I’m not above a fight

See, I don’t really like it when people are cheeky to me. I mean you can be upfront and shout at me and I’ll be fine with that. My sisters have conditioned me to that. But if you are being passive aggressive or cheeky in front of me or behind my back, I won’t hesitate to fight.

No this isn’t coming out of the blue guys, but something I did yesterday kinda got my blood boiling if you get me. Anyways, here I was at my friend’s house for moral support because I was about to call my work and be like “hey girl so for medical and educational reasons I’m not gonna be able to work more than 8 hours a week but obviously I can work more on holidays thanks”, and here my manager does the longest sigh ever, literally I could almost smell her stinking breathe it was that loud, and I was like shit what is about to happen. Then this bitch really stops the sigh and goes “that’s not really helpful for us”

😮 Did I ask?! No I think the fuck I didn’t so why the hell did you have to say that. Would you prefer I didn’t work any hours? Do you want me to quit because I’ll be more than happy to get out of this bitch. Like I actually don’t even like work. When I tell you I was shocked, I mean I was back-from-war-tazer-in-the-back shocked. I still am at the moment tbh.

But anyways, after that, I paused because I was in denial at that stage or something and then I was just like “Ummm well… It’s for medical reasons as well” because my doctor told me to say that so she legally couldn’t fire me for it (I also wouldn’t care if she did because then id use and never have to work again, I’m not too proud to miss that opportunity bitch) and here she was acting all nice again, miss cheeky bitch tryna get on my good side again. Like I actually have to go to work with her today and if she comes up to me and starts talking shit, I will happily throw hands. I mean I’m terrified of her too, let’s not get ahead of ourselves, but she barely knows me and doesn’t know how hard I can hit. BTW this is a joke don’t be calling the police

Anyways yeah that happened and it really made me realise how much I HATE, despise, loath, work. Do I get paid minimum wages to only get a 20 min break during illegal hours?! I think the fuck not. Like I have enough money saved to get my ass out of that hoe and I only stay cause I want my parents to be proud of me lol. But you have to admit what she said was petty uncalled for. Like it was not necessary. I actually despise the working world and it sucks the little bit of life and dignity inside of me.

So what do you guys reckon I should do? Quit or just realise that this is life. Also if anyone is like a law person, is there any way I could use for doing illegal hours with only a 20 minute break. I mean that would be ideal lol. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.

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Train wreck of thought

I haven’t posted in a while, obviously, and I ain’t gonna explain why because it’s more boring than you think. It’s not like I went on a fucking trip to the Bahamas despite the fact I hope to go there some day if corona ever goes away. But anyways, a lot has happened like me … Continue reading Train wreck of thought

Makeup and Me

First of all, to the people who are in the comments right now saying “It’s makeup and I, not makeup and me” literally take you Hermione Granger ass outside or “I” will personally make Jeff Bezos land his fucking dick rocket on you. I mean would you slate Marley and Me for the grammar issue? … Continue reading Makeup and Me

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Train wreck of thought

I haven’t posted in a while, obviously, and I ain’t gonna explain why because it’s more boring than you think. It’s not like I went on a fucking trip to the Bahamas despite the fact I hope to go there some day if corona ever goes away. But anyways, a lot has happened like me starting A levels, which I think is 12th grade in America, and my sister is also away to uni in a whole different fucking country. I mean I know you didn’t like me all that much but geez, I get the fucking hint.

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I also got a hair cut that is like shoulder length and made me want to cry on the first day but then when I styled it I liked it which I think is the ritual for any hair cut. Surely that is the same for guys too. I mean even I cry at some of the haircuts guys get. I mean that barber really did you dirty with that ski. You’re starting to look like Stewie Griffin from Family Guy. Do you know I also literally get a wee hairdresser that comes to my house. Not in the way where like I am so rich I hire a personal hairdresser, but as in it is cheaper and kinda just for the lols. That is totally unnecessary for you to know but it is what it is I guess.

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But my mum literally knows her from a friend who is the hairdressers friend and client and my mum is like “it’s a small world” and while I do use that phrase quite often, or at least when necessary, but like it really is incorrect. I mean it’s a small fucking country. Northern Ireland is barely a dot on the map, don’t quote me on that, and it doesn’t bug me but gets me thinking, something that flat earthers never do.

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I actually remember one time when Logan Paul posted a video of him talking to a flat earther and the whole click bate was that he believed the guy and I was like this is bullshit. Don’t worry, I have not been converted. The reason I mentioned it was because it is the perfect transition into telling you very frightening times in my life. Firstly, and I am ashamed to say it, I was someone who nearly bought Logang merch. DON’T WORRY! It is not contagious and I have got it sorted. It was a close call but I made it. I mean I was invested in his man’s life. I wanted to meet him so bad and thought he was such a cool dude. Like when he bought a massive pumpkin, I was on my knees worshipping him. Like it was not ok. I didn’t stick around long enough for him to like do that video in Japan and I think the only thing I have watched of his since is when his bird died LOL. I mean this guy makes everything into a joke. His family, his bird, his life, EVERYTHING. He did start some trends though I have to admit. Not good ones, but trends none the less.

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I think I can forgive myself for that because it was kind of inevitable for me as I was in my flat cap phase. All of my friends will instantly know what this means, but to catch you all up, it was bad. VERY bad. I thought I was so rebellious and edgy. I have this one photo that haunts me to this day. It is me on my holiday after I bought my first flat cap and I swear if you look closely enough, you can see me slowly turn into a disappointment. And again, just to clarify, I am out of that now. Well, the flat cap part, maybe not the disappointment part. I think I need to show this to my therapist

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Anyways, thank you for reading my rant and it was very random so sorry for dragging you down my train wreck of thoughts, but you got to the end now and you can have a rational thought again. As a recap, never EVER fall vulnerable to flat caps. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.

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I’m not above a fight

See, I don’t really like it when people are cheeky to me. I mean you can be upfront and shout at me and I’ll be fine with that. My sisters have conditioned me to that. But if you are being passive aggressive or cheeky in front of me or behind my back, I won’t hesitate … Continue reading I’m not above a fight

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Back To School. Could I be bothered?

The answer is no, but it is also a bit more complicated than that. Do I like the first day of school where everything is new, you get the new time tables, new classes, new teachers? Yes, you could say that. But in general, I really could not be arsed to go back. Lately when I talk to my friends, they are all like “yeah I think I am ready to go back to school though and I’m ready to go back to normal school life and work”. And I’m just here like “yeah totally” but in reality I just don’t want to go back. Especially as we’ll have to do those shitty tests they make you do that really make no fucking sense. Like how do they test your smartness based of whether or not you know how many holes there will be in a folded piece of paper. Like it really is a load of shite. If I was a teacher and saw that someone couldn’t mentally fold a page into a swan or some shit, I wouldn’t be thinking he was dumb, I would think he has more important things to understand, and surprisingly origami isn’t one of them.

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I don’t know if my friends are a bunch of NERDS (jokes I love them) but they are prepared and talking about how they want to go back because we have been off so long and I just join in because I don’t want to be that one bitch that goes “I actually couldn’t give a shit if I were to never go back to school. Like I’m done with this hoe and I don’t want to start” because they would disown me. I think I’ll just go because I have nothing else to do and I don’t want to end up living at my parents house for the rest of my life and become the creepy auntie who is always way too drunk and getting way too close for comfort. And I always try to come up with these money making plans and they never turn out the way I want. I do keep going with them too be honest. I mean this blog was one of the attempts, but it is what it is and maybe some day I can drop out of school and do my own thing.

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I’m going into lower 6th, which is the second last year of high school, so it is the first voluntary year of school. So technically I don’t have to be there. I don’t really know what that is gonna do for my motivation because it could kinda be one of those situations where you are excited to do something but then when someone tells you to do it, you turn into a stubborn bitch and don’t want to do it anymore. Or maybe I just won’t try because there is no pressure of me having to go there. The one perk though is that we get a separate we area in the school that only the 6th years can go into because we are obviously the elite. And now we can be the intimidating ones that tower over all the first years and are best mates with all the teachers. Well, maybe not that last point because I am still socially awkward.

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We also only have to do 3 or 4 classes now which is good but I feel like it will still be just as much work and that makes me want to die. I picked 4 classes (chem, geo, business studies and Spanish) but I’m planning to drop one in the first month or so. It’s a good plan like so that if I find I don’t like one, most likely chemistry, I can drop it and not have to worry about it. But at the moment I can’t be arsed doing any and I’m scared I’m gonna hate them all or maybe drop the wrong one. It’s a possibility. And the first timetable I have won’t have as many study breaks and that might freak me out, but it will be fine right. It’s also gonna be so scary to tell a teacher that I want to leave their class. Like I don’t need to say it to them, but leaving implies I don’t like what they have devoted their life to. Likes like the biggest insult of all time. I am also shitting myself for the smaller classes. My Spanish class will defo be small and that is so scary because I will have to answer more and I can’t just hide in the back. What if everyone there is fucking annoying and I just have to vibe there for the next 2 years. What if we are the boring class that they hate to teach? What if I turn out to be shite at the subject?

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Maybe living in my parents house forever isn’t all that bad. Maybe I can be the fun drunk aunt who always buys the alcohol, takes you shopping, gives the best advice and shouts at your parents for doing anything other than worship us. Sounds fun like. Maybe if this blog blows up I could also just leave school but I won’t put that pressure on you guys lol. Anyways, I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.

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The Biggest Difference Between Primary and Secondary School

Now, if your looking for some sort of “12% of children going into their first year of secondary school with anxiety brought on my the change of school” then you are out of luck bitch bitch there is one thing and one thing only that I will talk about in this post. And what is it you may ask? What is the biggest difference between primary and secondary school? The time.

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What I mean by this is the fact that primary school felt like a shit ton of time. I mean it literally made up the first 10 years of our life. I remember it felt like P3 lasted for a million years and the rest went a wee bit faster but still seemed to be never ending. Not in the way that it was boring as hell, which it was, but I mean it felt like it was my whole life and the difference between P1 and P7 was such a jump and thousands of years apart. Yet, in secondary school, I am going into lower 6th and I feel like I was in 1st year last year. It is so weird and although I do feel like I am this old, I think that time has gone by so quickly. But then I say that and in the moment it actually feels like a fucking long time. Getting through each year didn’t feel fast but when you look back and actually process the information, it really has just flashed past you. Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad it’s all over. I would definitely never do that shit again but like it’s weird.

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And I can’t even say “time flies when your having fun” because there was not one ounce of it. And that isn’t an exaggeration. Like, if anything, I should be saying “time flies when you wake up disappointed that you actually woke up”. Like that is true. And in primary school we had the best of time eating glue, scrapping our knees, learning how to not pick our nose in front of people, but yet it felt like an eternity. Literally make it make sense.

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Maybe it is because so much changes between P1 and P7. I mean you literally do go from a literal foetus child who only is just potty trained, to a preteen whose only personality trait is being the oldest in the school. I mean I am right aren’t I. And then from 1st year to upper 6th, you are actually fully aware that you are alive and have responsibilities and the only thing that really changes is you mature, you have a wee bit more knowledge, you get increasingly more terrified of the future, and, last but not least, your mental health is close to the point of no return. All fun right?! :/

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Honestly though, I don’t mean to scare anyone that is going into high school or secondary school or whatever the hell you call it because we all go through different experiences and that’s fine. So your experience may be great, others may find it shit and that is fine because it’s normal. This is just a stage of your life that you need to get through and on the other end you can completely forget it and move on or use it as a show of your strength. And I’m not gonna tell you some bullshit motivational speech where I say “these years are the best years of your life” because that shit hurts, but also because you are the one who decides what the best years of your life are. I mean if these years are utter shite and you think “that’s the best years of my life wasted”, just think that it can only go up from here and that those years don’t define you. You had to hit rock bottom so you could push off stronger than ever and reach the heights you deserve. They don’t define you unless you want them to, so just hang in there ok. It goes by quickly, yes, but in the moments where it feels so slow, you gotta remember that it’s only a small part of the big plot of your life. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.

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I Got My Results and I Feel…

I got my GCSE results yesterday and to be honest, I feel the same fucking way I felt last week. I mean there was no big sigh of relief or weight off my shoulders. I didn’t turn ecstatic, it was just another part of my day. Like it was literally just reading letters on a page. I did really well so it isn’t like my marks were the problem, but I just remember when I was in my first year and you would see all the old ones getting ready for GCSEs and getting the results later on and I would think they were the coolest people and it must be such a great time to see how you have done, but like I don’t know if it is because of corona or something, but it doesn’t seem that big. Like, it hasn’t affected me a lot and I never really was that worked up about it even before. I may have acted like it because everyone else was so excited but I didn’t really feel any different. It makes me sound ungrateful and I know that but it is true. It just doesn’t seem like such a big deal to me.

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Please, if someone got their results in the last few days, tell me if this is the same for you because I feel like it was a total anticlimax and I thought that something big was gonna happen and obviously it didn’t. Were my expectations too high? Was I too tired? Did I just not care? I mean even today, it is all in the past. You just move on. I don’t look at my grades and think of the great future I can have and how successful I can become with careers and shit. Like it was quite literally just a bunch of letters. That sounds like it was a really inspirational moment as well, as though it put everything into perspective, but it was just nothing you know.

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I also get awkward as fuck whenever people ask me what I got because I did well and I don’t want people to feel worse if they didn’t get what I did but still did awesomely and then I would look like that bitch feeling nothing for their results but overhyping their results. So I kinda just say I did well unless they specifically ask me what I got. It do be like that sometimes I guess. And my results are quite literally in among a pile of rubbish in my room and I know where they are like. They aren’t actually in the bin, but I always expected them to be like up on the fridge or like in a picture frame, but it is just there and I don’t give a shit about it.

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I called my granny on the day to tell her what I got and I swear she was more excited than me. Obviously, she wouldn’t be like “Ok?” and hang the phone up, but like I was just like yup. I didn’t fit the vibe check to say it in other terms. It was one of those moments where you are like “what now?”. I expect that to happen when I finish A levels or uni, if I even go, because what happens after you pass and everyone is like “well done” because you just go home and the world keeps spinning. Nobody else in the world is affected or knows of it and some people feel like their whole life has changed for good, but there are people just having a normal day. Seriously though, what did you do after graduating from university? Did you just go home and make yourself something to eat as usual? Did you wake up the next morning and have nothing much to do? I mean you have to start thinking about jobs and shit and actually making a living. It’s kind of just like another level of a game, just glorified. And I know this is probably dragging everyone done if they had a great day yesterday, but for me, that is how I feel. Just the same.

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I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.

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I Hate Genes

To any foetus child out there who is like what the fuck are genes, basically they are the characteristics that we get from our parents and they make up who we are and what we look like. For example, I inherited my dad’s white ass Irish skin which burns like a bitch whenever a bloody … Continue reading I Hate Genes

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Something I Realized About Being a Waitress

I’m going to try and keep this post quite small, kind of like the size of the tips people give. Yup, that is what I am talking about today and I would like to preface that this is in the most respectful way possible. I don’t feel this way towards young teen or people struggling financially, but there are a few people who may have caused absolute hell to my day or are obviously well off financially that give fuck all and I need to get it out there to someone.

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Now, I haven’t been a waitress for very long and I also don’t work in a fancy restaurant, but I work my ass off and give them the best experience possible. Maybe at the end of my shift I am less chatty but I am polite and efficient. I think it is my first or second week in this job and 2 days ago I had my busiest shift. I mean there were people out the fucking door and they just kept coming. I was stressed with learning so many things and having to communicate and put those lessons into practice almost immediately. Now that may not seem all that difficult but when you are already always stressed and there is so much noise and movement, it is pretty fucking hard. But then at the end of the shift, after serving so many bloody tables and a lot of big tables with 6-8 people, I got less than £4. I may sound like an ungrateful bitch but even I tip when I go out. Like it may not be a lot but it shows that I tried.

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And you see, my problem isn’t with teens not tipping because obviously they don’t know any better, and I don’t care if you just buy a small snack for yourself and/or your friend because that isn’t a lot of work for me and it is only a small bill anyways. But I swear to god, if I have to get you one million drinks, go back and forth having to get different salts and sauces or you buy lots of meals and desserts, you should at least have the courtesy of giving the waiters a bit of recognition because new flash, this isn’t what we want to be doing on a Friday night. That isn’t your fault and it is our job, I get that, but I’m paid minimum wage and could easily do the bare minimum but because I value you and want you to have the best experience, I work hard. Also, if you think we are being slow, that is probably because we are handling a handful of tables at a time and trying to prioritize and remember all the shit we have to do next. We haven’t forgotten about you, we want to get you sorted as quickly as possible and for me, someone who is new to the job, may take longer and make a few mistakes.

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I have had a few embarrassing times, one just the other day, where I was so exhausted and mentally fucked that I just forgot the table numbers and I had to walk around holding plates of food and having no clue where it was. I would sometimes forget what table it was even for and then have to go back and ask the scary chefs and then I would forget what dishes it even was and have to act like an idiot. It is fucking scary to breathe and look you in the eye especially when you are fucking rude or ignorant. Even if you don’t mean it and you don’t necessarily do anything mean like throw water in their face, make sure you give them a smile and a thank you or just any indication that you appreciate their presence because if we didn’t have waiters, you wouldn’t get any food or it would be 10 times later and with worse service. Maybe you think of us as unskilled or something but we are important for you getting your meals and drinks and everything.

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So here is something I feel like I need to say. I don’t feel entitled to a tip. I don’t expect every single person to tip because they may not know that is what you usually do yet. But what I don’t appreciate is when you are rude and dismissive and don’t give a tip, despite the fact we were of great service. If you don’t have anything to give, we don’t judge that, but make sure you look us in the eyes and genuinely show you are grateful. That may just be me and I may sound ignorant as it is my first week but every single waiter out there needs a bit of respect. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.

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The Best Part About Having Great Friends

Now, I ain’t tryna rub this in anyone’s face or nothing but like, I have a small group of really close friends and despite the fact it took me a while to get over myself and make friends, it was totally worth it because we are so close. We have never had fights like everyone else seems to have in school, and we are unproblematic. There is 5 of us, including me, so I suppose you can say we are a smaller group, but I don’t think I could imagine there being anymore. There have been people who have tried to go into our group which leads to awkward situations but it has always just stayed the same for us. Pretty much we just live our life like the people who walk away from an explosion without looking back to see it. We are those bitches and I wouldn’t change a single thing about it. So that does sound like a bit of a flex, but I added that because there is one thing that happens that I absolutely love and that I know other people go through with best friends. So lets talk about it.

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So, this thing is when you are with your friends, it is usually getting dark and you are not surrounded by other people, so you’d be in a tent or like outside or in your bedroom in an empty house, and then the conversation changes so quickly. Not as in “I love dogs, except when mine bit of my Nan’s arm”. But like when you are talking about something hilarious and then the next minute you find yourself talking about how we just live on a floating rock in empty space and we don’t even know what is out there. And I have no fucking clue how it gets there but like it isn’t awkward at all. We are all just like calm and talking back and forth and then you say something like “I just can’t even comprehend blah blah blah” and then someone else is like “that’s the same with me” and then you realise you aren’t crazy. Then all of a sudden you have just spilled all of the tea and fully exposed yourself but like you don’t even care. The thing that is extra funny about it is the fact that it is pretty much never mentioned again until the next time that situation happens and even then you usually switch up the topic. Maybe one week it was an existential crisis and the next it would be sharing traumas and then maybe next week we’ll mix it up with a talk about how scary the future is. It kind of is just pot luck at that point.

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Do you guys get that with your friends though? I always find it so fun because it is so spontanious and you find that other people understand and it shocks you and nobody is proper going to make a massive deal out of it and treat you differently. It doesn’t really happen with everyone that I am friends with, which is literally not that many lol, but with the closest friends this would be a regular moment. It happened yesterday when me and my friends were like just going to Tesco and then a field and it just hits out of nowhere. And then you usually just catapult back into the most random shit. It really is a mountain of emotions. Like we go from fuck all, to everything, to even less than before.

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This kind of a random post, a bit out of the blue you know, but like I have changed into a working woman because I have a job and that has made me exhausted and with little time to spare, but don’t fret guys because I will be trying my best to post I just don’t have a mind full of thoughts at the moment. It’s a good job though but I still literally freak out when I have another shift. We move though. So yeah, I’m keeping this short but I also want to add that if you are reading this and are like “oh shit I don’t have this with my friends” just know that it took me a while to find the right people and get comfortable enough to talk with them like that. I mean if you read one of my past posts abut my first year of high school you would know I never thought I would get to this point. So just be yourself and wait because you will find those friends someday and you can’t rush that shit, but it will be so worth it, trust me on that. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT

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Ok, But Like Where’s The Need?

So, with making this blog I wanted to make sure I was completely honest with you guys. I know that makes it sound really scary as though I’m gonna be like “I am Michael Jackson, I in fact did not die” but it isn’t that deep. It’s just a thing that most of us go through but nobody talks about which makes it seem like more of a weird thing. You’ll understand more when I get into this post but lets get started with a quick story time of what I did yesterday that kinda gave me this and you will probably be able to guess where I am going with this.

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So yesterday, I started my first day of work EVER. Like literally my first day of work, and it was in a restaurant, so it was safe to say I was shitting myself. But anyways, I went in absolutely shaking, so much so that they probably thought I was of those air bag people at car sales places that just flap around in the wind, but like during a hurricane. That was kind of a weird description but you get it, right. Anyways, I was nervous and sweaty and in a complete mess. But I tried to keep my composed. Luckily it was just a 3 hour shift. The people there were nice but like you know when you feel like people are being nice because they have to and in reality they don’t want you there. That was my thoughts. And I swear all my hearing went out the door because people would talk to me and, maybe it’s just the masks, but I couldn’t hear shit so would have to ask them to repeat and I would still not understand. I shadowed someone most of the time but when she went on break I felt so out of place and I barely talked to anyone else because I was the youngest and also scared I would do something awkward like be myself 😮

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If I made one mistake I would literally die inside and be like “I canny work a till what the fuck”. I also seem really dumb because I just don’t notice the obvious. Like the one time I spoke to another person was when I was like “is this the large and then the other one is the pint” because the actual large was actual at the back of the shelf and I didn’t really see it. And he was like “that is the regular, the large is this one” and he showed me so I went to try and find it and realised the glasses where fucking labelled so I looked like an idiot because I didn’t see them there. I looked like a dumb blonde in that moment. Also, whenever the forks ran out I was like where are the other forks and she pointed to a bucket of clean forks that was literally right beside me. I really don’t know how I wasn’t fired on the spot for incompetence. Also, I was so shaky that when I had to write down the orders, you could hardly read it and my handwriting is bad on a normal day but this was looking like fucking Latin or some shit because it made no sense at all

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But let’s get onto the main point of this post. From the moment my shift started to 2 pm the next day, I have been feeling so weird. Like I felt sick to my stomache and all the things I did wrong stuck in my head and I was so embarrassed and terrified for my next shift. I was literally still shaking and tense hours after it finished. It took me ages to get to bed that night because no matter what, I would always go back to thinking about how I was rubbish. And you know, I think a lot of people go through that especially at their first job, but in the moment you feel as though you are never gonna be able to work again. I have 3 shifts next week and I am actually so scared and I feel kind of like an impostor or some shit, but I am still gonna go and hopefully it only gets better from here. I mean I’m pretty sure this is as bad as it can get, but knowing me, I can go a lot lower than this, it’s a specialty of mine. lol jokes, but like I hope this is helpful to someone going through something similar or just scary in general and I hope that you have a way to express those feelings. If you don’t, please leave a comment or contact me directly and we can talk about whatever it is and if you are interested you could upload a post on this blog so that others can share their thoughts. It can be anonymous as well obviously.

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Anyways, I hope you enjoyed this post and found it somewhat useful because I know a lot of people can feel this amount of stress and anxiety after some situations, and know that’s ok as long as you share that with someone. But I will see you later for another post, don’t forget to like, share, comment and follow if you enjoyed this content. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.

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“You look just like your dad”

Let’s play a quick game of never have I ever. Never. Have I ever needed to hear that. Never have I ever wanted to hear that. Never have I ever felt good after hearing that. Never have I ever gone to someone’s house and they didn’t say this. Never have I ever been more offended. But literally why do people think that it would be a good thing to say to a teenage girl that they look just like an old, balding, wrinkly, angry, sore backed man. Like seriously what the fuck made you say that. There was actually one time I went to my sisters boyfriends house for some reason and I had never seen his parents before but I kid you not, the first thing they said to me was “you look just like your dad”… what dumb fuckery is that because I didn’t even know he had seen them. Like what the hell. Needless to say, I never saw them again. Highly unappreciated to be honest with you.

The saddest thing is though is that I can see it. Like they aren’t wrong. Did they need to point that out though? No. But they aren’t wrong. One time at New Years there was this thing where you had to guess who was who from their childhood photos. Don’t ask why. But we just did. And I was looking around when my sister called me over and was like “look at this” and so I did. She covered the hair of my dads picture and was like “look”. This bitch really called me out because it literally looked exactly like me. Great start to the new year am I right. Like why the actual fuck did I have to inherit his non-existent eyebrows and his literal 5 head. Not appreciated father.

But yeah, I never get compared to as my Mum but like I guess looking like my dad, while embarrassing, let’s me know I am not adopted because as a child I would be like “Oh mY GoD iM aDoPteD” just because I the only one in my whole family that has blonde hair. What do you guys get compared to. Is there anything other than your parents you get compared to or maybe even a celebrity! The only celebrity I’ve been compared to is the bloody monster from the goonies. He is such a babe though I guess.

Anyways, I hope you enjoyed this post and make sure to like and comment below if you have anything else to add. I’ll see you tomorrow for more hopefully and I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT


The “Magical” Transformation That Happens When You Combine Two Of The Best Brain Reprogramming Technologies

You’ve heard of NLP?

It’s almost cultish.

It stands for neuro-linguistic programming and it’s like someone had taken the best out of all forms of psychotherapy, threw them in a blender and created NLP.

If you don’t get what I’m saying, NLP is two things.

First, it is a way of thinking. It’s a framework for how to approach your life to be more effective. It’s like a philosophy of life based on understanding how your brain functions.

Second, it is a psycho-therapy tool. It’s used to treat phobias and to change beliefs in patients. Some consider it as effective as CBT (cognitive-behavioral therapy) and most say it’s a lot faster than the Freudian school of thought.

Why?

Because at the core of NLP lies hypno-therapy. To be more specific, the “behavioral changing” part of NLP is built on the teachings of Milton Erickson, one if not the most famous hypnotherapists of all times. And you know what hypno-therapy does?

It’s an access, a hack, to your subconscious mind

Let me give you this analogy. Imagine your mind being like a computer. Your conscious mind is accessing programs, turning it on and off and so on. Normal user access. Your subconscious mind is like going into the settings, installing applications, deleting them, adding new users and so on.

It’s the “engine” or the “back room” that controls everything.

Well, NLP is like a hacker that can break the password of your subconscious mind and change there. It allows you to change beliefs and to change who you are, as a person, to your core. It goes to those deep thoughts and ideas you don’t even know you have and makes you act differently by tweaking your basic concepts of self.

It hijacks your subconscious mind, and it does it very well.

And with the use of NLP you can eliminate phobias, you can change basic preferences (as not liking chocolate anymore) or you can even cure wounds from the past, as those from childhood. It’s effective. It works well, and it’s endorsed by some of the best-known authors in the world. Tony Robbins built his career and success on NLP and if you run a survey amongst successful people, you’ll see that many of them are NLP practitioners or masters.

You can’t mess with what works.

So why am I telling you this?

If NLP is like a hacker that tweaks your subconscious mind so you can become the person you want to be, if NLP is like a design tool that allows you to redesign who you are, then brainwave entrainment is a tool that makes it faster and easier.

If NLP is the thief that breaks the lock-pick, then the use of brainwave entrainment with it is like having the best lock-pick in the world, making the process effortlessly.

And what does this mean for you?

It’s simple.

Use them both. Use the amazing power of NLP to change beliefs and self-identity concepts and use the power of brainwave entrainment to help your subconscious mind be receptive and open. Open the door with brainwave syncing and change the furniture with NLP.

A simple way to understand this is music.

Think about it and how easy it has the power to change you. You listen to a song and you’re not even paying attention to the lyrics. And yet, if it’s a sad song, you become sad. If it’s a lively song, it boosts your energy. If you listen it many times, you end up thinking like in the song.

Music is a great example of a tool that accesses your subconscious mind without even realizing. You turn on YouTube and through repetition and emotion, you end up being one with the music.

Have you tried reading a book you had no interest in reading? Maybe for college or work?

You read the words; they are verbalized in your mind but you end up forgetting everything. They “enter one year and exit another”. This is because your subconscious mind is as closed as it gets and learning can not happen in your conscious dimension.

This is why I use NLP in all my tools.

Brainwave entrainment is amazing for helping your mind operate at that higher frequency. They’re like Vitamin C for your life, making everything better. And if you use brainwave entrainment, this is enough to attract, to manifest good things in your life because you’ll be operating at a higher level.

However…

True, lasting change comes not by attracting things in our lives but by changing who we are so those things become a natural order. It’s when we change our beliefs and ideas so we transform into people for whom success and happiness are two natural things.

And this is where NLP works so well. It works for everything from curing phobias of spiders to getting past PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder) to program you to be more confident in front of a crowd or to be more assertive with your coworkers.

This is because while short-term wins are great – if you want a successful life, you must become the person who is naturally successful. And the only difference between you and a successful person is that the other one developed the beliefs and identity of such a person. If you develop them too, there’s nothing stopping you from doing just.

I build my program “Manifestation Magic” around NLP.

Each audio contains hidden embedded commands that reprogram your subconscious mind. Like a good hacker, brainwave syncing is opening the path to your subconscious mind while NLP commands are transforming who you are into the best version you could ever be.

These are called “NLP patterns” and they’re designed to be as easy to receive by the subconscious mind as possible. I do this through a combination of pacing, intonation and wording so your mind can accept them as commands, as truth, without getting defensive. It’s like music, just so much more powerful.

Basically, an NLP pattern is what a hypno-therapist would tell you to put you into a trance. It is highly suggestive language that bypasses your rational filters to reach where it matters most, your subconscious mind.

NLP plus brainwave entrainment is like having a hacker change your mind. NLP alone can access your subconscious thoughts but when paired with brainwave entrainment, the results are mind blowing. You can see a real change in days when all other methods you’ve tried for a long time like therapy failed.

This is the secret behind “Manifestation Magic”.

This is why it works. It works because instead of just using brainwave entrainment to help you operate at a higher frequency, at a higher vibration, it also changes who you are at your core. The result is a total personal transformation into the person you’ve always wanted to be but never known how.

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Weekly Reminder

I’ve heard a lot of people mention something that their therapist once told them to do. They said “the other day my therapist told me to look over at an empty chair and imagine child you sitting on it. They then asked me what I looked like and I said I looked happy and excited. They then told me to imagine that child me was going through the same thing that I am going through now. Again he asked what I looked like, and to that I said sad, lonely. And then my therapist said, what does he look like he needs, and all I could say was a hug”. I pretty much took that directly from a tiktok I saw, but I had heard other stories identical to that one.

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But it’s weird right. We never really look at ourselves that way. It also sometimes seems like we can give advice and support to our friends, but never actually do it ourselves. And it can be really difficult to see it in the way of younger you being in the same situation because it is just a child, but it is still you. And the therapists aim there was to harness what you actually need. What it is you need guidance on so they can help you. I suppose it is also so you can help yourself because you look at your situation as if you were observing your own life. I always find myself joking a lot about me ‘warning’ my younger self. Like if I were to look at a photo of baby me I would joke “she don’t know what the fucks gonna hit her” and I would say stuff like that at all times when talking about younger me or just kids in general. Like there was this one time when I was telling my friends about how my cousin said school sucked because his friend stole his pencil and I was like ‘ah to be 9 and your biggest problem being a pen. Just wait till he gets to high school’. So although I don’t directly say it, I am just dissing how crap my life is at the moment and how shit hits the fan by the time you start into high school. I am sure some of you guys do that at sometimes too because I feel it is a universal joke, especially for gen z’s because we usually use humour to hide how we feel.

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I guess why I wanted to mention this was because I want you to try it. If it isn’t too hard, I want you to look at an empty chair, or an empty space and imagine little you with the pain that you feel right now in their eyes and the same thoughts in their head. Would you treat them like you treat yourself now? Would you tell them they are attention seeking or dramatic? Would you tell them to just ‘disappear’ because they only cause harm? Or would you give them a hug. Hold them tight and tell them that it is going to be ok and you are going to be there for them through it out. Would you get them the help they need? Tuck them up in bed with a nice movie and a bowl of brownies and ice cream. Treat them the way they deserve and show them they are loved. Well, what would you do? You do all the first things to yourself I’m going to guess, but why? You wouldn’t do that to your younger self, but you are still that person. Make sure you look after yourself because although you may think this is ‘the real world’ and you need to just wise up, you are the most important thing in life and you need to look after yourself the way that you deserve. It may be difficult to do but please remember that you are human and life is tough and that’s ok as long as you take care of yourself. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT

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The “Magical” Transformation That Happens When You Combine Two Of The Best Brain Reprogramming Technologies

You’ve heard of NLP? It’s almost cultish. It stands for neuro-linguistic programming and it’s like someone had taken the best out of all forms of psychotherapy, threw them in a blender and created NLP. If you don’t get what I’m saying, NLP is two things. First, it is a way of thinking. It’s a framework … Continue reading The “Magical” Transformation That Happens When You Combine Two Of The Best Brain Reprogramming Technologies

How to Learn to Sing!

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It’s All About Perspective

Ok guys, we aren’t about to get into some existential shit today because I don’t think I can take that at the moment, but I guess it kinda will be but like to a certain extent, so kinda just be warned about that but lets get started into it. This is another weekly reminder post but I am going to make it around the same vibe as my other posts because I find it hard to… write like I care. That sounds really mean but what I mean by that is that I struggle to not cringe when I try to write a post in an empathetic tone. I know I am disappointing my English teacher at the moment but like I don’t give a shit anyways. So sorry if you prefer reading things that are kinda sad, but I use humor to cope despite the fact my humor is crap so that isn’t the best but like we move. I also don’t know why I am typing all of this because I can guarantee that you don’t give a fuck. But yeah, I feel that when I try to write a post with an empathetic tone, I sound so fake, kinda like all the people in my school. Lets get into it anyways

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I saw this TikTok video yesterday and it was this girl that was replying to a comment that said “how are you so confident” and if I knew who that girl was I would shout her out but I don’t so like deal with it, but anyways, she was so… como se dice… perfect. Like she was a nice confident where she is outgoing but wouldn’t be like “fuck you” to every person who breathes near her. Anyways, that is besides the point, but she literally just said “because nobody fucking cares! In a couple of hundred years everyone on this earth will literally be dead and nobody will remember that thing you said or the clothes you wore or anything because it won’t carry on once we all die”. I mean unless you do something so awful like a proper historical downfall, you shouldn’t change for anyone. Like that person you are changing yourself for is gonna die and so are you so why are you trying to do something for them when eventually it won’t matter at all and you should live the life that you want when you have it.

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I always get a wee bit scared when I talk about doing whatever you want because it won’t mean shit in the future because I always feel people are going to use that as a reason for like killing someone or just doing something awful because “it won’t matter” but like don’t think I am saying that. I don’t want to be responsible for murder, but like you know what I mean. It is the things like caring what other people think about you and stuff like that. Trying to make others happy before yourself and that shit. We are all guilty of doing this and that’s fine because that is what we have learned and it isn’t our fault, but it is also ok because we can fix it, as long as it is for yourself. That is kinda why I like being single at this stage. I mean having someone that actually likes you must be nice, but I like the fact that I am free to fully figure myself out and think about myself as an individual and if a relationship comes from that then it is perfect. But from past experiences I know that having a partner can be kinda restrictive and, at least in my position, I always changed myself to be perfect for him and to not be myself. Maybe if you have a healthy relationship then that is different, but you need to think carefully about who you are with.

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And also, literally if that person remembers it for the rest of their life, maybe they laugh about how you panicked in a school play until the day they die, then that is only one life and you should move on with it because they will die one day and that is it. It won’t become a family tradition to carry on this story. And the embarrassing thing you did, you aren’t the first person to do that. I mean the earth is millions of years old and even in just the past 100 years, there have probably been millions of people that have done the same as you. What you also need to remind yourself is that if someone actually does hang onto that one thing you did ages ago and makes fun of it, they have no fucking life. I mean would a person who actually mattered focus on that thing everyday or would they move on with life and all the opportunities they will come to have. And the people who remember it and therefore have no life, shouldn’t worry you because it doesn’t make you less than them and you know the only reason they remember that is because they have made it their whole personality trait and that is the only bit of information they can actually keep in their pea sized brain.

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So yeah, I hope this boosted your confidence in some way and that you can come to terms with the reality of life and how eventually, just like humans, rumors will die. Stories die and you aren’t weird or dumb for what you did. But yeah, just don’t give a shit and you will be good I guess. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT

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Weekly Reminder

I’ve heard a lot of people mention something that their therapist once told them to do. They said “the other day my therapist told me to look over at an empty chair and imagine child you sitting on it. They then asked me what I looked like and I said I looked happy and excited. … Continue reading Weekly Reminder

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Going Back To “Normal”

Hey guys, so I haven’t really posted on here in a wee bit but like life happens so deal with it. Anyways, I guess I just wanted to just talk about how today I am kind of transitioning back into a normal, pre-covid, life. And what is it that I am doing you might ask? Well, I am going to be going back to Ju-Jitsu for the first time in forever which is kind of fun but at this point I don’t even know if I am interested in going and that could be because it has been a while or it could also be my mental state lol. A large portion of it is also not being able to body slam people and knock the shit out of them. You don’t really do that in Ju-Jitsu anyways, but like I did karate before and there were fights that you could do and it was actually quite fun. I think the only reason I stopped that was because it was becoming very serious for me and they wanted to put me in world championships and that shit but I am quite a home-bird and also that was around the time I started first year and my mental health was… declining. So yeah, in another world you could have been watching me knock the shit out of someone on the Olympics, but that would be women’s sports so I guess it isn’t that big. LOL THAT WAS A JOKE I SWEAR. I AM A WOMAN AND JUST MAKING FUN OF THE FACT MEN THINK WOMEN’S SPORTS IS BORING.

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But yeah, I think I tried 4 different martial arts classes in my lifetime. I also swear that when I first asked my parent’s if I could start karate I thought I was making up a word but I must have heard it from someone subconsciously and I was so freaked out when they said “sure”. I’m not sure if that was a mistake or not but I did ballet before and that was not my cuppa tea lets just say. I have a really embarrassing story from ballet but I don’t think I will ever tell you what it is. So I don’t know why I just told you that if I am not even going to tell the story lol but yeah it was embarrassing. Do you know what is funny though, and my English teacher would literally eat this up, is that I started my ‘martial arts journey’ in the leisure center and the 4th that I am in now is at the same leisure center! Cyclical structure?! I hate how I thought of that. LETS ANALYZE IT! no. I never have to do that again and I am thankful for that everyday.

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You probably aren’t wondering, but I am going to tell you, why I left each of the classes. They are pretty good stories actually so lets get started

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  1. The first place I went to was at the leisure center and it was for karate. My friend at the time went their too and I was like wow this is so fun. Except for when the grading part came (if you don’t know, this is how you go up the belts). The man that was their was so fucking creepy and there were so many people I didn’t know and the building that it was in was so sketchy and like had the worst vibes. I think a lot of my anxieties formed there. So that was one reason, and literally gave me PTSD to think about, but the other reason was because it was a small class and literally took fucking ages to move up just one belt. I think that for moving up each belt you had to do 2 gradings and then when you got to the higher belts you had to do 4 to get to the next belt. I know the black belt takes a while but like the fucking rest of them!? There was no need. So I left
  2. The second place I went to was probably one of my favorites because the people their were nice, I moved up pretty quickly because, ya know, I was a pro and all that. I stayed there a while and only left because high school really messed me up. I remember one time I literally cried when I was doing one of my gradings because I was so stressed out about everything. It was in a nice hall this time but like was still far from home and different to usual and really just set a bad vibe for the rest of the day. I liked this one a lot because they were obviously serious about it and actually did fighting and shit. There were competitions I went to and did well at and I nearly got to my brown belt I think, but I still remember the last day I went there and I was literally holding back tears and then when I got back to the car my mum was like “what’s wrong” and you know that hits different when you have been holding back tears the whole time, so then I quit. Little did I know that was only the fucking start lmao. High school was not good for me, let me tell you that. But I actually enjoyed it and fully miss it.
  3. The third place was BY FAR the worst of them all. I remember going to it and it was a fucking joke. I should have known from their logo and their fucking clown gees. It was new and my mum was like you need to go because you are good at martial arts and I was like fine and I actually hated it with a passion. They made it seem like they were so cool but they pretty much made up their own fucking martial art. These people spent 30 minutes of the 45 minutes doing warm ups and then the last 15 minutes I was having to work my way through literal fetuses doing random ass moves. They had a fucking grey belt! I might as well leave it there. They fully made up a belt and thought they were doing something. Like bitch just stop. And they would have all these literal weapons that looked like they were from an unrealistic ninja movie. I stayed there way too long and it was honestly embarrassing. People literally send their kids there and think they are gonna become a pro fighter but no, they are just gonna become a joke. So I left that place
  4. The forth place. The place I am at now. The place that I like despite a few different complications. The people there, to start, are mainly nice, but there are a select few who I… dislike strongly and would happily knock out. I am on my purple belt actually so have been there a while. The people are nice and, unlike the third place, they are official and not a joke. I am starting back today and the only reason I am not looking forward to it is that you aren’t even allowed to throw people so there quite literally will be nothing to do, but it’s fine. There are other reasons too but I think I have insulted my peers enough today.
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Anyways, that is all I can be bothered to talk about today. Lets hope it all goes well and I can control my emotions well enough. I am also not very fit after all that time off so literally watch me get the reddest face ever lmao. Are you guys starting anything normal at the moment or are a lot of your hobbies still closed? Leave your answer in the comment section below, I would love to hear what you are doing. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT

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Weekly Reminder – You Are a Bad Bitch

The past couple of weeks my weekly reminders have been more low-key but this week I want to liven it up a bit you know. Like I want to remind you guys how absolutely awesome you are and how you should not give a fuck what other people think because you are the shit. So welcome to my TED talk bitches, let’s get it started.

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How many times this past week did you give a fuck? It’s ok if it’s a lot. Mine is quite a lot. Now, my task for you this week is to lower this right down. Let’s get it down to a half of the fucks you gave. So if you cared about what other’s thought of you etc. around 20 times, lets lower this to 10 times. It may seem like a stretch, but catch yourself when you start to care about what other’s are thinking because that wastes so much of your time and they don’t deserve that. I am not gonna say that life is short because it really fucking isn’t but despite that, you ain’t got any time to give away so stop wasting time on the people who don’t matter. And it is natural for people to make question what they wear or get a bit anxious, but just look at yourself in the mirror and talk to your reflection as though you are hyping up your best friend who is feeling the way you do. Tell your reflection that it is the most beautiful thing in the world and that nobody deserves you. Tell it that it shouldn’t give a fuck about what other’s think because they are the most important thing in the world and everyone else is just jealous. It may feel a bit awkward at first and I know that it will but that is how you should be talking to yourself anyways. You shouldn’t be your own worst enemy.

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I can tell that whoever is reading this right now is an absolute beast because, well, you are on the best blog in the world, but also because you are still here. Like how fucking badass is that. You are walking away from a fucking bomb that was 2020 and you may still be in the fire but you are still going. Pandemic? Got nothing on you. School? You can get through it. Life? That shit sucks but I’m getting there. I don’t think that you fully appreciate how awesome you are because I know that others or yourself may downplay what you go through, but by just thinking about this past year, I already know that you are literally elite. You are gonna be the cool grandparent or older person that gives all the best advice, is absolutely hilarious, has awesome stories about living in a pandemic (despite the fact we might oversell it to sound more dramatic), you are gonna change the world just by existing and some day you will walk down the street and know that, although others may not see it yet, you are a freaking star.

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I am not sure if any of you guys have heard this quote before by Mother Teresa. It is pretty good and I think about it every so often because it is so simple yet means so much. She says

"We ourselves feel that what we are doing is just a drop ...
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Isn’t that quite good. Like it just shows that no matter how small you think your impact on the earth is, it is still significant. If you weren’t here there would be that much less than if you were. It all adds up and although you may not see it, every thing matters and if we lost you, we would be a you short. We would be missing a you and that will affect things. You are a part of a big thing and your presence is appreciated. I guess you could also link it to the butterfly effect where, if small thing happens like a butterfly flapping it’s wings, it leads to something bigger, like a hurricane. It may seem a bit weird, but it is true. If we missed a you then throughout the years life would be so different especially in the lives of the ones you love. Because you are here the world is so much different and I want you to know that you do have a meaning, you are so important, you do make an impact and your life does matter.

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Don’t let anyone else tell you otherwise because you are a blessing and you need to keep shinning because one day you will finally realise your strength and the world won’t seem so tough anymore. When you realise your worth, you won’t take any shit and you can live life they you want and make the decisions that make you the happiest I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.

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Cancel Culture – Let’s Address This Bitch

If anybody doesn’t know what cancel culture is, let me explain it to you. Technically, it is just this thing were people ‘cancel’ (or make them unfamous) people because of something bad they said in their lifetime. And you might be saying “well I mean that doesn’t sound too bad” but let me tell you a bit more. The types of things they use as evidence to cancel said person would literally be from when they were literally kids. So if, somehow, a video got out of them pronouncing the word “gay” wrong when they were first learning to talk, they would take that and be like “cancel this hoe, she doesn’t respect the LGBTQIA+ community” and then their whole career goes down the drain. Basically the people who support cancel culture are the so called “snow flake” generation. And that I agree with. The only cancelling I will agree with is cancelling cancel culture.

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What is so aggravating about it is that the person could have completely changed from what they had been like 10 years ago and they would still be cancelled. I could be cancelled for this post because of the fact I think cancelling people for what they said years back is bad, but like people change bitch. Unless they said it the other day and don’t actually regret it, get over it because we all make mistakes. The things I have seen people have to apologize for are actually ridiculous. There was this one hilarious video I had watched, I forget what it was about, but it was so funny. It was by Spencerwuah I think, and it was the tiniest thing about literally nothing and people in the comments were like “oh my god I can’t believe you just said that” “address it” “oh my god some people are just so awful” and there are points where you actually think it’s a joke but it isn’t and your like who the fuck hurt you to be so sensitive.

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People’s whole career’s get ruined for it too. Like when we are kids our parent’s tell us things and we believe them because we don’t know what else to think, like we haven’t made our own opinions yet. And then later on in life people learn that maybe their opinion isn’t right and so they change who they used to be, but people don’t like to see that. No matter how much they apologize, their career that they once loved has just disappeared. Now don’t get me wrong, there are some things that aren’t ok such as recent discoveries about James Charles and Shane Dawson being actual pedophiles, but like that is a literal crime and absolutely disgusting and it is recent with actual evidence that they did it. But like for other times, people really do just twist words. And they also just don’t give them a chance to defend themselves or correct themselves. Kind of like if one time they misgender someone and then they are like “Oh sorry, what are your pronouns?”, all the cancel culture bitches will be like “don’t try to make yourself look like the victim you are so close minded” when in reality they just made a mistake.

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So just to finish I suppose, cancel culture needs to be cancelled because people change and some of the evidence you use to prove your point is ridiculous. But don’t get me wrong, if there are pedophilia charges or rape charges, those people don’t deserve to have freedom, but if it is something from 10 million years ago, they have probably changed so get your dramatic, pasty Karen ass out of here because we don’t wanna hear it. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself (unless you are a pedophile or rapist) PERIODT


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Weekly Reminder

Hello guys, so I have posted in like two days but don’t worry it was just for my birthday so didn’t really have much time, but I’m back now so we are good to go. And what a better way to get back into things than a weekly reminder you know. I don’t really have a set theme for today to be honest, but I guess I want to make it more motivational this week I suppose. But this is also coming from the least motivated person in the entire world, but I always seem to give better advice to others than I do to myself so lets get into it I suppose.

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My school makes all of the 5th years do a careers talk with a career advisor. And during mine he was asking me if I was interested in going to school next year or university. Me being the indecisive bitch I am, I said that I had always wanted to go back to school, but at the moment I don’t know because I don’t have the motivation for it and I kinda don’t know if it is for me (but that is a whole other story). And he told me that he was hearing that a lot from other people in my year, especially during quarantine. He said that our lives have completely been turned upside down and the school state of mind we had built up was completely shot down so it is understandable that we are rethinking these types of things. And that is so true you know. I mean in my most important years of school I barely studied for more than 1 hour that whole year and me being confused is normal. Nobody else has ever been through this type of thing so we, the generation who were previously fucked up, have no guidance and nobody to relate to that actually knows what we are going through. So I guess this information might be better for those wondering whether or not to go back to school, but I will tell you how you can benefit from this if you aren’t going to school or anything like that. I would also like to mention that not going back to school is completely fine and I respect that, so if somebody thinks I sounded like I was being judgmental, I wasn’t trying to be

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So now for all those who aren’t thinking about returning to school and just over all have low motivation and confusion about what their future is going to be like. I am going to start of with the cliche “it is totally ok” because honestly it is. I think that after all the shit you have gone through for over a year, or maybe more than that depending on your life, it is your right to feel like you have been knocked of the tracks of life. It takes a very strong person to be unfazed by what is going on because pretty much everything changed in the blink of an eye. I still remember the day that I came home from school and sat down with the news playing on the TV and the whole world was told that we must go into lockdown for the foreseeable future. So in that split second, what was expected to be a week off school, turned into 6 months of complete lockdown. I didn’t step back into school for 6 months and that all changed in one split second. So that is a shit load to process and we had to restart that process every time the news changed and that was literally every day. So don’t beat yourself up for not knowing what to do next. Give yourself the respect and the time you need to process what has happened and move on from there when it is right for you. Although it may seem that we are expected to bounce back from all of this like it is natural, it is totally ok for you to take the time you need to readjust. I am not sure how long that will take for you but it will happen eventually so ride out this wave and don’t try to speed up the process because that won’t be helpful for you in the long term. I guarantee you that you are not alone and I know that if you were to ask someone if they know what they are going to do next or what their future holds, no matter what stage of life they are in, the will most likely say “I have no fucking clue” and that is fine because you can figure it out together. You quite literally have your whole life to figure it out.

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I hope this helped you guys out their who feel a bit lost and unmotivated because I know that I do. I am young and still have so much ahead of me which is fucking scary, but we are in this together ok. So please feel free to comment down below how you have been feeling lately and maybe someone will reply saying they feel the same way. Like and follow for more content like this and make sure to look at my other posts which are more comedic and different to this post. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT


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Weekly Reminder | Who Is The Baddest B*tch?

For the past couple of weeks I have been making more comforting weekly reminders, but it’s about time we speed this shit up. Its time for some hype and I am here for it. This is gonna be cringed as fuck but I don’t give a crap because it is what it is and nobody even cares!

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You see, we live our whole life wondering “what will they think about me” and “that will be embarrassing” as if we should give a fuck. You are the baddest bitch and nobody can top it. If they are judging you, they just are pointing out the things they wish they had. I’m not about to go and preach “life is short” because I think it is a fucking long time to be honest, but no matter how long you live, there is no time for crap and you should be using that time to live your best life. I mean think of it. What good comes out of thinking about what others think? Literally nothing. You get fake friends. You have low self-esteem and you most likely live in fear id being caught. But when you live like you want, you may have less friends, but those that you have are the best, and you don’t have to be fake, you are more comfortable being yourself.

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It is always when after you change yourself that you realise it was a mistake, so let me save you the time. If you are thinking about everyone else but yourself when making a decision, don’t fucking do it. Block out all the noise telling you that it matters what they think because chances are they don’t give a fuck and chances are they aren’t going to benefit you at all. Whether you like it or not, you are the only thing that matters, and for some reason we can never accept that, but if anyone dares tell you otherwise just remember what a bad bitch you are. You don’t need the validation of any fucking person because you are all you need and others are just a bonus. You need to live your best life, and you need to block out any person that tries to take that away from you because they have no right to take your shine. So whenever you go out to a party, or even just to the supermarket, you go in like the confident bitch you are because people should be honored to even say hello to you. You are one of the greatest people in that room and can’t nobody tell you otherwise.

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So don’t you dare listen to anyone else. Listen to this and only this because everyone else is telling lies, but this is the truth and I know it. You need to know it too. Take a look what you can do and have done. You have gone through a pandemic, through life, your live on the ‘Goldilocks’ planet, breathing, sleeping, digesting, putting smiles on peoples faces, changing the world with every step you make. Nobody like you has ever or will ever be on this planet, so you gotta show them all that you got. Go down in history because you are so amazing and unique and inspiring. I love you and so do so many other people. Make sure nobody ever underestimates you. You are worth so much more than their time and their thoughts and all the things that they judge you for. Live the life you want and shout “eat my dust bitches”. Become friends with those on your level, the ones who match your speed. And if they start to slow done, you keep going. You keep doing what you need to do because that is what you want to do and nobody should take that goal away from you. PERIODT

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The “Snowflake” Generation | Time For The Truth

Lately this whole “snowflake generation” thing has become a universally known term to describe Gen z. They say it because we are to sensitive or fragile, because, well, I guess we take things too seriously or we are too awkward to do certain things like standing up for ourselves. And I know that you are all going to comment things like “complaining about being a snowflake makes you a snowflake” and “wow they really are sensitive” but I just kinda wanted to shed a little light on what I, a Gen Z, think of the title.

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The other day we were talking about some of the words that we can’t say for obvious reason. For example, as a white person there are words I can’t say and other things like that. And then the adults were kind of talking about how “you can say these words just don’t say them to other people” and they were talking about how we can say it. Now I just looked at them so confused because they were rambling on about this, and if I said anything about it, such as “we don’t have the right to say that whether or not it is in a song, or a book or a general conversation”, I would be hit with the “your such a snowflake lol” and that would be the conversation over. But that just really annoys me because I feel like that is just the right thing. Just a way to educate people that despite the fact you think it is ok to say certain things, it really isn’t and we need to change how we act sometimes. So for me at least, I don’t think that standing up for what is right shouldn’t be labeled as being too fragile. Maybe our generation is trying to teach the older generations that times have changed and we want to start improving certain things that they would have seen as normal.

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I also find that my way of talking to my friends or my sisters is a lot different to how older generation do it. Like, me and my sister could be just being sarcastic and ‘mean’ to each other, but like in a jokey way, and my mum would be raging and saying we should be nicer, but that is just how we communicate. We tend to make a lot more jokes than other people and they don’t take that very well. For example, my dad came in and was talking about something that he made sound really dramatic but pretty much was just about how his friend bought something in the shop or something like that and I was like “wow that was such a great story dad”, but like sarcastically and he was so offended. I just looked at him and back at my sister and I was so confused because it was pretty obviously a joke. And then whenever my sister would be like “that garden is so ugly” or something random like that, I would go “you’re so ugly” and then we just laugh it off. Basically we say random jokes and kind of shows that we are close enough and respect each other enough to do that, but then my parents would literally be calling a therapist because she thinks I am bullying her or something. So if we really are “snowflakes”, then why would we be talking to each other like that. We don’t even take offense to it, but the older generation do. So who is the snowflake now bitches.

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My other argument for it is that I feel like a lot of people call us snowflakes because of our mental health situation. Like all the Karen’s will be talking about how everyone is depressed or mentally ill because we take things so seriously and we just need to relax, but then they ignore the actual reason so many of us are mentally unstable. Let me just name 5 points for now, just as a wee eye opener ok. There is school, social media, global warming, pandemic, meeting parents expectations… oh wait we are at 5 already. Damn, I didn’t even get warmed up. Now you can look at that list and think “well we went through multiple of those things too” and yes, you did, well done, but times have changed since you were at school and there are more pressures and problems at the moment. In the past, you didn’t have to pay for university. You didn’t have social media which is so confusing and impactful in our lives. You had global warming but you kind of caused it and didn’t change things when you could and now you are leaving it all up to us to fix it and also blaming us for it. You weren’t told that we only have to 2050 before it is controllable. Unless you are over 100 years old, you have never been in a global pandemic. You have most likely not had pretty much all of your important school years at home, where you had to teach it to yourself and nothing stayed normal for more that 1 hour. And the last one, parents expectations, you guys did have this too and I know that. It was a big one for all of us but I put it in just to remind you that we don’t try to disappoint you, no matter what we do. I know for a fact that we all want to make you proud, and that can be stressful sometimes. So maybe think about the real reason behind our mental state before you go off blaming it on the fact we are too sensitive, because maybe you should blame it on the fact we are too tired.

So you can call us snowflakes if you want, but snowflakes make an avalanche and that is what we are. Our generation is going to make a change and we are going to create something strong and powerful. I know that is cheesy as fuck, but I think it makes sense. Maybe as individuals we seem “fragile” but when we are all together, there is nothing stopping us PERIODT.


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The Maybe Story

Today I wanted to share a story with you guys that I heard a while back. It is a random story but yet it has a big meaning behind it. So grab a cuppa tea and enjoy.

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There was this old Chinese farmer who spent all of his days working on his crops, until one day his horse ran away. When the word got around, his neighbors would come over saying “that is so bad”, “that is so unlucky” and “we are so sorry”. And he would look at them, shrug and then say “maybe”. A few days later, he woke up to see his horse had come back and had brought more wild horses with it. Again, the neighbors found out and came running over to his farm shouting “this is so great”, “how lucky” and “you must be so happy”. And again, the farmer shrugged and said “maybe”. The next day, his son was riding one of the horses around the field, when it started leaping up and threw his son, breaking his leg. Just like clockwork, the neighbors came with sorry faces crying “this is awful”, “how unlucky” and “you must be sad”. Once again, he shrugged and said “maybe”. The next day the soldiers came around to each and every house, taking ever able young man to fight in the war. When they got to the farm, they took one look at the son and thought “he has a broken leg. He will be no good for us” and they drove off. Now all the neighbors came over. They were talking about how their sons were taken away and were rambling on about how lucky and happy he must be.

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You see, that whole time, his neighbors thought he was absolutely crazy because no matter what happened to him, he always reacted with “maybe”. He never assumed anything of a situation. And all the time, things changed, something bad came from the good, but something good happened from the bad. So instead of overthinking the negatives, and crying over everything, he saw it as fate, as though it needed to happen. Why I think this story is so great is because it shows that we can’t look at every situation in black and white. Every situation isn’t just good or bad. But if we do look at it in this way, life is going to get really tough because we don’t realise that things happen for a reason, and that maybe something like breaking your leg, will make such a difference on your future. So instead of feeling sorry for yourself, be like the farmer. We have no clue what is to come next or what it will do to our future, so we need to fix how we view situations. You could focus on the negatives, or you could look for the positives. Just don’ believe that your life sucks, because something great is just around the corner and we gotta wait for it. I believe everything happens for a reason, and if you are going through really tough shit right now, something great will come from it. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT


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What I Wish My Teachers Knew

In the many years of my school life, there are a lot of things I have realised, such as the quiet kids are forgotten and the loud, rude ones are adored. And there are many more, so I want to address some as if I had to tell a teacher what I think. If you are a teacher and you learn from this then you are as good as a teacher who already does these things already. Just because you hadn’t done these before, doesn’t mean you are a bad teacher because if you changed some things then it shows that you actually do care and I respect that so much.

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I wish that teachers started to talk more to their quiet students because I am one of them and, although it sounds a bit attention seeking, we have things that we are worried about and need help with, but we are too afraid to ask because that comes with so many repercussions, like drawing attention to ourselves and getting judged or shouted at by the other loud ones. I do understand that a lot of you do try but then because we are a bit awkward and quiet, you don’t really talk to them anymore. And I understand how that must be so awkward for you, but if you talked to us more than just the one time, you would see that we are actually nice people with a lot of things to say, we just don’t have the voice or confidence to say it. I know that for me, it means so much for a teacher to just say hello or just appreciate that we are there because a majority of the time, we get drowned out by the other people who act like complete idiots and are being so disrespectful to you. I just wish that teachers got to know all of their students and understand how they are feeling and what they are getting stuck on because it can be really tiring sometimes when you feel like you aren’t getting heard because despite the fact we stay quiet, we actually have an opinion. And to add to that, make sure that you don’t let the quiet people get bullied especially in your class because it is so obvious sometimes but teachers usually just laugh at them like “boys will be boys”. Showing that you care makes a big difference in our life.

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This is such a big one and since somebody mentioned this to me, I have always thought about this whenever meeting a new teacher. Are you a human before a teacher, or a teacher before a human. Now I am not accusing teacher’s of being literal lizards or something, but what I mean by this is, do you empathize with your students and understand that we make mistakes or forget things at times. And maybe you remember that nobody is good at everything so if we are struggling, actually understand and help instead of rolling your eyes like we are a burden. Here is a quick test to see whether you are a human or a teacher first.

  • When someone forgets their books do you a) shout at them and give some form of punishment or b) say that is ok and to try and remember next time
  • When someone forgets their homework do you a) shout at them and give a detention or b) tell them that is ok and to try and hand it in as soon as they can
  • When someone stops doing well in class do you a) embarrass them and make them seem lazy and a failure or b) after class ask them about what is going on in their life they need help with or just anything in class they need help with
  • When someone is late to your class do you a) tell them to stay after class and interrogate them for why they are late and tell them to never do it again or b) welcome them in warmly and if it happens multiple times ask them how everything is.
  • When someone doesn’t participate in class do you a) put them on the spot or point out their quietness or b) ask them if they are ok or just don’t understand anything
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I could go on all day asking you questions like these, but I think we have enough. If you answered mostly a) then you are a teacher before a human. If you answered mostly b) then you are a human before the teacher and I applaud you. When you are a human before a teacher, you are caring and understand students abilities and emotions and you actually care about their wellness and future. But if you are a teacher before a human, you are teaching them that mistakes are wrong and they are going to be useless. You teach them how to live in a military society and make them feel unwelcome and as though they are stupid. So please just know that we are just kids and teens who literally have no fucking clue what is going on or who we are. We have so many things to think about outside of school and just because we don’t do everything perfectly, doesn’t mean we are rude or disrespectful, we just need a bit of time to collect ourselves.

This happened to me just the other day where I was walking down the corridor and this teacher, who had clearly seen me, was walking past. This was an empty corridor, just me and her, and I went as close to the side as I could to be polite because, respect your elders and all that. But she literally barged into me and didn’t move as though I was the problem. Just because you have been on this earth for longer than me, doesn’t mean you can disrespect us. Respect goes both ways, so if you are getting talked over by students or generally not listened to, you probably just need to show us the respect we deserve. Don’t get me wrong, the younger years are bloody annoying so it is ok to put them in their place, but for the older years, we are nearly adults and at this point we are sick of your shit. We aren’t all bloody chavs and literal idiots and we do respect you, but only if you give us the same back. I just find it rude that they think everything they do is right and we are just invisible because we don’t want to be here any more than you do. You chose to be here. You get paid to be here. And all we get is a busy schedule and mental health problems.

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The last point that I wanted to mention today was that we actually appreciate some motivational talks, but it just depends on what type of one it is. Now, if you give us the same bullshit as everyone else, like on the first day back when you give us a talk about how we are gonna do so well and that we are going to make this year so great… save your breathe because we have heard that 10 times in one day already. There are some teachers that genuinely are so nice with what they say and you can tell in their voice and the way they look that they do actually mean what they are saying and actually care. These talks are the best, and when said at the right times, can make our day. My English teacher did one today and it did make my day a bit better. It was still a shit day, but not as bad as it could have been. But listen close to this. If you are ever going to make a motivational speech, no matter when you say it, don’t ever diminish what we are going through. This isn’t even just because of corona. This is every time of the year, in any decade, in any month, never make our situation look easier than it seems. I don’t mean that you should just say “your life is shit, school is shit and it will never get better” because we need to know that someone actually has hope. What I mean is that you shouldn’t be like “but if you think about it, you are actually really lucky and your better off than other years because blah blah blah blah blah”. Turn that shit off because I don’t wanna hear it. This happened not long ago from another teacher and I was just looking at her as if she just was mental because who the fuck is she to tell us how we should feel. She literally could have said something like “keep your head up because I am going to get you guys through this and you will do great” but instead you really had to assume what we think and feel. I do not feel luckier than any other years and I most certainly don’t think I got it easier because this has fucking sucked so much and having you put words into our mouths is making this situation feel so much worse. You make us feel isolated or dramatic because we think nobody else feels this way. Try not to be too uplifting with things and think before you speak I guess.

If you are a teacher and you have made it this far, you are a real one. I know that you care and aren’t offended by what I said because it is the truth and you want to help improve your students lives. I really appreciate it if you are one of those teachers because you are going to change someone life. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT


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Weekly Reminder

I don’t know about you guys, but this week has been tough as shit for me. This whole week I have been waiting to post a weekly reminder because there is something I have want to say to you. It’s something that you probably haven’t heard this week, or this month, but I want to say this to you and I want you to understand that I genuinely mean it, ok? And despite the fact this post is public, it was made for you directly because I know you need it.

I am so proud of you. I admire you so much for being able to make it to this very moment. Despite the pain and the exhaustion you have felt, you have made it do far and although others may not recognise it, I am so proud and thankful that you have made it this far. A lot of times, whenever we ‘joke’ about making it to another day, people shrug it off as though as though living is a piece of cake, but I recognise that living each and every day is a chore for you and that I am so happy you keep going.

Although you may. Not recognise it, there are so many people that need you every day. There are people who you have helped just by being there and it is difficult to see how much you mean to people, but you have to trust that you mean so much to the world. No matter if you just stay in bed all day, you have accomplished so much by just being here. Now don’t take that as me saying it is fine for you to live that way because it is obvious you need help from a professional, but don’t down play the fact that you are so strong.

This was just a small weekly reminder, but if you are to only remember one thing today, make it this. You are so strong and you mean so much to this world. I am proud and inspired by you. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT


I Need Your Help

Hi, if you don’t know me, I am a straight white teenage girl with no disabilities and just a mental health problem. What does that mean? That means that the only discrimination I have faced is being a woman. Now, there has been problems with sexism at the moment, but over all I have got it pretty easy. But I want to use that to help others too. And the only way I really know how to do that would be to use this platform to get people to listen.

That is where my next problem comes into play. How am I supposed to help when I know very little about what you guys go through and what YOU want me to do. Because I could write a whole essay about equality, but it would do fuck all because I don’t know what you guys really want us to do. So please, no matter what it is that you go through, whether it is a disability, race, sexuality, anything, can you please comment below something that you guys want us, the people who are can use your privilege to help, to do in order to help you guys or just be aware of certain things. You can leave a story about a time where you were discriminated against and say what you would have wanted someone to do to help, or just state anything. If you are comfortable of course.

I’m going to admit, I know very little about what others go through but I want that to change. I mean I am a sympathetic person but I also feel stuck on what to do and sometimes I can be a bit ignorant. On TikTok there was this guy with a stutter and was talking about how saying “did I stutter” was insulting. And I had said these before and didn’t think anything from it. So please educate me and everyone else on the internet because although we will never know what you go through and how you feel, I want to be able to do the most I can to make you feel safer or more included in the world.

So I am sorry if I sound like your basic bitch trying to get clout or something. This is not a trend, this is a real life problem and I would appreciate it so much if you guys could help spread awareness. But yeah, that is pretty much it. Just know that you are perfect just the way you are. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT


Weekly Reminder

Hey guys, another week has gone by and for a lot of us, we may be going back to school next week. Well, I am anyways. I have a total of 18 exams in the next 5 weeks, all which goes towards my GCSEs (aka decides my future) so to say I am scared would be an understatement. Have I revised? No. Will I revise? I have no clue bitch. But I guess I just want to make this weekly reminder about the fact that, just because you are finding revision and school hard to get done, doesn’t mean you are lazy or dumb. Here’s what I mean

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For the past year we have been chucked left and right, up and down, with no support or recognition. Yes, the government say they “understand” us, but they fucking don’t. Yes I can hear that they seem sympathetic, but answer me this, what have they done about it? What teenager have they seriously talked to about how they have been affected? What have they solved? Well, for the UK, the answers are, they have brought all the exams forward with little understanding of what we are being tested on or help with the topics. They have asked no teenager about their feelings and have just went off of stereotypes like “the reason they are struggling is because they are on their phone all day” or “they just don’t like school and that is why they are failing, they need to grow up”. And to answer, what have they solved… I have no fucking clue. I guess they are trying to give us a fair shot on predicted grades. Oh wait, but they gave us no warning of tests, with little preparation while a lot of us are in an unhealthy mental state. Hmm, I guess they eventually got us all back into school. Oh, but we have been bombarded with work and stress and little time to breather or settle in. You see, the thing with our generation is that we don’t openly show our emotions, or at least not in a way other generations would understand. I don’t know about everyone else, but for me there is a bad stigma around struggling mentally and when we speak up about an issue, it is seen as “disrespectful”. Then when everything gets to much and a tragedy happens, they wonder why we didn’t speak up and so they have an assembly. Then the cycle starts again. We miss a homework, the teacher gets mad, we tell them it is because we are struggling, they ignore us, something bad happens, they never learn from their mistakes.

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You see, when you miss a homework, or when you don’t have the energy to revise, it is OK. And I don’t care what your mum, dad, carers, teachers, anyone, says because they have no fucking clue what is going on. Not the faintest fucking idea. And I have no clue what your situation is right now, but I know that there is something going on in your life. Whether it is just Corona or something else, you have something going on and I hear you. Don’t let anybody make you feel weak for the way you feel, or downplay the severity of your problems because it is not your fault and you need to know that. Shit happens, but for you, too much shit has happened. I am sure missing homework or failing exams is the least of your worries and that is just how these feelings are being expressed. Yet nearly every teacher is blind to that fact. They don’t see you thoughts, they don’t know your story, they don’t see the real you. So no matter how much they harass you, just understand this isn’t your fault and I am not gonna promise you it will get better soon because I don’t fucking know. I sure hope it does, but I can’t promise that. All I can say is that you aren’t alone. You have your whole class behind you, you have me behind you and no teacher can fully understand what you are feeling at the moment. Maybe you don’t even understand, that’s ok though. Life has been changing every single day since the beginning of 2020. News changes, families change, school changes, our routine changes. And just when we feel a bit settled in to one way of life, it is shifted. I know that for me, one of the many reasons I struggle with doing things such as homework or studying is because I feel as though it is going to change, as though I will start to revise and it will all be cancelled. As though I will have to go through all the mental pain of school and then all the mental pain of realizing it was all a waste. These past years have been filled with so much pain and we just don’t want that to continue any longer.

So, if you were to take one thing from this post, let it be the power to not let people make you believe that you are just lazy and that you are overreacting, but that you are confused and tired or the changes and pain. You are so strong and not doing homework doesn’t diminish that. Don’t let ANYBODY tear you down or make you feel less of yourself. Do you realise how much you have gone through to get to this moment? It is amazing how you have made it this far. Nobody knows your journey apart from you, so don’t let them write your future. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.


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Who Am I?

No I am not about to do a proper “face reveal”. I am talking about the fact that as a teenager we are expected to understand who we are and what we want to do for the rest of our lives, yet, the fact is, nobody has any fucking clue. And that’s ok

I always thought that I understood what I wanted to do. There was a guy I liked since primary school, I wanted to be a police woman and probably move to America or something. But, to describe it in 2 words, shit happens. The guys I liked emotionally destroyed me, I don’t know if I want to be restricted to working in one place, and, well, do I really need to say anything about America? No. The other thing is, that isn’t who I am. The job I get, the person I have a relationship, the place I live, isn’t who I am. I don’t think I ever have and I don’t know if I ever fully will.

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I am in my last year of GCSEs, so I am nearly 16. Not even 2 decades have I lived on this earth, yet I have made so many life changing decisions that I can’t go back and change. There are so many things that are shut off now because of what I had to choose, yet it could have been something that was perfect for me. And it is crazy because you let us make life changing decisions, but you don’t let us watch a scary movie in the cinema. My life is a horror movie in itself so I don’t think a movie will scar me. You let us make life changing decisions, but you don’t let us go to the toilet when we need to, we gotta ask the teacher. You let us make life changing decisions, but speak down to us like we are dirt. It really doesn’t make sense. How do I know that in 20 years I will still want to do the thing that 16 year old me wanted to do. So many things change and if I shut the door to things now then what if I need it in the future.

It is bloody scary because I do not want to end up in a job that I took just to pay the bills. I want to get a job that makes me excited to start the day, because I don’t know how I would survive anything else. I want a job that fits in my pocket. That I can take to the beach with me, on trips, on a boat, on my sofa in my dream home. I don’t want to wake up each morning thinking that I NEED to do work. I want to wake up and think I WANT to do work. So what can get me that? A degree? A but load of debt from Uni? All A*s on my report card? Well, that is what the school system has taught me, and sure, they teach us everything, right? Hell no. They want me to be a part of the system so why would they teach me to get out of it? Now, not all teacher’s are like this, but I know so many that suck the life out of you and pretty much desensitize you to life and convert you into a factory lifestyle. And yes, we do have the world at our finger tips. I can search up how to start a business, how to make money and get out of the ‘rat race’ but let me tell you something. It is fucking tiring and yes I know I have a blog on how to make money but that is just my way to try and make it easier for those my age. We get so much homework that we have no bloody time to think for ourselves, none at all. I am lucky enough to have learnt a bit but only because of lock down. I would have to say that it was a blessing because it was my time to actually crawl my way out of the system, and that has brought me to many difficulties along the way.

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I still don’t know who I am and I know that you don’t to. I guess I just wanted to tell everyone that if you are feeling the same way, it is totally ok. I know you are always told to just take the subjects you like and the choices you feel comfortable with and I do believe that to an extent, especially with subject choices. But since when did success come easy? Weren’t we told to take risks if we wanted to be successful. We are told so many things every day, every week, every year. And now we don’t know what or who to listen to. Don’t beat yourself up for feeling confused on how to move forward with your life. You may not know for a while, but you need to know that when you find that thing that you want to do, it will be so much easier to fight through the tough moments. Getting to the place you want to be will be so much easier, so don’t try to force your way into something that will make you feel horrible. I am sorry you haven’t got the support you need to discover who you are but it is ok and you aren’t alone. I could guess that a majority of adults don’t know who they truly are. We are still young though. Although we are expected to do a lot, we still have the time to travel and change. Don’t worry if you make a bad decision because if it is meant to be, you will get there eventually.

Our whole life is dedicated to discovering who we are and some people find out to late. My advice? Sacrifice the things people think you need to succeed, and do the things YOU know you need. They probably won’t believe in you but use it to drive you. Think of there face when you tell them ‘I now get payed for something I love, something I believe in, and all that worry and pain of getting there is so worth it”. I believe in you guys, OK? And I believe that everything is going to be ok, no matter who you are. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.


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Weekly Reminder + Appreciation Post

Hey guys, so I woke up this morning, obviously, and looked at my phone. And then I saw that I had 100 followers! I mean damn, that is literally 100x the amount of friends I have in real life. It sounds unbelievable for me to say that in under 3 months I got this many followers. This may seem like it isn’t that much but I am actually kind of proud of it. For every like and every follow I just feel happy that my content might have had some sort of impact on them. I have never really felt as though people liked listening to what I have to say but you guys all make me feel appreciated. Yes, I have never actually met you all but I feel like we are connected in some way because we might feel the same way in some aspects of life or we both have the same sense of humour.

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The first thing I want you guys to take from this is that you should just go for it. I am not sure what ‘it’ is for you, but if you have a dream that you want in life, just do it, because I always thought that I was so weird for some of the things I thought and that nobody would actually like it, yet here I am with 100 followers. Out of all the billions of people in the world, somebody will see what you do and appreciate it. They will look at your profile and think, this is pretty cool, they really are motivational. I am not saying that that is what you think of me, I am just saying that you might do something that gets that reaction. And I know this kind of all seems over the top. I mean I am giving inspiration to others even though I only have 100 followers, but to me I appreciate every single one. So if you think that what you want to do will be hated on or will never go somewhere, how do you know that is true? Have you tried yet? Did you get even one person because that is an achievement in itself. Even if it takes a long time, that feeling you get when someone interacts is so amazing and so worth it. You just gotta wait.

So the second, and last thing, I wanted to say is that I appreciate every single one of you. Every time I see one like, one view, one comment, one follow, I get so excited. And I just wanted to let everyone here know that I appreciate you. You may think I am lying because I have never actually met you guys, but for every single person that comes on here, I feel motivated to keep going, and if you weren’t here right now, I wouldn’t get that and, who knows, I may have given up already. Life is tough as crap at the moment and talking about it here, on this platform, makes everything just that little bit better, but having people that actually listen and feel the same has made such a big difference and I want to say thank you. Thank you so much for being here.

Anyways, thank you for reading this and again I just want to say thank you so much for 100 followers. Every single one of you mean so much to me. You really have no clue what it means. But yeah like and follow if you want to read more content like this. For the newbies, go check out my other posts because not all of them are like this. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.


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Weekly Reminder

Hi guys! You made it through the week! I am so proud of you. That week was a bloody roller coaster with all the things about the royalty and the world in general. If you live in the UK you will know that Piers Morgan has left ‘Good Morning Britain’. To add to the good news we also have less corona deaths which is a great thing. So yeah, I am so proud of everyone for actually making it to this post. Thank you for being here.

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So what I thought would be a good weekly reminder for this week is to make sure everyone knows that they deserve happiness. Yup, this is something that a lot of people find really hard to accept, me included. And I am not gonna go give you ‘Ten Top Tips To Love Yourself’ because, firstly, the advice is utter crap, they literally say to get a bath and get over it. Secondly, I am no professional, so if I was to go out here and give advice, it would end very badly.

In my experience, I always questioned ‘why do I deserve to be happy while there are people out there who are doing so much worse than be’. I felt as though I was being selfish and stealing the happiness from others, when the truth is I just have the opportunity for help and so will they someday. No matter what happens in life, there is always somebody worse than you, and that may be really unhelpful to say, but what I mean is that, if you feel this way, there is never going to be a point where you say ‘I deserve to get help’. Do you get me? You need to ask yourself ‘when will I be worse enough to deserve help?’. Usually that answer is something really bad, but you need to use that to your advantage and think ‘if I am thinking about getting to that situation, then I need to get help right now before I go there’. No matter what happens in your life, whether you get overwhelmed by the smallest thing or you going through a really really tough time, you deserve help’. Everybody has different threshold for what they can cope with, and if you find it hard to cope with even the smallest thing, that isn’t something that should be ignored. The thing is, you don’t live their life, and they don’t live yours. So no matter what, if you are finding it hard to live in your situation, that is reason enough to get help. Now I do understand that is easier to say than to do but just read this when you need a reminder because it is true and it is important.

No matter what anyone else is going through, if you are struggling AT ALL, you deserve to get help. Ok? Please remember that.

Thank you so much for reading. I hope you liked this post and it benefited you in some way. You all matter to me and I am so happy that you made it through the week. I am very proud. Please like and follow if you liked this content and wanna read more. Hope you have a great day, stay safe, and stay yourself PERIODT


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For Who?

I wrote those two words on a post-it note yesterday. It’s simple, but out of context it probably seems a bit strange. But what does it mean for me?


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Let’s bring this back a wee bit. So I am trying affiliate marketing and I am learning how through ‘Legendary Marketer’. I won’t go into too much detail about them but that is just a wee bit of information. I purchased their 15-day challenge and I am on day 5 now. I still have the motivation to do it, despite the fact I had to let down their blueprint offer due to financial issues. I asked my mum for a bit of financial support and of course she was skeptical and was unsure if I should purchase it. I am completely fine with that too because it was a large sum of money despite the discount. My confidence took a little bit of a dip though. She looked up some other peoples opinions and they said that it takes a lot of time and hard work. I knew that though. But I don’t know if I was tired, or what, but I just kind of thought ‘maybe I am overreacting about this opportunity? I should just quit now and pursue a normal career like everyone else’.

So what did I do? I went upstairs and sat for a bit. A bit depressed at the thought that I might just have to work a 9 to 5 job. I literally thought to myself, ‘I will not be able to carry on this life if I need to go to University and then work a boring job with financial stress and all that shit’. After I thought about that for I while I finally said ‘if I don’t want to live life as expected, then I won’t. I am going to keep going and if I fail, then we will go from their’ and I was later thinking about what could help me to sustain this motivation. The answer may be different for everyone else, but, for me, as you probably could tell from the title, I came to the conclusion that I am not just doing this for me. No, because that would be too risky, I would only disappoint myself if I quit. So I have the question ‘for who?’ written in my room to remind me of the main reason I want to become financially successful because I can’t fail for them. I need to be successful for them, my family. This probably looks as though I am seeking attention, but I am just showing you what I find motivates me to keep going so that you guys can be inspired to change.

For teenagers especially, I feel as though we are underestimated because ‘we aren’t smart enough’ or ‘not as well informed’ but yet we are the generation that grew up with technology. Of course I don’t know everything, it is impossible, and yes I could get scammed but I don’t look at the ad that says ‘get 10 iPhone 12s just by putting in your email’. I mean I know a scam when I see one. It can be harder for teenagers to focus on one goal as well because we fell as though, no matter what happens, we have a plan B, a safety net. This can be great and I am glad to have one, but it means that I won’t try as hard to make everything work because, if it doesn’t, I will just move on. I still have school, a social life, a family, a roof over my head. If you do, however, only focus on that one thing and don’t have any Plan B, I am impressed and you are on the right track but we all get scared of being judged. I don’t know how to describe Affiliate Marketing to anyone because I am still quite new but that means that they feel as though I just want to get rich quick. That isn’t it though, I want to learn the skills that will make me financially stable in the future. I feel as though, if I told someone that I am really committed to this and I feel as though this will be what makes me financially free, they won’t believe me or trust me. What I have to remember though is that they didn’t grow up with the access to all this and so of course they won’t trust it. I just have to trust my gut feeling and work harder to prove my point that teenage girls can still accomplish this. To show the world that I am not settling for anything less than my dream. That I will make it.

Thank you so much for reading. Please like, follow and donate some money if you can so I can keep all of my content free for everyone. I really hope this inspires you to look for your reason. Why are you doing what you are doing? What do you want out of it? I hope you have a great day, stay safe, and stay yourself PERIODT.


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Weekly Reminder


I was watching a video today which has the author of ‘rich dad, poor dad’, Robert Kiyosaki, and he mentioned something that kind of shocked me. He was talking about his dad who had a PhD and was really successful in college, and then continued on with the topic of the video, which was the different mindsets of different people. But the thing was, as the video went on he finally said something along the lines of ‘and my poor dad, the one who got his PhD and continued his career in university’. This made me stop for a second. When I first heard about the dad who had a PhD, I thought that he was the rich one. My mind just linked the book smarts with success.

It makes me think, you know, about how we have been programmed to think in a certain way. From the start of our life we have been told that to become rich and successful, we need to do well in school. But what Kiyosaki also mentioned in his video, was that the school system don’t want you to know about money or how to make it. He said that his PhD dad told him that the government gave them orders on what to teach and what not to teach. They want to make us into employees, not bosses. Now I am not gonna go into a whole tangent about schools but what I am going to say is that, school doesn’t teach you everything you need to know. You probably already knew that though. I mean what student can look you in the eye and say, I know how to pay taxes, I know how to pay the bills, I know how to invest in stocks. I can guarantee you that only a very very small percentage can say that.

I don’t want anyone to get confused here though. I am not saying that his ‘poor dad’ is unsuccessful, because there is no definite definition of success. Maybe his dads calling was to learn a lot about a certain topic and pass it on to other generations. Maybe where he ended was his success. Money isn’t the deciding figure for everyone’s success. I mean maybe it is for you. I sure as hell no that it is part of the success for me, and that can be a controversial thing to say because people always argue that ‘money can’t buy you happiness’. Do you know what? You’re true. It can’t buy me happiness, but it can sure as hell buy me experiences which will make me happy. Money, for me, has a huge impact on what I view as success. I want to be able to live my life as I want it, while helping other on the way. I want my parents to be able to not have to work for the rest of their lives. My view of success for my future is financial freedom. You can say I am materialistic. You can say I am selfish. But I am not. Everyone has been corrupted in their views of billionaires and millionaires and so have I because you feel as though they are selfish and don’t give any money for any good. I am with you on that, I am completely with you on that. They do need to give more. But having lots of money doesn’t mean they are bad people, it just means that they have worked hard.

Over all, I just want to get across that you can’t morph your future into the expectations of other. We don’t all think the same and you shouldn’t think that doing well in school is the only option for success because, as Robert Kiyosaki showed, even a knowledgeable man was living paycheck to paycheck. You kind of just got to focus on what you can achieve and go for it. If you are interested in reading his book ‘rich dad, poor dad’ then click here and you can get one. I just ordered it too but I haven’t got it yet but I am so excited to start reading it.

Thank you so much for reading and I hope this inspired you even a little bit. If it did, please like, follow and donate some money if you can because I want to keep all of my content free for everyone. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.


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Weekly Reminder

You know when you get that inspiration out of nowhere where you feel like your future is going to be different to everyone else. I mean, when you think about the 9 to 5 job that you grew up to believe was the better option, the safe option that gets you a family, a nice house, and in the end a decent pension, you begin to realise that it isn’t what you want. You get this moment of luxury where you think ‘wow. I could actually do this’. ‘This’ as in a well payed job where you do your own times, you get payed well, you can travel, you can live. A career which isn’t actually a ‘job’ but something you want to do. Where Mondays aren’t a burden. Where I want the weeks to go slower. Where I don’t count down the days until the holidays, but instead I can just go. Live my live the way it was meant to. Because I mean, after all, we only live once, so why not just go and do it. But then, that aftershock hits you down. Those thoughts creep back in. The thoughts that told you your whole life that you need a safe job. You need a man to work while you look after the kids and clean up. The world where you will wake up with a frown on your face just at the thought of doing work.

I mean it literally kills me when I hear my parents talk about their jobs in a way that makes it seem like they hate every second of it. I feel so bad that they can’t really get up and start a new career because I mean they are at a point in their lives where they have three teenagers who need food, who need a home, who need so much material items and emotional support. My mum or dad can’t just decide to take a risk because they know that those risks don’t only affect themselves. And I think that is what keeps me motivated. I don’t mean it as in ‘oh I don’t want to turn out like my parents’, because if I became half the woman my mum is today I would be so lucky. What I mean is that I want to start now where I am at the age where I can start something risky and the affects wouldn’t be as bad if it where to fail. My dream would be that in a few years, when I have done this and other things in the future, I would be able to go into my home, sit my parents down and tell them, ‘Mum, Dad. You never have to work another day in your lives.’. If I could pay them back in that sort of way, I wouldn’t even have returned half of what they have done for me, but I could give them the freedom they deserve. That is all I really want and I know you have probably heard this so many times but this is true. I really hope that money never becomes a problem for me and that I can provide for current family and, hopefully, my family in the future.

I guess that what I wanted to get across is that you will always get a moment where you can’t find the motivation what so ever. You will feel stranded and lost. You will feel as though it isn’t even worth it and that you could be relaxing now and work later. But what if you worked now and relaxed later. When that relaxation period is 10 times longer and 10 times larger. You just need to think to yourself about what the real reason you want to achieve that success is. Write it down if you like. But in that moment when your motivation is at its highest or when you realise why you want to do this, make sure you remember that. So many people will tell you that you can’t achieve your dream. People you know, people you don’t know. Everyone. They may laugh in your face or judge you or bully you but you need to keep going for yourself and for your future. This is going to be hard and there will be times where you want to quite and that is just part of the process but you just need too try and get back from that because if you do, and trust me on this, great things will come. You need to remember that they wont be laughing any more when you come out on the top with all you ever wanted, while they are at the bottom, scuttling to get where you are now. You don’t need to be mean to them. Just make them jealous. Show them how you are so much more resilient and successful. Just don’t give up PERIODT.


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!Schools Closed Until 8th Of March!

No this is not a joke. Schools in the UK are closed. But what do we do now. How will we cope through this seemingly never ending third lock down.


To be honest, I have no clue. I mean it only clicked with me today how long away March is. I mean it is still January. Boris didn’t even promise that we would be back before Easter so I mean I don’t know what I should mentally prepare myself for. Although it sounds good out of context, ‘school shut until March’, we still have to do school from home and at this point I am like ‘well if I’m still doing school work I might as well be in school and seeing my friends.’. I am pretty sure I already made a post about lock down and what it has kind of done for teens and how we are so confused now. I mean yes there are vaccines going out, in fact my grandparents just got them today, but for some reason it still doesn’t feel like the end. Even when everyone gets the vaccine, I just can’t get it into my head that it will be over. I feel like that is only one step in a whole pile of them. It is going to be weird though, going back to school and normal life. It is weird to think that one day everything will be as it was before. No masks, no distancing, no google classroom (I hope). It will kind of be like we just got woken up after a really intense nightmare. One day we will be going on with life and then just stop when we get a wave of memory and we’ll be like ‘damn we used to have to put on a mask everyday.’. It definitely will take some time to not instantly reach for a hand sanitizer or to not go onto the road to distance from someone.

Why is this turning into a story time. Anyways. This is going to be really tough. For EVERYONE, this will be tough. But as a community we need to stick together. I know this probably sounds like the 10th motivational assembly you had in school but take it from me, a 15 year old, and not an old man with a ‘relatable’ power point behind him. People are going to deal with this in so many different ways. Maybe you will start an online business. Maybe you will start to paint. Maybe, you will create the next great dish that will change the world of food as we know it today. There was a phase in the second quarantine, which was utter crap because schools were still open’, where I had convinced myself I had just become great at art. I don’t know why but I just had the feeling. I don’t really know where I am going with this story but yeah. I think that the third times a charm so hey, something great might happen really soon that could change your life. Do something you usually wouldn’t do because you are scared of being judged because guess what? You aren’t gonna be going out and seeing those people anytime soon. Die your hair, cut your hair, try new make up, new clothes. If your bank account is up for it anyways.

What we all kind of forget whenever we get more bad news is that it isn’t always going to be this crap all the time. I mean 100 years ago they had a pandemic and they were able to recover from it, even though they didn’t have all the resources we have today. There are so many excellent and smart people out there who are trying their best to make the world better again for you, for me, for all of us. It will be hard to believe that, I know. I mean last year I was like damn I can’t wait for this to be over in a few months and go on holiday next year. Well, look at me now. As pale as the snow and with literal back issues from sitting all day. But just remember that some day in the future you will be smiling with a passport in hand, the warm sun on your face, and the feeling of possibility. New Zealand have done it already. I mean they got through it so well and although we are just taking a bit longer 😦 we will still get their. You will see your friends, you will see another day, and you will see a life without masks.

What I would love though is if everyone could comment down below something you have started that got you through lock down or something they plan to do to get you through this one. I think it would be a great reminder of how we are all going through this. It is a global pandemic and I know that nobody will be going through the exact same thing as you, but you aren’t alone. I promise. We will get through this. Subscribe to my blog and we can do this together. I try to upload everyday and please comment below if there is something you want mentioned and I will make sure to include all of them in my future posts. Lets just take this one step at a time. This pandemic ain’t gonna get the best of us.


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I Have A Message For Everyone

Hello, I am the write of the blog ‘periodt’ and I am really thankful for this platform because I can talk about things that I struggle with and that a lot of people can relate to. But today I didn’t want to talk about more of what I go through, although there will be more in the future. Today I wanted to do an appreciation post for everyone. My followers, new arrivals, everyone. So enjoy.

I just want to say that if you are here right now, I am proud of you. I know that everyone reading this has gone through at least one hard time in their life. You may be going through it right now. But no matter how big or small that event was, you are here and you have done so well to still be here today. You can make it. I am not going to say it is all up hill from here because I really don’t know, but hey, you are so strong and so appreciated. If you have made it this far you can make it the rest of the way. And I know you may feel like giving up, you may feel like you have no energy left to keep going but please, if not for yourself, do it for me. I need you here, we all need you here and if you leave then the whole world is going to be missing a you. You may not see it now but in the future you are going to impact the world in some way. Please just hold on for a little longer. One day you are going to realize you aren’t alone and your story will help so many other people who may be going through something similar.

I also wanted to speak directly to people who identify as a man at any point in their life. Your feelings are valid. You having emotions is OK. You showing emotions is OK. You wanting to wear something more ‘feminine’ is OK. You being vulnerable is OK. Everything you do is OK. I am not a man but I know that you can feel as though you can’t cry, or be yourself, or do something you want to do but can’t because you are a man. If you identify as a man and you do something that is stereo-typically ‘feminine’ you are no less of a man. There are so many men who take their own lives because of what society has told them and I am so sorry about that. So many men are sexualized and abused and we just don’t hear about that because society says that men would want that anyways or they can’t be abused. That is so incorrect. You may have been taught that ‘men don’t cry’ or so many other things and I am so sorry about that. The things that you go through are not any less valid because you are a man. I can’t put into words all of the things that I want to say but just be you. Do whatever it is you want to do and be confident doing it because you are who you are and if anyone doesn’t like that then they don’t deserve to have you in their lives. Speak up about how you feel, don’t be afraid to report abuse, and take up as much space as you want because this is your life and we are just living in it.

So now I am going to talk generally about everyone else. Also I would like to add that if I have upset anyone in terms of gender, I am so sorry and please comment down below what you would like me to say or not say in the future because I want to make everyone feel included. Don’t be scared to say I did something wrong because I really want to learn about all of this and I am sorry for my ignorance. But anyways, lets move on. I want everyone to know that the world really is a cruel place but we need to stick together. As a generation we have gone through so much that nobody else can understand. There are so many ignorant people out there who still believe in the old views. They may still think there are only 2 genders and that being gay is wrong. I can’t speak about this personally because I am a straight girl who has caring parents but there are so many stories and videos of all the hardships you have to face and I am so sorry. You have no reason to apologize for being who you are because you didn’t have a choice. This is who you are and everyone needs to respect that. It isn’t like this is a whole new thing either. People didn’t evolve into being gay or something. Homosexuals and transgender people etc. have been around for ages it is just that bad people out there have shamed them into someone they aren’t and this generation are just the ones to start retaliating against this. You are being yourself for you, your ancestors and for the future. By standing up to idiots who think they know what is right or wrong, you are making a step into better future and I thank you for that. I am sure it is really scary what are doing because there are so many idiots but please don’t give up because you are doing great things. Never apologize for who you are. You are absolutely perfect and they are just jealous PERIODT.

Mental health wise also, no matter who you are out there, your thoughts are valid. They may not be good thoughts but it is OK to feel how you feel. You may not be fortunate enough to get free help but there are people out there you can talk to. And nobody here can say they don’t because I am here. Yes, please talk to me. I am not a professional but I am here to show you that you aren’t alone until you can get some professional help. If you are going through abuse, crime, anything, please know that you are OK and that I am here for you. You aren’t alone, this isn’t your fault, don’t feel guilty for anything you feel and I am proud of you.

Thank you all for reading this and I am looking forward to answering any comments or emails you guys send me. I appreciate you all and stay strong because the world needs a you PERIODT.

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Society Is Preventing Your True Potential – Beware The Trap

It’s weird how our view on work changes throughout our life. As a child we are told that we can be anything we want to be. This motivation was drilled into our mind from day one but then slowly over the years our dreams sound so… unachievable. And I mean why wouldn’t we think like that? Our parents and schools condition us to believe that we need to get great grades, go to university and get a 9 to 5 office job if we want to succeed. And if you ever have a dream, you better hold on tight to it because they will knock that down until there is not even a spec of hope.

It is sad how, when people ask you what you want to be when you are older, we all have a safe answer. We know that if we tell them the truth, they will laugh in our faces and make that wish feel like more of a dream and less of a reality. For me, my ‘dream’ job would be an actress. Not just because of the fame and money, but because I really like to act and I think that if I got a chance I could go far. And then with that position I can use my voice for good. Like with Emma Watson talking about feminism, and Leonardo DiCaprio talking about global warming. So what I would love about acting is that I could fulfill my passion for acting and then eventually my passion for making the world a better place. But have I told anyone that? No. I live in Northern Ireland which makes that dream seem so much more unachievable because there aren’t many opportunities. So now what I have to do with this dream is to keep it hidden because I mean I am just being to ambitious. There is no way that could happen to me. I am not that special. What I also don’t want to do is give them the satisfaction of being right when I don’t have the success that I wanted.

So what do I tell everyone then? Well, I tell them I want to be a police woman. And while that is true, it is also my safety job. This is my job that I know I can achieve and that will be respectable. I know it will give me the money I need for a home, food and security. What I also know is that, as a woman, I can find someone who I will love and will be my husband, hopefully. Because what we are grown up to believe is that, to be successful you need to get a safe job and be married. And I know how messed up that sounds but it is true. We learn that marriage is a safety belt, instead of learning that it is a bonus. We don’t need to be married and have kids. Unless you find somebody you truly love and you feel the time is right to have kids, then don’t get married. This is your life and you shouldn’t have to live it for someone else. But yeah, I mean I would love to be a police woman somewhere in the world because I want to make a difference. I want to be a part of the new definition of ‘police’ because right now, most police officers are racist, power driven people. Lately I have questioned whether or not I should be a police woman because I don’t want to be associated with racist murderers, and I am still trying to get my head around it, but I want to become a police woman in the aim to outnumber the racists and to provide a better role model for young children who can be heavily influenced by this prejudice.

It is weird also, the term ‘a successful job’. I mean what is it really? A doctor? A lawyer? A politician? I don’t think I have ever seen their name with the label ‘successful job’ written on it. A ‘successful job’ is just like saying a ‘normal human’. There is no normal human because we are all completely different. Really a successful job is not what your parents or society define it as. It is whatever is your passion and whatever you love doing. Say somebody who really loved writing books and poems. Their successful job is a writer, a poet. Not a lawyer or a office manager. And it is so easy to get sucked into these ideas because we see and hear them everyday. In school, on Instagram, our parents. So why wouldn’t you listen to them. These are the people who have raised us. People we have been with our entire life. That we trust. One of my favorite phrases was said by Prince EA. He said,

The graveyard is the richest place on earth, because it is here that you will find all the hopes and dreams that were never fulfilled

Prince EA

And I don’t know why but it really hits hard. Probably because it is true. All the time you hear people getting knocked down for following their dream, and now you are scared for that to happen to you. You may think that it is too risky, or you aren’t good enough, but have you tried yet. How do you know those questions are true if you haven’t tried? Society have drilled these questions into your head and that is the thing holding you back. If you can push through that fear of failure or criticism then you are on the path to success, wherever that may be.

My last point that I will mention today is that work should not be the reason you are on this planet. It is sad to see how some people’s lives are just, grow up, go to school, get a job, retire, die. It pains me. Because then you are working your whole life for your future, but what is your future? I mean when you will retire it means you will have a roof over your head but you can’t do all the exiting things you wanted to do in the present. If you work all day, everyday, then all the money you are planning to have will be wasted. It will be safe in the bank, but what is the point. You will have no memories, you will have no stories. Nobody’s purpose in life is to sit at a desk all day and type in a bunch of 1 and 0. No ones. And right now, if you think it is your life, it is not and you just need to take the risk, have fun. Be rich in memories. Instead of graduating university and feeling down because ‘the best years’ of your life are over, make that the ‘beginning of the best years’ of your life. Get a job you enjoy, do what you enjoy and face any problems that come your way because the world keeps spinning and there are people who will support you and love you.

Thank you so much for reading this blog and I hope it helped you to open your eyes about the lies we are told throughout are life. Do what makes you happy and ignore those who don’t agree, they just jealous PERIODT.

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