue reading I Got My Results and I Feel…
I’m just gonna get right into this hoe because I don’t really know what to say as an introduction. Sorry to all my English teachers but guess what? I don’t give a fuck, so I’m gonna get into it and tell you some things that I really want to see some day and I don’t … Continue reading Things I Would Like To See One Day But I Haven’t Yet
The world needs more pockets. Nope, that isn’t a joke. Today I am talking about why the world needs more pockets *gets kicked out of Climate Change organisation*
In all honesty though, I have a solid argument about why we need more pockets. Maybe not in the USA though. They’ll just carry more guns 😮 oooooohhhhh I just went there lol. Just jokes though guys lmao. But I love pockets. Hands down, I love pockets more than I love myself, but that doesn’t say much to be honest 😮 self burn! I have a brand of leggings that I pretty much worship, and I mean I am not a religious bitch but these are my savior. It is so freaking convenient to be walking down the street on a warm day and nobody is wearing a coat or jacket or anything like that and they are like “uh I can’t be bothered holding my phone anymore” and I just fling my leg in front of them dramatically and point at my leg and go “suckers” and run off with empty hands and a phone in my pocket. It is just so convenient and I feel like, as a woman, the pay gap may not be a thing everywhere, but the pocket gap is more prevalent than ever. And that is quite literal. Men are fucking snails because they can bring their whole house we them, and girls are bloody struggling to put a receipt in their pocket. Then the guys all be complaining like “why you always got so much stuff in your bag lmao”. Well, Josh, why have you got car keys, your phone, a charger, a battery, a lighter, 10 pound coins, and last nights dinner in only one pocket! Answer me that bitch.
I suppose it means that when there are decent pockets it is extra exciting. If something has nice pockets, the world gotta know. I will wear it for as long as it takes for everyone I know to appreciate it has pockets. So many of them don’t understand my excitement privileged bitches and I’m sick of it to be quite honest with you. And whenever I find a ‘pocket’ and I go to check the size of it and my fingernails can’t even fit in, you better know that just ruined my day. What cruel fuck decided to do that? What was the point? I just look like an actually idiot now because I just tried to jam my hand into fuck all! I also got an oodie for Christmas and if you don’t know what they are, they are the comfiest things in the world. Like, that wee girl from Despicable Me, the one that say “it’s so fluffy I’m gonna die”, yeah, well she would be dead from an oodie. But that’s beside the point. It has a massive pocket and I feel like a bloody Kangaroo because that is how big the pocket is. It brings me so much happiness. My dog can fit in it! What else could you want in life?
Honestly though, why does women’s clothing always have like 0.1 pockets? Is it so we buy more bags or whatever? Is there a pocket shortage? The pocket famine? I bet you they were all made by men who wanted to keep all the pockets to themselves and now they are just laughing in their corporate office on the top floor of a skyscraper with all their millions of dollars in one pocket and their massive ego in the other. I can picture it now. How… terrifying. But yeah, who wants to sign a petition that we should all be treated equally. No person should ever have to get that fear everyday when they get no clothes. Women deserve pockets bitch! Vote for me, because pockets are our future. Wow, really got emotional there didn’t we. Imagine someone just skipped to that part after reading the title and thought that this was actually a serious post lmao. They just reading this like “what the fuck has the world come to”. But in all honesty and seriousness, is it really that hard to put an actual decent sized pocket on everyone’s clothing? It literally makes me so happy to have pockets.
Someone please make a clothing brand called “world in my pocket”. It’s inspired by the absolute CLASSIC show “Grandpa in my pocket” and shows that the pockets won’t be minuscule and also shows that women are boss bitches because, well, we have the world in our pocket. Just make sure you give me a shout out on your site and put this post on one of your pages so others can really understand your brand. Your welcome I guess. But anyways, that is the wee rant over. I feel like I really got to your guys. Connected on a whole new level. I mean pockets are one of the greatest things and we shall not be kept away from it for any longer. But yeah, I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
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I’m going to try and keep this post quite small, kind of like the size of the tips people give. Yup, that is what I am talking about today and I would like to preface that this is in the most respectful way possible. I don’t feel this way towards young teen or people struggling … Continue reading Something I Realized About Being a Waitress
In the wise words of Ariana Grande, “whoever said money can’t solve your problems must not have had enough money to solve ’em” and I live by that honestly. It is true though. Like a lot of my problems are caused by money but can also be fixed by them soooo. But every time I hear that phrase, I just think of the mugs that we all got as a kid and it would say “money can’t buy happiness but it can buy you cupcakes” and we would literally eat it up. We thought we were so fucking relatable when we had bloody chocolate milk in that mug or something like that. That’s what I hate though whenever I tell people I want to get rich and live the life I want and they are like “but money isn’t everything. It can’t solve your problems” and I just look at them like “I don’t give a flying fuck if it doesn’t solve my problems. It would be impossible to solve that many. Even my therapist can’t do it bitch, but I would rather be depressed in Greece under the sun with a lovely view, than stuck in Northern Ireland with the view of bloody chavs roaming around the streets. You get me? I mean which one do you prefer? Be honest.
And I think that having a lot of money wouldn’t solve all my problems, but it could solve someone else’s. I want to do charity work in Africa or something or like give a homeless person a house, but if I don’t have the money, what the fuck am I going to do? Walk up to a homeless person and say “you see that house there. That is yours… is what I would say if I have the money but I don’t” *walks away* I mean that doesn’t sound fair to me. And I don’t see why people get so pressed whenever you talk about wanting lots of money. Like I’m just talking to my family or something and I’m like “yeah I want to get rich and travel the world” and they look at me like I just turned into fucking Donald Trump and as though I’m a disappointment for wanting to be successful. Mum and Dad just be like “I thought we brought you up well! I can’t believe you’ve just done this!” *me laughing because I am now thinking of that one vine*
Yeah, I hope other people got that reference because that would be quite embarrassing if you didn’t. But back on topic. Why is it that people think money is such a bad thing. When people win the lottery, others are like “awk you don’t even need all that money, why did they even take the money oh my god” and I don’t know if they are just jealous or something but like if someone went up to you and was like “well done you won the lottery of £20 million” and you were like “no it’s ok I don’t really want it. Thank you” and they are like “but you literally bought a fucking ticket for it” and then your like “money doesn’t solve your problems, so no thank you” and then the guy says “£20 million fucking will you dumb fuck”. Like honestly, you entered it for a reason. So many people do. Do you want to not win it? Do you just like to complain that you never get it, when in reality you would just throw it away if you won. Like yes it is a lot of money but it doesn’t mean they are just gonna wipe their ass with it. They probably will donate some or do something nice with it. It isn’t their fault for entering a lottery like normal. They didn’t harry potter the fuck out of the numbers so they won. It is all by chance. So like why are people judging them the fuck! Make it make sense please because right now I would be loving a couple million in the bank.
I could list about 100 problems that money could solve for me. That isn’t even a joke. I wouldn’t have to go to school or work ever again, I could travel and see things I never would have been able to see, I could help the less fortunate, I would have more of a voice, I could actively do things to improve the planet, I could do things like skydiving that I have never done before, I could pay for my mum and dad to never go to work again, I could support so many of the people I love. But then again that would make me selfish, no? I think it would be pretty bloody great to get a load of money you know. So to whatever numskull first said “money can’t solve your problems”, I dare you to win the lottery and find out what it solves, because hopefully it could fix your fucking brain for thinking money won’t do anything. But here’s what I will do. I will try my hardest to become rich and gather a lot of money, and then I will be the judge that will end the question of whether or not it solves my problems and at the moment, my guess is that it will, so just wait a few years and I’ll get back to you *sips wine from “money can’t buy you happiness, but it can buy you cupcakes”mug*
Thank you so much for reading this post. It was a tad random, but lets be honest, it was necessary. Who else thinks that money could solve their problems? I know that some of mine could. Not all of them like but money can also pay for a therapist which could help. I don’t know, but hopefully we will find out. Please like, comment and subscribe if you enjoyed this content and I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
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My last ever GCSE exam (hopefully) is on tomorrow. Pretty freaky. Didn’t really think I would make it this far. I was wanting to do one of the things where it is like after 2 years, 107 hours of study, 20 mental break downs etc. but I can’t add up all of the mental breakdowns I had because it is a fuck tone, while on the other hand, I could count all my study hours on one hand. Why is that literally not even a joke though lol? But anyway, this is serious. I have my biology exam tomorrow and let’s just say it isn’t my strong point, but I am excited to get it done and over with after 5 years of being forced to do it. I am kinda scared, kind of excited, very much exhausted, but I just wanted to make a reminder to all of the people out there who are in a similar situation or are doing something difficult at the moment. You never know, somebody could be reading this in 2050 on mars and they are reading this in their mind thinking it is so retro that I have to use my fingers to type and they are just vibing in some space hope. Either that or WW3 wiped all of humanity out lol. But even if you are that person, I hope this will help you in some way, although isn’t the only problem is the shortage of mums? Mars needs mums sorry that was a bad one I have to admit. This is supposed to be serious actually, but I also wanted to talk about it in another way, through a story. So enjoy.
I am on the first step. You know, the steps you are told to take if you want to succeed. There are only 4 of them which seems easy, but it’s kinda hard. But maybe I am just overthinking these things. The first step, the one I am on, is getting straight A’s in school. That was a hard one to. I had to ignore friends and write lots of notes. I got very little sleep, but I got there eventually. Sure, I lost a lot, but it’s worth it, right? My next step is getting a degree. This one seems fun with the parties and friends, but I can’t quite see why people pay so much for it. I guess I will find out when I’m there. The thing is, step 2 is quite dangerous in terms of survival. A lot of people usually don’t make it past here because of mental problems, some completely lose the degree and go tumbling down the stairs. I have never seen anyone get back up after falling down. But that won’t happen to me. Obviously, it won’t, because I am different. My parents told me so. After you get your degree you can move on to step 3. Or as it better know, the point of no return. Once you get there they don’t let you back down, or at least they very rarely do. What is up there? Oh, a secure job. Or, well, they call it secure, but I have seen lots of people fall down from there. But that won’t happen to me when I get up there. I am going to be so smart and ready, and just like my parents said, I am different. So I am not worried about it. You have to stay there for a while though. Pretty much for the majority of your life. But it’s cool. You can get a family and a house. But that is pretty much it, I suppose.
Then comes the last step. Step 4. That can only happen if you have gathered a good enough pension in step 3. If not, then you are booted down the steps again. I don’t think they do much up there though. It is a lot of waiting to go through the pearly gates at the end. Why? Because the pension they got usually doesn’t leave much room for adventure and by that point, they are exhausted. Who can blame them though, it is an awfully long journey. I am not sure what is past the gates though. People come up with all types of stuff and it is pretty cool. I am looking forward to it I guess. I mean if I went all that way to get there, it better be worth it. But no matter what, I am still on the first step. Just waiting on the cold rock steps. People seem to like it here, but I don’t. I can’t stop getting the feeling that there is something more. I have asked others about it, but they say that is all fake and never actually happens. Especially to people like us. But I swear that at times when I look around, I see other steps in the distance. It just flickers and maybe it is a hallucination, but it seems so real. So fascinating. There are never many people on it though, despite the fact that it looks so much nicer than over here. Every time I see it, it stays for longer and it gets closer. I am fed up with trying to show the others because they make me feel crazy and it makes me move farther away. So I keep this to myself in hopes that someday I get close enough to reach them.
It’s been a week. I am on the 3rd step now. I mean it is fun but it gets me distracted from the other steps. I feel as though I am always looking at what else there is, and not at the next step to success like everyone else. I think I am just dreaming and I haven’t come to terms that this is the best way for me to get to the gates. The way that I can make my parents proud of me and get the right job for a comfortable retirement. It still bugs me though. I mean why, after all these years of being so set on what to do and how I will do it, I suddenly don’t want it anymore. I mean I am fixating on the impossible.
Another week. I have decided that I am going to jump. I can’t bear being on these steps anymore when I know that there is something else out there. At this point, I don’t even care if I don’t find anything because it will always be better than there. I have lost too many people to step 3 and I don’t want to become one of them. I have no skills for this, no knowledge. All of my schooling years have taught me nothing about how to make it to the other steps, so I have to find it on my own. There is no turning back now, but I am going to try everything I can to get to a better place.
I’ve made it! After all the long, lonely weeks, I have found the steps. I made sure to not let it out of my sight. I put everything I had left into getting there and I made it. When I got there, I looked up and my breath was taken away. I finally found where I was meant to be. The steps were nicely laid out, there weren’t as many people, it looked like a steep trek, but each seemed so much better than the one before. The people who fall down a step don’t get stuck at the bottom. They seem to have the support of some kind. I am pretty sure they call it knowledge, or determination, or something along those lines. There are so many more steps, but they get easier and shorter every time you get to the next one. The people look so much happier here than on my other step. Why did nobody tell me about this? Why was I told that the steps to success were over there when the ones right in front of me seem so much better? Well, I guess it is time to find out. It is time to get started.
I am on the first step. You know, the steps that were only in the movies and never talked about. There are many to go which seems hard, but it’s kinda awesome. Maybe I am different after all.
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Anyways, that’s the story. What this kind of means is just that, despite what other’s tell you and what you think is right, there are different steps out there. Despite the fact you might be told it is ridiculous or fake, it is possible. So no matter what happens with your exams, or later on in life, you aren’t useless, these just aren’t the steps for you. But when you find them, you will be so happy and it will be so worth the wait. So take the risk, go against what they say, and it will be so worth it.
Hey guys. So this week has been a very “what the fuck” week if you get me. Like there are a lot of moments where I have been asking myself “what is even the point lol”. NO, I don’t mean that in a mentally ill kinda way, but like when I am told to do things or I see someone doing something, I am just wondering why the fuck I would do it
Do I really need to say anymore? I mean why the hell would I be like “on my time on this earth, I will only feel proud when I can run a fucking long distance”. Bitch what sort of trauma do you have because that isn’t sane people shit. Like I am sorry but why would you want to. You would get so bloody bored as well. So you are sore, tired and bored, I go through that all on a regular bases anyways, so I don’t really see the need to run to get those things. I mean I suppose I could see if it is for a charity, but like Mo Farah and other Olympian people literally do it as a warm up or something. I used to run and do 5k but that shit was so boring and I hated every second of it. To any runners out there, are you ok?
I just know that my friends are reading this like “will this bitch ever let it go” because we are making a bucket list of things to do during summer and a couple of them were like absolutely, camping is such a great idea, and me and others are like “but why”. But like seriously, this needs talked about. Why would I willing sleep outside, in the cold, where there is no body that can hear me scream, no help near, I have to piss in the woods, sleep with insects, get all smelly, have to carry a bunch of things there and back, not have a very nice meal, literally be kidnapped etc. When I could literally be warm in my bed, watching a movie, hear the rain from the comfort of my house, no insects, have nice food, not have to carry anything anywhere, relax, piss in an actual toilet, and have less chance of being murdered in my sleep. Like give me a reason why camping sounds better? There argument was that it is an adventure and unique, but bitch the only thing making it unique is that you won’t be able to do it again because you are dead. Like… And it is hardly like you are going to do anything groundbreaking when you get there. Like you are hardly going to set up a tent on top of dinosaur bones, or right next to a top-secret Russian spy base. Like we live in Northern Ireland. The most you are going to find is an empty Guinness can.
I am definitely not mentioning this just because I never have a chance with going out with anyone, so don’t get that idea in your head But in all seriousness, are you telling me I have to pay attention and talk to them on a regular bases and leave my house? I don’t do that with my friends so why would a man be any difference? I have been in a relationship once and, maybe it was just the guy, but it really ain’t all roses and kisses. Like it is tiring as fuck. Maybe if you find an actual nice person, but like other than that I could not be bothered. I really have lost all faith in men at the moment so maybe I am biased. But at the moment I am fine with just living in my shell, only talking to people when I have an ounce of sanity, and having no real responsibility to go out with people and be interesting. lol
The Responsibilities of Being Famous
I am not gonna lie. I feel like it would be cool to be famous and have a bunch of people who know you and actually like you, but then you hear so many stories and then I am like “ok maybe no”. Like they have to go to award ceremonies, talk to people, act happy all the time, always say the right thing, always have to post and be active on social media and things like that. They all have really busy lifestyles, and for me productive day is having a shower. Like maybe I am just having a mental breakdown, but surely they have them too and they still need to keep on doing so many things. Maybe it is worth it, I will never really know that, but like do they ever just get a day to stay at home and do literally nothing?
Being a Mum
So this one might be a controversial, might get on some people’s nerves, but like if it does you are probably a misogynistic twat so… But what I mean is that, I would like to have children and be a mum, but it is the things you have to do as a mum that gets me. Not even the dirty nappy’s or the no sleep part, but the fact that I feel as though mums are still the people doing all the house work. At least it is like that in my family. My mum has a job, like my dad, but she does more work in the office, at home, does the dishes, makes the dinner, cleans, brings us to and from school, the laundry, literally everything. I am not sure if it is like that for all people but it is for me and although I try to help out, I can’t do enough to help her. My dad just works and does the dishes/makes dinner whenever he actually has to. The reason I said this might be a bit controversial is because some people will definitely say “oh well women are supposed to be in the kitchen. They are supposed to do those jobs” and I am not saying all of these things should be put onto men, but like why can’t it be equal work for both of us. I don’t want to become a mum if it means it will turn into the traditional gender roles in society, you know.
Lol anyways, this is kinda what I think about sometimes. It really got a bit deep at the end there didn’t it but like oh well. Please like, comment and subscribe if you enjoyed this type of content. I think it is a wee bit of a laugh and I enjoy it. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
Hey there guys. So a while back, when I was volunteering at this run, an older guy was with me and others. They started chatting about how much rubbish there was everywhere and how global warming is getting really bad. Being the youngest there by at least 15 years, I didn’t really say much, oh and also because I am very socially awkward. And being socially awkward, the only time I talked was at the wrong time. The one guy said “this summer is supposed to be quite warm” and I was like “oh I hope so, that would be nice” and he looked at me as if I just insulted his entire family. I had kind of forgotten about their whole global warming conversation, so he was saying about how it will be warm because of pollution and all that. Then he said, “that isn’t a good thing, but I guess your generation just don’t care about this type of stuff”. And I just looked at him in kind of disbelief, and I swear, if “respect your elders” wasn’t a thing, I would have been having a proper show-down how-down with this bitch. But instead, I just stood there for another 30 minutes having to contain my anger. What the fuck does he mean by “you generation just don’t care”. Have you not seen bloody Greta Thunberg? Did you just forget that your generation is the ones that caused all this global warming shit? Did you think about that!? I think the fuck not. Anyways, that is not the point of this post hahaha so let’s get into it.
Since then, I have been even more determined to make a difference on the earth. Preferably a positive one lol. And I also wanted to do it in a modern way to show that the technology we use today, isn’t destroying our generation, and to show that moving forwards is the right way to go. And being the teen (who hates school with a passion and will do anything to never have to go and work again) I am, I decided I would make a cheeky wee business. And with that, I present to you, Entorno.
This website contains only eco-friendly products. That means they will help to reduce the waste that we create every day, both with energy and physical products. The products I have on at the moment include,
– water bottles
– metal straws
– reusable shopping bag
– reusable face masks
– reusable lunch box
– solar power bank
With these products, I hope to let people feel certain that what they are buying can help to make a difference. Although it will require shipping to get to people’s houses, over all, the reduce in plastic waste and non-renewable energy, will hopefully make more of a positive impact over all. Now I only have a few products on there at the moment, but I am hoping that in the future I will be able to widen the selection, however due to money and all that stuff, I will have to wait for a bit, so make sure that you keep up to date with the site, but I will make sure to keep you updated here. You see, although going out and picking up rubbish and walking/cycling instead of driving is really good and really helps our environment, don’t you think it would be better to pull out the root of the problem. It’s like weeds. If you cut off the top of it, you won’t be able to see it anymore which is great as that is what you want, but it will keep growing back no matter how many times you cut off the top. However, if you get your hands dirty and pull out the weed and all it’s roots, it won’t grow back. Now obviously, that doesn’t completely solve the problem, but it slows down the process of so many more weeds spreading. So let’s compare this to global warming and pollution. If you get the trash of the streets and walk more instead of using petrol/diesel cars, it is like cutting off the top of the weed. You can’t see it anymore and it looks as though you are solving the problem. But the truth is, the roots are still there, and in this case that means that people are still using all the plastic, non-reusable waste, and eventually they will need to use there cars. There are hundreds of cars moving every single second, and that only accounts for one town. So what do we need to do? PULL OUT THE ROOTS! We need to completely get rid of plastic, we need to replace non-reusable with reusable, we need to have electric cars powered my renewable energy. And I know that is easier said than done, and I know that will take a lot of hard work. But in the words of Mary Poppins “well, the quicker your into it, the quicker your out of it”.
So let’s stop moaning, blaming and talking about it. Let’s start working together to make it right again. To bring back life to earth before it is too late. They say we only have until 2050 before the effects of climate change become irreversible, so literally every second count. And although 30 years may seem like a lot, we have no time to spare, so every little thing you do makes such a difference. Let’s start this story off right so that we can tell our grandkids the time the world came together and saved the wonderful planet we live in, instead of telling them what it was like before darkness and misery spread the earth. Don’t let nature be a part of history class, let nature be a part of the future. So please, doing anything that will help me with this business idea. If you can’t purchase anything at the moment, please like, comment, follow and share so that we can get our plan across to others. Because no matter who caused this to happen, we are all in it now and we all need to work together to restore the beauty of planet earth. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
What is earth? Firstly, it’s not flat. But shit, that’s a tough one. In one perspective, it is so large but so absolutely minuscule and insignificant in the grand scheme of things, yet it makes up everything we see and do and live for. It is a floating rock rotating around a ball of gas that is moving at unknown speeds through a large vat of nothingness, but yet everythingness (if that is even a word). It is such a miraculous thing to see and learn about and it is placed in the perfect place for life and intelligence to form which is absolutely crazy but… then comes the other perspective. There is life in that insignificantly significant flying rock. There are people who live in it like it is normal. There are people who live in it like it is not a scientific wonder. And sadly that is a lot of them. You see Mr alien, a lot of people, including myself, hate that rock. They hate it so much that they it ruins there life and they loose sight of it’s beauty. The earth is a cruel place and has so many rules and problems and such awful memories lie in it.
You see, there are people in there who have chosen to own the land and create rules so they can control us. Don’t get me wrong, they have done pretty amazing stuff. Like you can send an image from one side of the world to the other in less than a second. And you can fly in a rocket to the moon. But the people on earth like to focus on the negative for some reason. They always put the negatives as the headline of the news. The news is thing that is shown around the world, telling us what is happening. Or at least they are meant to. They usually just put in what they want us to hear and not what is important. But anyways, they like to remind us of how terrible life is, and very rarely to they just say “a lot of things are happening in the world, but you need to remember that if we all stick together, we can get through this”. I guess that would be hard though because, and I forgot to tell you this, certain people down there think they are better than others. Why? I don’t know, I think it is stupidity and ignora… oh, well it is to do with race, religion and beliefs, just to name a few. You see there is this book called the bible that people misunderstand and they use this to justify their points, when in reality they are just bad people who are really going against the bible, the very thing they live for. But yeah, there are people of different colours on earth, and that’s just because the colour of our skin has evolved over so many years to look different depending on what country or part of the world you live in or your ancestors lived in. It is completely natural and everybody is still a human, but some people decide that, because they are white, they are superior. You see, on earth, they have created an image of what a perfect human being is. A straight, white manly man. But that isn’t true, yet some people live by that and it breaks the world apart. So many things have been normalised on earth, yet there is no ‘normal’. It is confusing to explain I guess.
Also on earth, the people live a pretty routine life. They are born, and at the age of only 3-4, they are put into these things called school. It is where they go to learn all types of things like math, English, science and art. What? No, it lasts for at least 14 years, not just 1. Huh? No, they don’t like it. In fact, it kind of ruins things for them. We teach them everything and they are then judged of a letter on a piece of paper. I would say a majority of it is useless. I mean it is good to know how to read and add but I don’t really remember the last time I had to work out the circumference of a circle. And yeah, pretty much there self-worth and there future relies on the first years of their life. And it destroys there mental health like nothing else. Yup, because of stress, peer pressure, expectations, the fear of the future, and that is only naming a few. And yet, unlike everything else in the world, it has not changed. They are still taught in rows, everyone taught the same way, the same schedule, the same expectations. We don’t know why, but for some reason they don’t want to catch up. Now, I don’t have long because I need to get back home, but just let me simplify this for you. The world is such a confusing and wonderful place, but the people inside have stripped it of it’s worth and meaning. They have made so many things in an effort to protect and improve it, but in reality it makes us loose sight of what really matters. It makes us hate the entirety of the earth and it’s content. It is a wonderfully, terrifyingly, painfully confusing place. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
Lately this whole “snowflake generation” thing has become a universally known term to describe Gen z. They say it because we are to sensitive or fragile, because, well, I guess we take things too seriously or we are too awkward to do certain things like standing up for ourselves. And I know that you are all going to comment things like “complaining about being a snowflake makes you a snowflake” and “wow they really are sensitive” but I just kinda wanted to shed a little light on what I, a Gen Z, think of the title.
The other day we were talking about some of the words that we can’t say for obvious reason. For example, as a white person there are words I can’t say and other things like that. And then the adults were kind of talking about how “you can say these words just don’t say them to other people” and they were talking about how we can say it. Now I just looked at them so confused because they were rambling on about this, and if I said anything about it, such as “we don’t have the right to say that whether or not it is in a song, or a book or a general conversation”, I would be hit with the “your such a snowflake lol” and that would be the conversation over. But that just really annoys me because I feel like that is just the right thing. Just a way to educate people that despite the fact you think it is ok to say certain things, it really isn’t and we need to change how we act sometimes. So for me at least, I don’t think that standing up for what is right shouldn’t be labeled as being too fragile. Maybe our generation is trying to teach the older generations that times have changed and we want to start improving certain things that they would have seen as normal.
I also find that my way of talking to my friends or my sisters is a lot different to how older generation do it. Like, me and my sister could be just being sarcastic and ‘mean’ to each other, but like in a jokey way, and my mum would be raging and saying we should be nicer, but that is just how we communicate. We tend to make a lot more jokes than other people and they don’t take that very well. For example, my dad came in and was talking about something that he made sound really dramatic but pretty much was just about how his friend bought something in the shop or something like that and I was like “wow that was such a great story dad”, but like sarcastically and he was so offended. I just looked at him and back at my sister and I was so confused because it was pretty obviously a joke. And then whenever my sister would be like “that garden is so ugly” or something random like that, I would go “you’re so ugly” and then we just laugh it off. Basically we say random jokes and kind of shows that we are close enough and respect each other enough to do that, but then my parents would literally be calling a therapist because she thinks I am bullying her or something. So if we really are “snowflakes”, then why would we be talking to each other like that. We don’t even take offense to it, but the older generation do. So who is the snowflake now bitches.
My other argument for it is that I feel like a lot of people call us snowflakes because of our mental health situation. Like all the Karen’s will be talking about how everyone is depressed or mentally ill because we take things so seriously and we just need to relax, but then they ignore the actual reason so many of us are mentally unstable. Let me just name 5 points for now, just as a wee eye opener ok. There is school, social media, global warming, pandemic, meeting parents expectations… oh wait we are at 5 already. Damn, I didn’t even get warmed up. Now you can look at that list and think “well we went through multiple of those things too” and yes, you did, well done, but times have changed since you were at school and there are more pressures and problems at the moment. In the past, you didn’t have to pay for university. You didn’t have social media which is so confusing and impactful in our lives. You had global warming but you kind of caused it and didn’t change things when you could and now you are leaving it all up to us to fix it and also blaming us for it. You weren’t told that we only have to 2050 before it is controllable. Unless you are over 100 years old, you have never been in a global pandemic. You have most likely not had pretty much all of your important school years at home, where you had to teach it to yourself and nothing stayed normal for more that 1 hour. And the last one, parents expectations, you guys did have this too and I know that. It was a big one for all of us but I put it in just to remind you that we don’t try to disappoint you, no matter what we do. I know for a fact that we all want to make you proud, and that can be stressful sometimes. So maybe think about the real reason behind our mental state before you go off blaming it on the fact we are too sensitive, because maybe you should blame it on the fact we are too tired.
So you can call us snowflakes if you want, but snowflakes make an avalanche and that is what we are. Our generation is going to make a change and we are going to create something strong and powerful. I know that is cheesy as fuck, but I think it makes sense. Maybe as individuals we seem “fragile” but when we are all together, there is nothing stopping us PERIODT.
You have to admit, there are a lot of weird things that we have made as a society and this is kinda just funny to me. I don’t know why though, but like the concept of a bucket list is so weird. We literally plan out a step-by-step guide to what we are going do before we die, but we rarely even finish it. And the name too! I just realised not that long ago that it is called a bucket list because it is a list of things you want to do before you kick the bucket. That is funny to me for some reason. We just normalise it, like “hey, what do you plan to do before your heart starts beating and you fall into the unknown?” Hmm, let me think Jessica. And then we literally have the audacity to put the most meaningless things in it like ‘eat a boojum burrito’ bitch people do that every day, I mean it isn’t that hard. Or they would say ‘get rid of all of my toxic friends’. You should be doing that anyways Britney! Like you aren’t that special.
It also seems quite creepy whenever people tick things off the list and then you are just thinking “ah, one step closer to being able to die happily” like the fuck! What are you gonna do when you finish the list? It isn’t a bloody scavenger hunt. It isn’t like a game where you win after completing all your tasks. And besides, if you have it all done by the time you are 30, 40 or 50, you still have at least half of your life left so what are you going to do? Just sit on the sofa with a deranged smile on your face thinking “I am completely depressed with fuck all going on in my life, but hey, I finished my bucket list lol”. I think I would prefer to be spontaneous and live life as it comes and do things when I get the chance. Why would you see a sign for something and be like “yes, let me add that to my bucket list even though there is a 100% chance I will never actually do it because it is just a fucking piece of paper”. Go and do it! You have the option to do it now! And I know that is a bit hypocritical from what I had just said about doing everything quickly, but it means that you don’t have to stick to a plan, you can just go and look back later and think “damn I really did that much”.
I don’t know if it’s just me, but I want to be able to have a life that people would want to have on their bucket list… if that even makes any sense. But you get what I mean. We all make our lives so structured and so laid out that we miss out on all the opportunities we could of had, just to achieve goals that we don’t always meet. What if, instead of a bucket list, we had a bucket diary where we write down everything exciting that we have done because then you can look back at your relaxed, eventful life and see the things that you hadn’t even planned to do but loved. We can’t live our lives like levels of a game, we gotta make it into a book. The most exciting thing that anyone has ever read. That way you can live your life as though it will be a best selling book instead of waste of paper.
We need to stop misusing our privilege, but we need to start using it effectively
I saw a tiktok yesterday. It was a black girl who was talking about the time she was at a peaceful protest for BLM. She said that all the white people there would be throwing rocks and water bottles at the police, but the thing is, they were all at the back. And thanks to racist police, they would attack those at the front, the people of colour. She talked about how she had to shout for the white people to get to the front because they were the ones angering the police, but it wasn’t them who were getting tackled down and arrested. And it really made me open my eyes. I mean, it was great that they had people of all races at the protest but what they do is what makes it all go to shit. So instead of just hiding behind the people who will get much worse consequences for something they didn’t actually do, we need to up at the front, using our white privilege as a shield. This is really important.
Also, can I ask you guys something. I have heard kind of mixed answers from this before, however all of them have actually come from white people. Is it offensive to say black woman, or black man etc. because I know that saying white people is fine, but then again our situations are so much different. So could someone please tell me if it is ok to say that or if there is something else I should say instead. That would be greatly appreciated guys!
We need to stop ignoring others, but we need to start accepting and growing
This also came from a tiktok video. It was this guy who had a stutter. I actually talked about this yesterday, but he was saying how it is offensive for people to say “did I stutter?” because it makes it seem that stutters make you less smart or valid than others. And I am going to admit, when I first watched it, I was thinking “but that isn’t what I mean, maybe he just misunderstand it. I am not ablest”. Then I caught myself. I realised that by saying that, I was being so ignorant. If someone with a certain disability or difference says that something is offensive or insulting, they are right. Every. Single. Time. Me, a person with no speech impediment has no fucking right say that someones opinion is invalid because I have no fucking clue what they go through or how they feel. We need to stop defending ourselves and saying “but I’m not ablest” or “I’m not racist so that’s not racist”, or anything like that. Just because we may see ourselves in a certain way, doesn’t mean we necessarily are. The people we talk to have just lived a lifestyle where they will get into trouble if they speak out against it. So if you really “aren’t racist” or “aren’t ablest”, then admit your were wrong, apologize, learn, and grow from this.
We need to stop saying, but we need to start doing
I find that I do this a lot. I always support BLM and equality and other stuff like that, but I say that. I don’t necessarily show it. And showing it is so much more important. Now I could sit here and write you a list of excuse, like the pandemic, or my mum can’t drive me to a protest, but that won’t get me, or anyone else, anywhere. A lot of privileged people, including me, make sure that everyone around them knows they are such an accepting person. They will have all over their Instagram BLM shout outs and pride flags, but you will never see them in the thick of it. It has become their personality trait. And I could imagine that when you guys, who need privileged people to help, hear this stuff, you just stare at them like “and?”. That does fuck all. So save your time creating hundreds of posts that everyone skips past, go out and do it. Stop saying and stop doing. I know this is something I need to work on too.
We need to stop assuming, but we need to start asking
In my school year, we aren’t really that diverse. Now, it isn’t a school that purposely does that, but I live in Northern Ireland which unfortunately isn’t really diverse over all. So that means that I don’t have any friends that are colored, or disabled, or other discriminated groups. The only groups I would ever be around are the LGBTQ+ community and people with mental health problems (if that even counts) or learning problems. This isn’t me trying to prove myself so lets move on. A lot of the things are here about what others go through are from online, from people who only have 60 seconds to explain, or people who are also just assuming and don’t actually know what others are going through. This is partly why I made that post yesterday asking you guys to leave a comment about what you go through and how you want us to help or what you want us to understand. Getting information from people who aren’t even affected by it can be so harmful because then we make the wrong assumption, put it into action, and mess everything up. As a socially awkward person, I am not good at talking to new people, especially if they aren’t in my school classes, but I have 200+ followers who, for some reason, like my content, and I want to ask you guys because I want to flush out all the fake information from my brain and fill it in with the truth.
I also want to ask something to you, if you go through discrimination in your life. Would it be ok for someone to go up to you and ask you questions about what you go through and how they can help. I mean, you probably wouldn’t be ok with a stranger, but even someone you are familiar with. Just so that my followers know and feel more confident asking others so hopefully this will allow us to become more informed about the situations in our home towns. And also, if you are comfortable, could you comment down below anything you want us to know. Whether that is stories, things you want us to know, or things you want us to do. Just so that people can read them and learn.
Anyways, thank you so much for reading this. Please feel free to tell me if there is something I left out or said that was offensive to you in any way. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
Hi, if you don’t know me, I am a straight white teenage girl with no disabilities and just a mental health problem. What does that mean? That means that the only discrimination I have faced is being a woman. Now, there has been problems with sexism at the moment, but over all I have got it pretty easy. But I want to use that to help others too. And the only way I really know how to do that would be to use this platform to get people to listen.
That is where my next problem comes into play. How am I supposed to help when I know very little about what you guys go through and what YOU want me to do. Because I could write a whole essay about equality, but it would do fuck all because I don’t know what you guys really want us to do. So please, no matter what it is that you go through, whether it is a disability, race, sexuality, anything, can you please comment below something that you guys want us, the people who are can use your privilege to help, to do in order to help you guys or just be aware of certain things. You can leave a story about a time where you were discriminated against and say what you would have wanted someone to do to help, or just state anything. If you are comfortable of course.
I’m going to admit, I know very little about what others go through but I want that to change. I mean I am a sympathetic person but I also feel stuck on what to do and sometimes I can be a bit ignorant. On TikTok there was this guy with a stutter and was talking about how saying “did I stutter” was insulting. And I had said these before and didn’t think anything from it. So please educate me and everyone else on the internet because although we will never know what you go through and how you feel, I want to be able to do the most I can to make you feel safer or more included in the world.
So I am sorry if I sound like your basic bitch trying to get clout or something. This is not a trend, this is a real life problem and I would appreciate it so much if you guys could help spread awareness. But yeah, that is pretty much it. Just know that you are perfect just the way you are. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
No I am not about to do a proper “face reveal”. I am talking about the fact that as a teenager we are expected to understand who we are and what we want to do for the rest of our lives, yet, the fact is, nobody has any fucking clue. And that’s ok
I always thought that I understood what I wanted to do. There was a guy I liked since primary school, I wanted to be a police woman and probably move to America or something. But, to describe it in 2 words, shit happens. The guys I liked emotionally destroyed me, I don’t know if I want to be restricted to working in one place, and, well, do I really need to say anything about America? No. The other thing is, that isn’t who I am. The job I get, the person I have a relationship, the place I live, isn’t who I am. I don’t think I ever have and I don’t know if I ever fully will.
I am in my last year of GCSEs, so I am nearly 16. Not even 2 decades have I lived on this earth, yet I have made so many life changing decisions that I can’t go back and change. There are so many things that are shut off now because of what I had to choose, yet it could have been something that was perfect for me. And it is crazy because you let us make life changing decisions, but you don’t let us watch a scary movie in the cinema. My life is a horror movie in itself so I don’t think a movie will scar me. You let us make life changing decisions, but you don’t let us go to the toilet when we need to, we gotta ask the teacher. You let us make life changing decisions, but speak down to us like we are dirt. It really doesn’t make sense. How do I know that in 20 years I will still want to do the thing that 16 year old me wanted to do. So many things change and if I shut the door to things now then what if I need it in the future.
It is bloody scary because I do not want to end up in a job that I took just to pay the bills. I want to get a job that makes me excited to start the day, because I don’t know how I would survive anything else. I want a job that fits in my pocket. That I can take to the beach with me, on trips, on a boat, on my sofa in my dream home. I don’t want to wake up each morning thinking that I NEED to do work. I want to wake up and think I WANT to do work. So what can get me that? A degree? A but load of debt from Uni? All A*s on my report card? Well, that is what the school system has taught me, and sure, they teach us everything, right? Hell no. They want me to be a part of the system so why would they teach me to get out of it? Now, not all teacher’s are like this, but I know so many that suck the life out of you and pretty much desensitize you to life and convert you into a factory lifestyle. And yes, we do have the world at our finger tips. I can search up how to start a business, how to make money and get out of the ‘rat race’ but let me tell you something. It is fucking tiring and yes I know I have a blog on how to make money but that is just my way to try and make it easier for those my age. We get so much homework that we have no bloody time to think for ourselves, none at all. I am lucky enough to have learnt a bit but only because of lock down. I would have to say that it was a blessing because it was my time to actually crawl my way out of the system, and that has brought me to many difficulties along the way.
I still don’t know who I am and I know that you don’t to. I guess I just wanted to tell everyone that if you are feeling the same way, it is totally ok. I know you are always told to just take the subjects you like and the choices you feel comfortable with and I do believe that to an extent, especially with subject choices. But since when did success come easy? Weren’t we told to take risks if we wanted to be successful. We are told so many things every day, every week, every year. And now we don’t know what or who to listen to. Don’t beat yourself up for feeling confused on how to move forward with your life. You may not know for a while, but you need to know that when you find that thing that you want to do, it will be so much easier to fight through the tough moments. Getting to the place you want to be will be so much easier, so don’t try to force your way into something that will make you feel horrible. I am sorry you haven’t got the support you need to discover who you are but it is ok and you aren’t alone. I could guess that a majority of adults don’t know who they truly are. We are still young though. Although we are expected to do a lot, we still have the time to travel and change. Don’t worry if you make a bad decision because if it is meant to be, you will get there eventually.
Our whole life is dedicated to discovering who we are and some people find out to late. My advice? Sacrifice the things people think you need to succeed, and do the things YOU know you need. They probably won’t believe in you but use it to drive you. Think of there face when you tell them ‘I now get payed for something I love, something I believe in, and all that worry and pain of getting there is so worth it”. I believe in you guys, OK? And I believe that everything is going to be ok, no matter who you are. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
When we grow up, we are told that doctors, teachers, lawyers and politicians are important. That, if we want to get an impactful job, these are the ones to go for. But I have been thinking lately, because a couple of years back I had been talking to someone working in my house and something clicked with me.
So, a cheeky wee story time guys. We had a man over who was covering up a huge hole in our wall and doing the plastering and stuff, whatever you call it. My mum made him a cuppa tea and told me to bring it up to him and, being the EXTREMELY extroverted character I was happy to help but no, he was actually nice LOL. Anyways, so here I was, going up the stairs and I was like “tea question mark”:o and he was like “yup” :/. But then as I was going down the stairs we were just having a wee chit chat and he was like “what age are you?” so I slapped him on the face and ran away because stranger danger. No, sorry I will stop with the jokes. But I was like “15” and he was like “do you know what you want to do when you grow up” and I was like “have a life”. Ok sorry that was my last one I swear. I said a police woman maybe and he was like “that’s good. Just stay in school so you don’t end up doing plastering like me”. And that is when it clicked in my head. I wish I had said this to him but then again I was like 30 years younger and half his height so I didn’t want to look stuck up giving a pep talk to an adult. But what I realised is that he thinks his job is unimportant and that it should be avoided, but the thing is, if there were no plasterers, then everybody’s house would go to utter shit. If we didn’t have him to help us, my dad would have ended up doing a crap job at it and our house would be ugly as fuck (sorry dad). So who’s to say his job isn’t important but I know that I am greatful for his work because now our house looks nice again. Yes, maybe the whole world can’t tell that but sometimes helping one person can make a big difference in their life.
And another thing similar to this is like when someone has to work at McDonalds or a store for the rest of their lives. Yes, maybe they may not have wanted to this, but we can’t judge them for it because they make that business work. We couldn’t have a shop without a cashier or someone to restock the shelves because nothing would go the way it is supposed to. They may not seem like glamorous jobs but they are so important. We kind of just gotta look at the big picture of things because a lot of times people don’t realise how much someone means to them until they are gone. So if all the Tesco’s workers disappeared, we would be freaking out because now we don’t know where things are. We can’t return anything, all the shelves are empty, people are stealing things, causing fights, there are messes everywhere. So whether you are a worker out there who feels like there job doesn’t make an impact, just think of what would happen if you all disappeared. Let’s even say you cut the grass for a living. If all of you disappeared, there would be gardens that would grow so disgustingly long that the street isn’t pretty anymore. So many things are growing and crawling in there and they feel disappointed in their garden. But the fact that you guys are here means that people can look outside and feel proud of the place they live in. People driving by will see the street and think, damn, that is beautiful, right? And to those who judge people who don’t have a typical ‘important’ job, just know that the job they do is obviously important and if we didn’t have them we would really struggle, so have some compassion and thank them for their work because they are so important for how the community functions.
So I hope that meant something to someone. It really is true. Every job has importance and although it may be not be obvious at first thought, just think what would happen if your job didn’t exist. What would happen? What would that change for people? How would the world look? No matter the job, people will appreciate you. I mean I still appreciate the plasterer even after a couple of years because no my house, my home, is comfortable and complete. Keep your heads up and don’t let anyone put you done. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
I don’t know if it is because my older sister judged me for everything or if society has raised me to be a ‘follower’ but i get embarrassed by a majority of things. But the thing is, I won’t find it embarrassing for anyone else who does it. For example, I think it would be so fun to start a tiktok because at the moment I feel like I annoy my friends on my private story by adding to many skits. But the thing is, it is NOT socially accepted in my school or by my sister so I don’t do it. But then when I see anyone else on tiktok I think they are the coolest people so yeah LOL
This blog has been the biggest jump out of my comfort zone to be honest and I only did it because, 1- you can’t see my face (I hope) and 2- I haven’t told anyone about it :o. But I found that I really enjoy it because it is just a wee way to get my head outta the shed if ya know what I mean. But yeah. I am quite chuffed to do something public. I also actually created another blog LOL which is more for making money online, it is called affiliateen, so you can go check it out or whateva. So here I went from not doing anything out of the norm, to having 2 blogs. Yes it may seem small, but it seems cool for me.
I feel like the next big step for me would be making a podcast. I really want to make one and I think it would be bloody fun but the thing is, you would hear my voice. This will be troublesome because someone might recognize me and I hate my voice lol. The good thing though is you can’t see my face. I don’t think that will ever happen unless I become famous or something. Sia? Minus the ablest part tho Yeah I don’t know if I should have joked about that but she is a wee bit of a cheeky fuck for being one. And I’ll say it again PERIODT.
Where was I going with this? Oh yeah, so I think that everything I do is embarrassing but if someone else does them it isn’t, meaning I don’t do stuff that I really want to because I don’t want to be bullied. I think it would be fun to do TikTok, have a YouTube channel, a podcast and more stuff like that but I don’t know. It do be like that tho. So yeah, I have another blog you guys can check out and I know this post isn’t very inspiring but maybe if you guys want a podcast enough then I will make one for you guys 😮 But please be yourself guys. I know I don’t listen to this myself but you are the BADDEST bitch out there and you can do whatever the hell you want ok? Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
I’m sure you have heard this number going around a lot. If not, let me tell you what it means. This statistic shows the percentage of women who have been sexually assaulted in their life time. It shows that there are 97% too many women being assaulted. This doesn’t even take into account how many times this has happened to each and every one of them. It doesn’t shot the age of these girls. There innocence is taken from them at such a young age, yet people have the audacity to go out and say ‘not all men’. Stop saying that shit and go help us then because, as a women, I am scared of every man that walks past me. Even if I am on a busy road during the day, I am scared. And this is the reality for so many women. The number of rules is endless. Don’t walk alone, have your phone at all times, never say that you are alone, never say you haven’t been somewhere before, have your keys in between your fingers, check under your car, check there are no coins in the handle of your car, check the back of your car. And these are only a small number of what we have to do.
I have to say, I am quite lucky as I haven’t been sexually assaulted as much as other women, not to say I haven’t been, but I got off quite lightly. And it’s sad to say that really, ‘I got off lightly’, because that kind of undermines the reality. It is kind of expected that at some point this will happen to us when, in reality, nobody should have to go through this. But still, I walk everyday always aware of my surroundings, just so that I feel remotely safe. You would think I was on the run because I am always looking around me. I always walk as far to the side as I can whenever a man walks by me. And it isn’t always outside that I feel unsafe. Literally everywhere you go is a danger. On the train, in a taxi, in school.
Especially in school. They just brush it off and say ‘boys will be boys’. No, we can’t just teach them that their ways are ok. In school we are supposed to be taught how to function in society and treat other’s with respect. So why don’t we teach that to the boys. Yes I know, ‘not all men’ but there are enough men that we need it taught. Instead of teaching us how to defend ourselves, teach men how to be respectful.
And I know it is sad we have to do these things, but to make the world a safer place, this is the least we can do. We can’t let women be terrified whenever they go out. We can’t let women change clothes just because people were saying that they ‘wanted it’. It is so ridiculous that women can’t even trust the police anymore. The people who we are supposed to call whenever we are in danger. You have probably all heard of Sarah Everard lately. Her story has shook the world, but it isn’t even new. This happens everyday in every single country. But we can’t let her become just one of the statistics. We need to remember her name to keep us going and to help others. If only every sexual assault was put on the news, then you would listen. Don’t hold your breathe for that to happen though because it never will. But don’t stay quiet until one does. Help others now. Don’t let these women’s voices be heard.
97% Never forget this number
I wrote those two words on a post-it note yesterday. It’s simple, but out of context it probably seems a bit strange. But what does it mean for me?
Let’s bring this back a wee bit. So I am trying affiliate marketing and I am learning how through ‘Legendary Marketer’. I won’t go into too much detail about them but that is just a wee bit of information. I purchased their 15-day challenge and I am on day 5 now. I still have the motivation to do it, despite the fact I had to let down their blueprint offer due to financial issues. I asked my mum for a bit of financial support and of course she was skeptical and was unsure if I should purchase it. I am completely fine with that too because it was a large sum of money despite the discount. My confidence took a little bit of a dip though. She looked up some other peoples opinions and they said that it takes a lot of time and hard work. I knew that though. But I don’t know if I was tired, or what, but I just kind of thought ‘maybe I am overreacting about this opportunity? I should just quit now and pursue a normal career like everyone else’.
So what did I do? I went upstairs and sat for a bit. A bit depressed at the thought that I might just have to work a 9 to 5 job. I literally thought to myself, ‘I will not be able to carry on this life if I need to go to University and then work a boring job with financial stress and all that shit’. After I thought about that for I while I finally said ‘if I don’t want to live life as expected, then I won’t. I am going to keep going and if I fail, then we will go from their’ and I was later thinking about what could help me to sustain this motivation. The answer may be different for everyone else, but, for me, as you probably could tell from the title, I came to the conclusion that I am not just doing this for me. No, because that would be too risky, I would only disappoint myself if I quit. So I have the question ‘for who?’ written in my room to remind me of the main reason I want to become financially successful because I can’t fail for them. I need to be successful for them, my family. This probably looks as though I am seeking attention, but I am just showing you what I find motivates me to keep going so that you guys can be inspired to change.
For teenagers especially, I feel as though we are underestimated because ‘we aren’t smart enough’ or ‘not as well informed’ but yet we are the generation that grew up with technology. Of course I don’t know everything, it is impossible, and yes I could get scammed but I don’t look at the ad that says ‘get 10 iPhone 12s just by putting in your email’. I mean I know a scam when I see one. It can be harder for teenagers to focus on one goal as well because we fell as though, no matter what happens, we have a plan B, a safety net. This can be great and I am glad to have one, but it means that I won’t try as hard to make everything work because, if it doesn’t, I will just move on. I still have school, a social life, a family, a roof over my head. If you do, however, only focus on that one thing and don’t have any Plan B, I am impressed and you are on the right track but we all get scared of being judged. I don’t know how to describe Affiliate Marketing to anyone because I am still quite new but that means that they feel as though I just want to get rich quick. That isn’t it though, I want to learn the skills that will make me financially stable in the future. I feel as though, if I told someone that I am really committed to this and I feel as though this will be what makes me financially free, they won’t believe me or trust me. What I have to remember though is that they didn’t grow up with the access to all this and so of course they won’t trust it. I just have to trust my gut feeling and work harder to prove my point that teenage girls can still accomplish this. To show the world that I am not settling for anything less than my dream. That I will make it.
Thank you so much for reading. Please like, follow and donate some money if you can so I can keep all of my content free for everyone. I really hope this inspires you to look for your reason. Why are you doing what you are doing? What do you want out of it? I hope you have a great day, stay safe, and stay yourself PERIODT.
All over tiktok and the rest of the internet, I have heard this story and I don’t know who to credit for this but I just wanted to post it here so that other people who aren’t on that side of social media can hear it.
So there was this teacher one day who stood in front of his class with a $100 bill in his hand. He held it up to his class and said “how much is this bill worth?”. They all said that it was worth $100, obviously. The teacher nodded and then scrunched the bill up in his hand. He then showed this crinkly bill to his class and repeated “how much is this bill worth now?”. They all looked confused and once again said “$100”. The continued to throw the bill on the ground, on the dirty tiles class room floor. He stood on it and smooshed it up under his dirty shoe. He held it back up to his class and once again asked “how much is this bill worth?”, and the class echoed “$100”. The teacher looked around at all his students and said “no matter what happened to that bill, no matter the damage, trauma or shit that it has gone through, it has not lost any of it’s value. So take this as a lesson kids because no matter what happens to you in life, no matter how far down you are beat, no matter if you are at breaking point, you have not lost your worth. You are still as valuable as the day you were born”.
I like that story because, in life we may feel as though some of the events we have gone through, or haven’t gone through, make us less of a person. Or that the way we look makes us less valuable and important. No what, you are still valid and worthy in this world. I mean you are worth way more than $100 obviously. I mean without me even knowing you I can say that your are priceless. No amount of money or anything in this planet could match you.
There are so many things in life that tell you that you are worthless. I mean, for example, school. They teach everybody in one singular way. They teach you piles of stuff in a short time. Piles of unnecessary stuff, if I may add. And expect everyone to achieve the same. NOOOO I mean if you can actually work in the way school teaches then I congratulate you but the way they expect others to act the same, even though it is clear that they don’t work in that way. I mean it is literally so dumb because those people are brought up to think they are stupid and it is like that saying “You can’t judge a fishes smartness on its ability to climb a tree”. I am actually pretty sure that Albert Einstein himself said that so I mean that is a pretty solid argument if you ask me. You can’t put someone in a setting that not everyone is adapted too. We don’t all work in factories anymore. So much has changed. Like in biology we learn how different we are all in every aspect of our lives and our beings, yet they continue to make us right notes, learn all the info in a couple of weeks, regurgitate that on a piece of paper, and the repeat. I mean are we not actually able to change that because there are so many wasted brains out there, so many wasted lives. I mean if we could teach in multiple ways then the cure for cancer could be found, new discoveries, new inventions, anything. The possibilities are endless. Yet that scientist, or engineer, is walking around now with their head hung low, with a bad group of people, a dead end job, all because they were taught that they were useless. But lets put it into the context of the $100 bill. That person went to school, they were bullied by teachers, spat in the face by their screams, brought down to the ground because they ‘weren’t working hard enough’ and just like the money, they were nearly completely and utterly destroyed. Expect now that person feels so useless. So different from everybody. And they can’t see that they are still as valuable as the high achievers in class. They live their days wondering what is wrong with them. But we can’t let that happen.
I think that the story can be related to anything in our lives that make us feel like crap. It is just hard for all of us to realise in the moment because we don’t have people constantly telling us that we are still valuable. We don’t have a teacher or a classroom of people telling us we are still as worthy as before. It can take time for you to realise that for yourself as well. I mean I don’t know how long, but I will tell you when I get there.
Thank you all so much for reading. I hope you all had a good day and can see how, no matter who you are, you deserve all the chances in the world. You deserve help, you deserve love, you deserve a life. I know you may not see that now but it is true. Please like and follow if you want more content like this and maybe donate some money, if you can, so that I can keep all of my content free for everyone. Have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
For many, this question is easy to answer. They know they want to move onto A levels, then go to uni and get a job. I used think that I was one of those people, until now. The year I am making this move.
I know that a lot of people are making this life changing decision now, and you might be one of the lucky people who have it all sorted. For me, I am stuck. For as long as I can remember, I wanted to be a police woman. I wanted to help people out, be out and about, and I just found it interesting over all. I just supposed that I would go to university because that is what everyone did. But now so much has changed and while I do have the idea of being a police woman, I don’t know how I am going to get their. Right now, I want to drop out. I never wan to go back to school or be so controlled like that all the time, but there are so many things making me stay in school.
For one, how will I get a job when I am only 16. I mean I can’t just lay at home all day and laze around because my parents would not be happy would that and, frankly, neither would I. I am gonna be honest, blogging was one of my ideas to earn money for a living so I could drop out, although I found out that I do actually enjoy it. I mean I would love for this to work out but what if it doesn’t. What is my backup plan. I can just sign up for being a police woman and start my training but I always feel as though I will be looked down upon as that young girl who dropped out of school. And currently it is hard to find jobs because of, well, corona.
Secondly, is being a police woman right for me. That’s the thing. What if I drop out and find I don’t get in or I don’t like the job. What if I drop out and my ‘dream job’ was a failure. Lately I have also been having doubts about even trying because, if I am being honest, I have kind of been warming to the idea of acting. I think that would give me great opportunities in life and then, hopefully, I can use my platform to get my voice heard and others about problems in the world. Because I mean, who would listen to one police woman? Also the stigma around the police at the moment. I hate how they have shown themselves as racist, blood thirsty animals. They just attack and think they are above the law and I never want to be associated with that. I would never do something like that and even though I can tell others that, they probably wont believe me. And they have every right to not believe me because all we see are how crap and corrupted they are. I never want to be accused of something like that. And how could one young girl go in and save that. Why would they listen to me. And that is kind of why I am questioning that decision and that it would be a good idea to build up my voice in the world. The problem is, I live in Northern Ireland. So how the hell am I supposed to build up auditions and feature in serious films or series? Honestly though, please do comment if you have any tips or opportunities.
Another reason I am stuck is because I often wonder, what if I am wasting my life? I am not trying to rub this in people’s face, but I get good grades in school. I work hard, I am well behaved in school. And when I think about dropping out I get anxious that I am wasting my hard work by not putting it to use and ‘helping the world’ in some way. The thing is, I am not smart. I am just book smart. I have to revise for all my exams. I work hard but still forget so much stuff. I am not like others who just remember stuff and can do great things. All I can do is revise, but I hate it. It literally makes me scared though to think of dropping out and missing so many experiences and becoming lonely. What if I miss all that and don’t even get anywhere with my life. When I tell you I can NOT end up in a 9 to 5 job, I mean it. That just would not work for the type of person I am. I can’t put into words the anxiety of dropping out though. Not really about jobs and money, but about what I could be throwing away. What if I should do this or that because I am ‘smart. What if I could of made a difference or gone into a really important job. I just don’t know what that is. I am literally getting stressed thinking about it, but I don’t want to let my parents down by throwing away the knowledge that they have given me. This talent to learn that others would want. I know that sound stuck up but I feel bad for misusing my intelligence and ability to revise.
My last point for today, about how I feel stuck in my decision is just the whole formality of it. I don’t want to live a life where I go to school, go to uni, get a job, retire, and then die. I don’t want to be in debt my whole life with the bills I have to pay for my uni which got me working a repetitive job which means nothing to me. I want to be able to be financially free. I don’t want a job. I want a career. A way of life that I love. Where I don’t hate Mondays. I work because I want to, not because I have to. I want to have a family and be free and enjoy my life. But for me I feel like uni would stop that. As though I would step into the school gates and be locked behind a bars of debt forever. Never getting where I need to be. Always worrying about paying the electricity bill. I just don’t know why people have made uni such a ‘need to do’ part of life. I don’t want to be dragged down by this. I don’t know what I will do without it but I can’t have that stress of revision and thoughts about my future in my life. How would I be able to handle such important tests, meeting new people, going to parties. But then again I am scared to miss that.
Over all, I am just scared.
Thank you for reading that and I hoped that other people related to that and now know that they aren’t alone. These are hard decisions and it sucks we have to make them at such a young age. Please like, follow, and donate some money so I can keep all of my content free for everyone. I also have some great promo codes for you and a great app that I found for earning extra money. I love you all and hope you know that it will all be worked out eventually. It may be hard, but you will get their. Just stay the bad bitch you are PERIODT.
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I know this is gonna sound really over dramatic for everyone and all adults are gonna be like ‘well your just saying that because you are too lazy to revise’. Well guess what Karen, it isn’t just for that reason. Let me educate you with 5 Ws
These tests are being given to young people who are supposed to be ‘our future’, yet we bash them so hard that they have no confidence in themselves to do great things. I am not sure if anyone else has heard of this statistic, but the average teen has the same level of anxiety as a psych ward patient in the 1960’s. I don’t know about you but that doesn’t sound right to me. As a teen, I don’t see the point of making us prepare for the future if you make us all feel as though we wont have one if we don’t know how to work out the area of a triangle. Not only have we been affected by work but also the media which means we have so much more to worry about. I mean how much of an impact can we make if we are all depressed. Because that is how tests make us feel. Some of us don’t seem very phased my a bad grade and, although I can’t speak for all of you, we do care about it and it does affect us. Just sometimes we are scared to be smart and I know how that sounds but I think it is more of a peer pressure thing. And for the people who always do well in exams, the person who gets upset if they don’t get 90% or above. They too are struggling. They feel so stressed by revising all the time and never feeling good enough. Why do we waste our lives and our minds in order to get a big A on a piece of paper. How can we rule our whole life of of our school life. A teen, not fully understanding what they are doing in life, yet have so much pressure to make the right decisions. And for what, to get into uni, to get into debt, to get a 9 to 5 job and work for someone else until we retire and die. Is that what you call success? They say that when you are born you are only scared of 2 things, the fear of falling and the fear of loud noises. So at what point did the fear of failure, the fear of embarrassment, the fear of the future, come into play? Maybe it was from home life? But people with a good family life still have these fears, right? So what do we all share in common? School. Tests. Essays. Have all adults been brainwashed since they left school because even though we are ‘the future’, you guys are the present and you need to fix this now.
School is defined as ‘an institution for educating children’. That sounds all nice and appropriate. An exam is defined as ‘an official test that shows your knowledge or ability in a particular subject’. Lovely, right. Well from the looks of it yes, but I think they left something out at the end of the school definition, ‘an institution for education children in one way despite the range of learning abilities‘, and in the exam definition, ‘an official test that shows your knowledge or ability in a particular subject that will depend on their future even though it doesn’t suit everyone’s strengths and abilities and causes mental illnesses‘. Yeah that definitely sounds more accurate to me. If you look at how cars or phones have evolved, you can see such a difference. But when you look at school, the only thing different are the pupils.
The point I am trying to make here is that school were made to teach us how to work in factories. How to live in the old world. But now the world has modernized. There are so many other job opportunities other than being a house wife or a coal miner. Why is is that. We have become so much more knowledgeable about the world and how people work, yet you can’t put into play the facts that you discovered about the way everyone learns differently. The thing that is most annoying is that you put so much money towards pointless things and then give scraps to the schools. It doesn’t make any sense at all. Schools need to catch up with the rest of the world
To be honest I don’t really have anything to complain about, well for me anyways. I mean I get to see my friends. I guess all I would have to say is that the schools aren’t well funded enough to get great heating and furnishing. It usually is freezing although that isn’t the same for all of us.
I know that school times are different in many places. In the UK it starts at 9.20 am and ends at 3.45 pm. I think that in the US they go to school at like 7 am, although I am not that sure, and I have no clue what time you get back home at. Did you know that teenagers have evolved to have different body clocks. We are wired to go to bed later and wake up later because back in the days we were not old enough to hunt but not young enough to just lie around all day so they were made to stay up late to make sure nothing was about to eat them when they were asleep. Now, I am not saying that we should move school to really late and then get out really late because that is not any better. What I think is that school in general shouldn’t be so long. 6 hours everyday just to go home, do more homework, go to bed and repeat. It is almost impossible to do well in school and have a good social life. We are either exhausted from school or we have been bombarded with homework. It always hits harder during winter as well. We go to school just as the sun is going up and then we get home when it is nearly dark. We send more of our time under florescent light rather than the sun. We spend most of the time staring out the window rather than being outside. We hardly get any fresh air because school takes up so much of our life. My spine is never happy with me because I sit on uncomfortable chairs 24/7 with a heavy schoolbag that can’t even fit all my books. How am I supposed to learn anything about the ‘real world’ if I am not even allowed into it. We go to school for the majority of months each year and although we do have breaks, 5 days a week is so exhausting. The fact that dreading Mondays is normal is not OK because we should all be excited for everyday. We should spend our short life on this earth doing what we want everyday. And the fact it happens in the younger years of our lives is so sad. From day one of school you are getting stressed for work, for grades, for classes. No 10 year old should feel that way, they should be running around outside writing stories, songs, positions.
So an over all reason for why we should change the way school works and how exams play a role in our lives is because they are just so ridiculous. I really can’t put into the words the fear I have for the future generations because if it keeps going the way it is, they are all going to be mentally ill by the age of 8 or younger. How can we let this happen. These were things that we made ourselves so we didn’t always need them. Why can’t we just encourage kids to go to schools. Tell them what classes they can go to and they can make their own decision without the pressure of ‘chose wisely because this is your future’. Of course there will have to be some sort of structure but we need to adapt it to the modern world. Not everyone sits at a desk all day. Not everyone should be expected to learn hundreds of new things every day. I mean it doesn’t make sense. Why should everything ride of of an exam we did 10 years ago. We could of had a bad day and not done well in the subject that we love. We all get so scared that we wont be able to do something we are passionate about because we can’t do tests very well. You expect so much from us yet you wouldn’t be able to do it yourself. Why do we stuff our faces with utter wastes of time to just forget it all in the future. I am going to ask you some questions that I am doing in school now and, for any adults, I would like you to answer them and see if you remember anything about it. Obviously, if you are specialized in one of these areas you will know the answer but anyways. What is a surd? Label the structure of a leaf. Tell me why the poem ‘Belfast confetti’ has a full stop. What types of clouds are there, how high up are they and what do they produce or show about the weather? And finally, name all of the causes of the great depression? Well? Could you do it? Not even a bit? If you could? Would you be able to do it under pressure and in around 10-15 minutes? If you can’t, don’t worry. You aren’t dumb. Obviously you just don’t need to use these in your daily life. But I just want to show you how ridiculous some of the things we learn are. And just like us, you may have felt a bit pressured and made to feel stupid. Yes, that is how most of us feel, but on a larger scale and everyday. And the thing is that now you can go off and live your life. Nobody is going to go to you and say you are so stupid, because you don’t need to know that. They would say ‘what are you worrying about? You don’t need to know this’. Yeah, that is exactly what I am trying to get across. Why waste my time on unimportant facts instead of figuring out how to pay taxes, do an interview, buy a house? It just sounds so ridiculous and then we get told that ‘these are the best years of your life’. :0 Excuse me, I hope the fuck it’s not. If my life only gets worse from here then I haven’t got any reason to live. And that, Ladies and Gentlemen, is the mindset of a teen. What do you think?
Just remember guys, hang in there because it is gonna be a bumpy ride but we got this PERIODT.
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If you follow my blog, which you obviously should because duh, then you will have read my past post about the literal bloody history they are making us do on a day off, and yes I am still pissed about it. Well, I did it this morning and even though I did(n’t) cheat, It was fucking hard and I barely got it finished. No joke, in basically every history class they are like ‘YoU gUyS WonT hAVe EnOuGh TiMe To dO tHiS JuSt So YoU kNoW’. And I am here just looking at them blankly like ‘WELL THEN WHY THE HELL DON’T YOU GIVE US MORE TIME!’ and that is what I want to talk about today, unhealthy expectations in school.
So let me rant a bit more about this whole history crap. On the first day of GCSE history class my teacher literally was like ‘hey guys, welcome to history, so I just want to talk about your exams. You will only have 45 minutes for the USA section. Now, to put that into perspective, this paper was usually given 1 hour to complete and students struggled to do it in that time. Now lets go onto economic boom.’ Bitch back the fuck up. What went through your mind to think, oh they struggle to finish in the time, suck it up and do it in less time. Like what the hell. And no, they didn’t shorten the paper. It is the same bloody length. I be looking across the room to see if anyone else just heard this crap like :0 and they be acting like it is no big deal. And if you don’t do history or are from america, we do not getting bloody multiple choice questions for any of our classes. We have to learn the work word for word and we cant just have a bloody guess. In English we are given an hour to write and essay. In history we are given 45 minutes for an essay plus 4 other, kind of big, questions. I don’t give a fuck how Ford created the assembly line in 1913. Anyways, rant over.
What I am trying to say is that the schooling system, in the UK at least, is so unfair. I mean how the hell do you expect me to learn, word for word, decades of history, the freaking essence of a leaf, while working out the meaning of life, Like I can’t do that shit. I can barely do my times tables bitch. Every time I get up in the morning and pack my bag, which only holds a max of 3 folders, if I want to look like a first year, so I have to hold 2 massive ones around with me, I actually do that hysteric laugh. You know the one where you are just like what the fuck is going on with this world and you have nothing else to do but just laugh through the pain. I swear to god my back be squished as hell. School really do be stunting my growth. But back to the school work. How the hell do they want me to study 9 different topics, in depth, while doing homework, having a life, and then doing tests that go towards my FUTURE, in only a couple of weeks. Like my teachers be here teaching one subject and are like ‘guys. I know how you feel. I just had to mark 20 essays throughout the past 2 months that I set my students for the next day. You are heard’. And I’m like OK miss audacity, who gave you the right to complain about something you did to yourself. Go back home bitch, you can’t relate.
Do you know what doesn’t make sense to me? When teachers at the start of the year are like ‘hey guys, I am a cool teacher. I don’t like giving out homework.’ and then they end up being the ones to give me the most homework and they just sit there thinking they are so ‘cool’ and ‘relatable’. Bitch, get your feet of the desk and tell the bloody truth. We are getting lied to enough in this world and we don’t need more of this ~foolery~ interrupting out lives. Just tell the truth, oh my god. I don’t really see the point of homework anyways but that is besides the point. They literally put so much pressure on it as though it is going to decide your future. They shout at you when you don’t finish it for the day because ‘of course you have time to do it. You just don’t care’ and then when someone is reported to have really bad mental health they are like ‘guys you can always talk to me. I only want the best for you.’. And we are like it is too late for you to be switching up the truth you two faced bitch. MAKE IT MAKE SENSE. Give us a break for god sake and stop complaining about marking the homework that YOU SET. I don’t care about how you were up until like 6pm with a glass of red wine because I was up until 10pm, which is decent for my age group, with a bloody head ache. If you keep saying you understand us then why do you keep making our lives a living hell.
But literally though, can any teachers please tell me why you set us out to fail. Of course in some tests you want to make us think a bit about what we learned. I understand that. But why do you deliberately try to trick us and then call us out. If I am studying plants then don’t expect me to know what is the surface area of an atom. I don’t know and I didn’t have to so don’t link it to the subject in some bizarre way like ‘well plants are made up of atoms so really it is your fault.’. What is this? A fucking play ground. It is like when that one kid says ‘you know the word pizza? How do you spell it’ and then they would be like ‘AHAHAHA I TOLD YOU TO SPELL IT, NOT PIZZA’ like seriously though. Stop expecting us to know everything when we clearly don’t know and don’t care.
For my final point, for this post at least, is, why do you expect us to respect you if you don’t respect us. Not everyone goes into a class with the aim of hating a teacher. It is when you abuse your power, shout at us all the time, and treats us like children in this place where half of us do not want to be. You have to know that we wont always be in a good mood and we know you wont as well. But if we don’t really feel like speaking in class, don’t make us. You always tell us to be quiet but when we are you don’t like that. OK, if we don’t speak for a few classes then you should go talk to them, but in private. Don’t embarrass them. They may just need a bit of help. Some teachers get on really well with their students because the actually achieve their promises. They understand what we go through, they listen, the help, they try hard to mix in real life with the life of school. They know we don’t all want to be there but they have made it less of a burden. These are the teachers who were born to teach. They don’t put the stress of their personal lives onto the students. They don’t expect them to complete everything on a strict time plan and they definitely do not care that you don’t know anything. In fact, that just makes them excited to teach you something new.
Anyways to conclude, the school system is a mess. People need to stop putting so much pressure on everyone. And you all need to follow, like and donate some money to support my blog.
Thank you for reading and I hoped you enjoyed. And remember, the real learning starts outside of school PERIODT.
It’s weird how our view on work changes throughout our life. As a child we are told that we can be anything we want to be. This motivation was drilled into our mind from day one but then slowly over the years our dreams sound so… unachievable. And I mean why wouldn’t we think like that? Our parents and schools condition us to believe that we need to get great grades, go to university and get a 9 to 5 office job if we want to succeed. And if you ever have a dream, you better hold on tight to it because they will knock that down until there is not even a spec of hope.
It is sad how, when people ask you what you want to be when you are older, we all have a safe answer. We know that if we tell them the truth, they will laugh in our faces and make that wish feel like more of a dream and less of a reality. For me, my ‘dream’ job would be an actress. Not just because of the fame and money, but because I really like to act and I think that if I got a chance I could go far. And then with that position I can use my voice for good. Like with Emma Watson talking about feminism, and Leonardo DiCaprio talking about global warming. So what I would love about acting is that I could fulfill my passion for acting and then eventually my passion for making the world a better place. But have I told anyone that? No. I live in Northern Ireland which makes that dream seem so much more unachievable because there aren’t many opportunities. So now what I have to do with this dream is to keep it hidden because I mean I am just being to ambitious. There is no way that could happen to me. I am not that special. What I also don’t want to do is give them the satisfaction of being right when I don’t have the success that I wanted.
So what do I tell everyone then? Well, I tell them I want to be a police woman. And while that is true, it is also my safety job. This is my job that I know I can achieve and that will be respectable. I know it will give me the money I need for a home, food and security. What I also know is that, as a woman, I can find someone who I will love and will be my husband, hopefully. Because what we are grown up to believe is that, to be successful you need to get a safe job and be married. And I know how messed up that sounds but it is true. We learn that marriage is a safety belt, instead of learning that it is a bonus. We don’t need to be married and have kids. Unless you find somebody you truly love and you feel the time is right to have kids, then don’t get married. This is your life and you shouldn’t have to live it for someone else. But yeah, I mean I would love to be a police woman somewhere in the world because I want to make a difference. I want to be a part of the new definition of ‘police’ because right now, most police officers are racist, power driven people. Lately I have questioned whether or not I should be a police woman because I don’t want to be associated with racist murderers, and I am still trying to get my head around it, but I want to become a police woman in the aim to outnumber the racists and to provide a better role model for young children who can be heavily influenced by this prejudice.
It is weird also, the term ‘a successful job’. I mean what is it really? A doctor? A lawyer? A politician? I don’t think I have ever seen their name with the label ‘successful job’ written on it. A ‘successful job’ is just like saying a ‘normal human’. There is no normal human because we are all completely different. Really a successful job is not what your parents or society define it as. It is whatever is your passion and whatever you love doing. Say somebody who really loved writing books and poems. Their successful job is a writer, a poet. Not a lawyer or a office manager. And it is so easy to get sucked into these ideas because we see and hear them everyday. In school, on Instagram, our parents. So why wouldn’t you listen to them. These are the people who have raised us. People we have been with our entire life. That we trust. One of my favorite phrases was said by Prince EA. He said,
The graveyard is the richest place on earth, because it is here that you will find all the hopes and dreams that were never fulfilledPrince EA
And I don’t know why but it really hits hard. Probably because it is true. All the time you hear people getting knocked down for following their dream, and now you are scared for that to happen to you. You may think that it is too risky, or you aren’t good enough, but have you tried yet. How do you know those questions are true if you haven’t tried? Society have drilled these questions into your head and that is the thing holding you back. If you can push through that fear of failure or criticism then you are on the path to success, wherever that may be.
My last point that I will mention today is that work should not be the reason you are on this planet. It is sad to see how some people’s lives are just, grow up, go to school, get a job, retire, die. It pains me. Because then you are working your whole life for your future, but what is your future? I mean when you will retire it means you will have a roof over your head but you can’t do all the exiting things you wanted to do in the present. If you work all day, everyday, then all the money you are planning to have will be wasted. It will be safe in the bank, but what is the point. You will have no memories, you will have no stories. Nobody’s purpose in life is to sit at a desk all day and type in a bunch of 1 and 0. No ones. And right now, if you think it is your life, it is not and you just need to take the risk, have fun. Be rich in memories. Instead of graduating university and feeling down because ‘the best years’ of your life are over, make that the ‘beginning of the best years’ of your life. Get a job you enjoy, do what you enjoy and face any problems that come your way because the world keeps spinning and there are people who will support you and love you.
Thank you so much for reading this blog and I hope it helped you to open your eyes about the lies we are told throughout are life. Do what makes you happy and ignore those who don’t agree, they just jealous PERIODT.
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