You guys have to agree with me when I say that a lot of things we do nowadays is heavily judged. Like there are a lot of things that people aren’t willing to admit they do because people will laugh at them and call them a basic bitch or a pick me type of person. Don’t get me wrong, there are a few things that mean that you are definitely that type of person but like some things are a bit of a stretch. So yeah, I guess I will expose myself today and show you some of the things that make me “that bitch”.
Being a blonde teenage girl, I feel like I am already set up to get judged 10 times more than others because you know, I look like the dumb blonde whose only personality trait is sipping iced coffee obnoxiously loud in class. But like I do love myself a wee iced coffee. It doesn’t have to be Starbucks I guess but Starbucks is the place you usually get judged for going to. Especially on holidays when you are literally sweating your ass off and you step into the cafe with a gust of cool air hitting you and the sound of the coffee machine. It is literally so good. I don’t know why but I love the sound of the coffee machines in cafes. So you can call me a basic bitch for liking a cheeky wee Starbucks iced coffee on a nice warm day because I won’t stop for nobody PERIODT
We are kinda focusing on the drinks today aren’t we but they are important ones to mention I think. I love water. I don’t know why but like water really hits different. When you are absolutely parched, you don’t reach for a bloody coke no matter what the ads show. You go for a freaking water and that shit is amazing. Like even at a restaurant, I might be that girl who orders water. That is partially because I am broke but like I do enjoy water. But then the one time that I do get a fizzy drink or something, there will be that one adult who is like “oooh, teens and their cokes these days, can’t get them off it”. And you just stare at them like “this isn’t fucking cocaine, like I haven’t had one in ages. I don’t have a bloody mini fridge of things like other teens do”. So yeah, I guess I’m just quirky lol. Forget I ever said that last part that was a joke lol. But despite the fact people think it is boring to like drinking water and every time you get it instead of a monster energy drink you are literally shunned from the friend group. And you know what, I am not taking it any longer. You all know that water is the best.
This one is kind of a different one because I don’t really think that a lot of people my age will relate to this but I actually like doing the dishes. It is just like so relaxing when you are doing something while just watching something on your phone and it is nice to see the pile of dirty dishes go down and then you put stuff away and it is very visually gratifying. I always like to see the results happen you know. And I bet that some guy is gonna be in the comments like “well it’s in a woman’s nature” and to that I say shut the fuck up and I am only one woman and I know that probably a majority of us don’t like it but we aren’t gonna get all political here sorry about that. But the one thing that I hate about doing dishes is when people keep putting dirty dishes in the pile and I’m like where was the fucking need. I mean since when did you have a whole fucking IKEA in your bedroom? I also hate afterwards when you have to clean the drain and there are pieces of disgusting food at the bottom. Literally the bane of my existence. I think that one of the worst punishments would be being in a bath and there are bits like those in it and so you can feel it all over. That would be hell
I know this one is about to get controversial but I swear that one day Ed Sheeran was just completely cancelled and I really have no clue why. Like I see so many things saying that people who still listen to Ed Sheeran are weirdos or they wouldn’t be caught dead listening to him but like some of his music is good. I mean would I be a crazy fan girl and buy his hair on eBay? No. But do I listen to some of the absolute classics? Hell yeah. Someone please explain what he did because I don’t know why I am supposed to be embarrassed for listening to him. He is a good singer too so that can’t be it. I swear to god, if it is because he is ginger!! Literally that would be so hilarious but like it’s 2021 guys, we gotta start getting over that ok.
I Don’t Cry at Movies
This one might seem normal at first. Like there are people who just don’t cry at some things and that’s fine, right? Well, what if I told you I didn’t tear up at “The Notebook”, “The Boy In The Stripped Pajamas” or “Marley and Me” but I did cry at “Moana”, “Inside Out” and “Little Women”. Yup, kinda a weird mix. And you know the 3 that I just said I cried at, those are the ONLY movies I have ever cried at. Well, excluding the time I probably cried at bob the builder because I was forced to watch it over and over as a baby. Bob the builder is such a show though you have to admit. But no, everyone says I have a heart of stone because while they are over there buried in tissues, I’m in the corner making fun of them. You do have to admit though, whenever Moana’s grandma dies it is so fucking sad and then when she comes back as a fucking fish and starts singing. Moana could have sailed in my tears bitch.
Anyways, I think that is all that I will mention for today. Don’t forget to leave a comment if you relate to any of these things or if you do things that others may judge you about. We probably all do it so like don’t even be worrying and even if we don’t, there is no judgment here. But yeah, like, follow and comment if you enjoyed this content and, if you can, feel free to donate some money in the box down below to help the blog keep going. Anything is appreciated. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
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We love a good self-deprecating post. It is kinda fun though because it is easy and I can say anything I want about myself and I won’t offend anyone, unless you are literally the exact same as me. Multiverse?! But yeah, some of these things are kinda basic but, being a person with a typical low self esteem, I feel a lot of things make me feel stupid. I’ll only list a few things today though so I don’t make myself look like an actual idiot. This is just for the lols as well guys so don’t get too offended or like anything like that.
This one doesn’t make me feel so much as stupid as it does untalented. Like I really have 0 talents and it shines through in paint by numbers. My mum got me one and it is really fun and I enjoy it like, but I don’t know if my hands are too shaky but I can not keep it neat and I can’t keep it even either, like you can tell there is more paint in some parts. I can also tell that art is not my strong point because I just can’t figure out how much paint I need for a certain bit and I end up getting none on my brush for a big section and then literally the whole wee tub for a tiny section. You do have to admit though it can be quite hard when you have the little bits and, me already being quite blind, has to go right up to the picture as though I am freaking lying down or some shit. Do you guys get that in school where you like realise that when you are writing your face gets so close to the table and you are like when the fuck did that happen. I always find that and get super embarrassed because there really is no need for me to do that.
Another thing about paint-by-numbers that I know every fucking one of you understands is how hard it is to open the lids of the paint. Like they are so tiny and literally hurt and you are scared it is just going to go flying everywhere when you do. I am better than a few years ago I must say but like some are so hard and I really do feel defeated by a piece of plastic. It defo fits into the same category as that other packaging that knives or scissors are in and can only be cut with knives and scissors so you are screwed because the thing you need to open it is the thing that you are trying to get out. As you can tell, this is quite a passionate topic for me
This happened like literally 10 times yesterday and I know a lot of you guys, if not everyone, will feel the same way. There are a few things withing this category that I want to mention, the first being that you can’t understand what the person is saying and you ask them again and again and eventually just go off their cues. Like I had asked my friend to repeat herself twice already and then I saw she smiled so I was like “aha oh really” and like nodded my head and smiled. She could have been saying absolutely anything and I would have no clue. Then you just awkwardly stop talking because you don’t know what to say after and you spend the rest of the day trying to figure out what they say. And sometime when this happens and you think they said something but you are like what does that mean so you say what you think they said out loud and they are like what the fuck that isn’t what I said lol and then when you hear yourself say it you realise you are so dumb and it was so obvious. Like say my friend was talking about cinema’s or whatever and I was like “who’s cinema” and then I would be like that was so stupid. That was actually the worst example I could have used lol but we move.
Another thing that makes me feel stupid is when you are having a conversation and you either can’t pay attention to what they are saying for some reason or you can’t keep track of it and despite the fact you were listening, you don’t know where that part of the convo came in. It is so hard though whenever you can’t pay attention to someone who is talking but you want to and then you are thinking too much about trying to listen that you can’t actually remember what they just said but now they are asking you a question that gives no indication of what we were talking about like “what do you think” and you just panic. That literally happened to me at my job interview and I nearly shit myself. And then when you get into the position of not understanding when that part of the convo went in and you have to ask so many questions that they probably just explained like “so what was that cat? Whose was it? When and where did you find it?” And you realise you just asked the whole fucking backstory that doesn’t even matter and then sometimes you still don’t know what they are on about
When I say drinking, I don’t mean like alcohol or whatever, I just mean the action of drinking. I just can never seem to understand basic physics in the moment I am drinking from a bottle. The number of times I drank too much and had to literally drown for a second so I didn’t spit anything out is actually ridiculous. It happened so much on online school too because my camera was off, luckily, and I was bored as fuck so I would just be looking into space and the only thing I could do was drink more water and then I just didn’t grasp that if I picked up the bottle quickly and brought it to my mouth then a wave of water would happen and end up going all over me. It was so humiliating despite the fact I was the only one in the room. Do you think that someone has actually died from swallowing too much water and literally not being able to breathe. It hurts to doesn’t it. And I always seem to miss my mouth when drinking out of a glass and I am like “hmm why is there water going down my top” and then I’m like oh cause I’m an idiot. What I also hate is when you just took a drink of water and someone makes a joke and you have to literally fight for your life to not spit it out everywhere. You literally look like a puffer fish and it is not ideal.
“Child Geniuses” The TV Show
This is one of the examples where it makes me feel dumb but I am glad I’m not one of them. Like I genuinely feel bad for those kids because they defo have no friends or spend time doing normal stuff and they will become depressed and like become a hippy. That is true though. I mean great if you child is smart but like why put them in a competition that, if they doesn’t win, will make them think they are dumb but they really just aren’t. And some of the things they have to do aren’t even good for life. Even some school subjects are more useful than what they do. They have to fucking learn the order of a deck of cards and like all of the streets in London which is literally one of the hardest tests and adults struggle to do it. And the spelling bee… don’t get me started. I had to use auto-correct to spell geniuses. That is no joke. The spelling bee is better though but literally makes me feel dumb as fuck. It also cracks me up though. They are so proud of themselves and literally spell the most fucked up words. Iridocyclitis
Anyways, I hope you enjoyed this post and if you did don’t forget to like, follow and comment what else makes you feel stupid and see if anyone else can relate. But yeah, I’m going to go a do things that make me feel a bit smarter than usual like watching Dora the explora. I can always find the things before she does, lazy bitch. But yeah, I’ll see you tomorrow for even more. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
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I feel like a common theme with my content and the titles is that they all seem like I am about to go into some political talk as though I am about to rant about taxes or other Karen shit, but like it really isn’t, so I don’t know if I attract the wrong audience with it. I can imagine a bunch of middle aged women getting their hair pumped up at the back, like the typical Karen’s do, and getting ready to take notes on the topic so they too can complain about public transport or some shit. And if that does happen to be you, you are gonna be disappointed because it is just my opinion and for a bit of a laugh. I do honestly think public transport is great because of global warming and all that, but like that is the most political thing I am gonna be saying in this post so like I’m sorry to disappoint I suppose lol. I’m gonna go through each form 1 by 1 just because… well I don’t know why but I just am and I don’t know why I am telling you but lets just roll with it.
In all honesty, I love a good train. I think it is my favorite form because it is more relaxed kind of but still not very relaxed. I don’t know why though but they stress the shit out of me and I actually do know why so let me explain. I hope I don’t sound insane, but I also feel the same way about roller coasters which is that I kinda forget that a human controls them and they aren’t just on a time limit. And what I mean by that is that when I go on a roller coaster I get really stressed that the people aren’t going to get to me quick enough so they won’t be able to check my harness, when in reality, they control it and only start it when everyone is on. It isn’t like they have to get it all done in 5 minutes and if somebody isn’t strapped in right then that’s too bad. I feel the same way about the train too, so I feel that if the people getting in first take too long, they will just shut the doors and leave but like people control it so they wouldn’t do that unless they were like bunged up. So that is kinda stressful I suppose.
These are good though because they are quick and usually not too disgusting and they are quick too. Kinda nice vibes as well ad make you feel kinda grown up but like I wouldn’t be wanting to go on at night because, as a woman, I don’t think that would end well for me but like oh well. I think I made another post not long ago talking about how the train conductors are also really scary usually and act as though they have been pissed off since the day they were born, but like you just ignore them I guess and you are fine. Sometimes you can get lucky where they don’t get to you in time so you don’t have to pay and that is an added bonus like. Another thing I also get stressed about is getting onto the train and also just the train platform. I remember the first time I went on the train alone and my mum was waiting at the platform until the train left and she was in front of the yellow line and I was so panicked even when the train wasn’t moving. I was acting as though she was about to get sucked under the train just because she was close to it. I still kinda get scared of that. And when you get onto the train and have to walk over the gap to get in, I always feel as though, somehow, my phone or whatever I am holding, is going to fall in and then I will never get it back. I don’t always feel like I will fall in, but like I have to hold onto everything for dear life because I think it is somehow going to propel itself under the train. How embarrassing would that be if I did though. I always feel like I left something on the train too even when I literally didn’t bring anything onto it lol.
This is hands down my least favourite public transport. Like what the actual fuck I hate it so much. It is stressful enough when I have to get on it to go to school because I feel like I will get on the wrong one and end up in Russia or some shit. And the time table, like I just don’t trust it. You have to make sure that you get on the right one and when you do there are barely any seats so you have to end up sitting or standing next to the druggy who smells like actual shit. And even if you do get a seat they are always so dirty and infested with like 100 different viruses. It is so stressful as well when you get on and they just start moving the bus when you are still paying or just getting to your seat and you are literally flailing everywhere. It’s as though your drunk or something and they always suddenly stop and send you flying into someone. I always get scared that they will not stop at my stop for some reason.
My school bus for going home is literally shit. There are no seats, there are first years running around and shouting everywhere and you can’t even tell them to shut the fuck up, the drivers have anger issues and they sometimes put up the wrong fucking number so they drive a different way and you are like am I getting kidnapped lol. And if they do take the right way at the start, they fucking miss the last stop and we are like “umm where are you going” and they act as though they don’t know shit and are like “where was I supposed to go” and then take a bloody one hour detour just to turn around. It is so stressful and packed and they never have the heaters on in winter but in summer they seem to work and the air conditioning is broken. I hate buses with a passion and I always will
I don’t really know if they are included in the public transport category but they need mentioned anyways. They aren’t too bad like but why does it have to be so awkward and expensive and also kinda embarrassing when you have to take one because you were late to school. When you get one you have to sit there awkwardly or just engage in small talk that makes you want to pull your eyeballs out. The people driving are usually quite nice though and the actual car is nice and clean which is a good touch. I don’t live in New York so like these aren’t any crappy yellow ones. You have to call the company to send someone over and they are nice and all so that isn’t the bad part but why the fuck are they so bloody expensive. Like I guess you have to pay for gas and it is more private but like for fuck sake. You just look at the meter going up every second and you get a fucking heart attack. Sitting in traffic wondering if you can afford to get home. Like what if you don’t have enough money to pay for it all because it is more than expected? Do you just walk away or what
I remember in primary school we went in taxis to go to things like swimming and school trips and we thought we were the bees knees. Especially if the teacher didn’t go in your car and it was just your mates and the driver. There was this one time though when it was just me, my friends and the driver and we got in and the teachers were taking role or whatever and then our driver just drove straight away because the car was full and we were like what the fuck because nobody else had left. The guy was really nice but like on the edge of scary but like he did get us to the place but then 10 minutes after, our teacher finally got there and was like what the fuck because she though we were getting kidnapped or some shit because she didn’t tell the driver to go yet. Kinda fun times I suppose. You would have to be dumb to kidnap someone in a taxi though, pretty obvious like.
I do love a good plane, don’t get me wrong. I mean I love the vibes, it is quiet and you can relax. It is quick and you get the best shows in the world, the safety briefing. But what the fuck is up with the food. Who pissed off the cooks to make them prepare this. I don’t mind the snacks and stuff like the muffins or tea because those are fine, but like I remember I was flying over to america from Northern Ireland and I had pasta or something and it was absolutely awful. Just the texture was so bad. It was all one texture and that was slimy. The chicken was literally rank, the pasta was near dripping and I got off the plane feeling like shit. The people on the plane were kinda cheeky and stuck up though but it might just be because it as a long flight or there were annoying customers, but even at the start you could tell they wanted to throw you out the plane. The first movie is always the most exciting because you are like “ooh, I’m watching a movie in the air on the way to holiday, how fun” but after you are all cramped, you are bored, always interrupted, you need to pee but don’t want to go past anyone and you still have hours left. So while I do prefer a plane to a boat, they can get a bit old very quickly. They are more relaxed though especially when at the airport because you have you plain time called every hour, there is a clear sign about it, there are shops that are way over priced but good for looking around and it is honestly a vibe. I love people watching, not in a creepy way, so it is cool to see how people are literally going everywhere in the world. And if you just sit at the seats near your terminal, you will be sure to never miss your plane, so good times all around.
I remember the first time that I went on a plane without my parents and it was just me and my twin going over to England. The flight over was totally fine and kinda fun, but on the way back I was near in tears because, as you may know, I am quite the anxious person and we had gotten to our terminal with pretty much no bother and when we got there we sat for a bit and this guy was coming around checking the size of peoples bags. Ours had gotten through before so we were like we’ll be fine. Spoiler alert, we weren’t. It was the same airline, the same bags, the same stuff in it and the bag wouldn’t go in by like 1 mm. And I was like, we are never gonna get on this plane, we are going to be stranded here, I am never going to see my family again and the worker was talking about how it was too big and I was like but it got in before and he was like “not it didn’t” and I was like “bitch yes the fuck it did” and then he started talking about having to pay £30 to get it on the plane and I was like “we don’t have that much money with us” because we had just finished our trip and hadn’t brought much in the first place. And by that point I was panicking a lot inside and could only hear more about having to pay and i kept just saying “we can’t do that. We can’t afford that” and apparently by that point he was explaining that is what you normally had to do but he would let us off, so I defo looked like I was hiding something when in reality I was literally dying inside. That has traumatised me a wee bit, but as long as I just go with someone else for the rest of my life, I should be fine.
Anyways, I would talk a bit about boats but like, in summary, they are boring and scary, so there you go. I also feel like I have gone on long enough and I am boring myself. But please comment down below if you liked this and whether you feel the same way or have had another bad experience to tell. Don’t forget to like and follow for even more content like this and to check out my other posts. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
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Ok guys, we aren’t about to get into some existential shit today because I don’t think I can take that at the moment, but I guess it kinda will be but like to a certain extent, so kinda just be warned about that but lets get started into it. This is another weekly reminder post but I am going to make it around the same vibe as my other posts because I find it hard to… write like I care. That sounds really mean but what I mean by that is that I struggle to not cringe when I try to write a post in an empathetic tone. I know I am disappointing my English teacher at the moment but like I don’t give a shit anyways. So sorry if you prefer reading things that are kinda sad, but I use humor to cope despite the fact my humor is crap so that isn’t the best but like we move. I also don’t know why I am typing all of this because I can guarantee that you don’t give a fuck. But yeah, I feel that when I try to write a post with an empathetic tone, I sound so fake, kinda like all the people in my school. Lets get into it anyways
I saw this TikTok video yesterday and it was this girl that was replying to a comment that said “how are you so confident” and if I knew who that girl was I would shout her out but I don’t so like deal with it, but anyways, she was so… como se dice… perfect. Like she was a nice confident where she is outgoing but wouldn’t be like “fuck you” to every person who breathes near her. Anyways, that is besides the point, but she literally just said “because nobody fucking cares! In a couple of hundred years everyone on this earth will literally be dead and nobody will remember that thing you said or the clothes you wore or anything because it won’t carry on once we all die”. I mean unless you do something so awful like a proper historical downfall, you shouldn’t change for anyone. Like that person you are changing yourself for is gonna die and so are you so why are you trying to do something for them when eventually it won’t matter at all and you should live the life that you want when you have it.
I always get a wee bit scared when I talk about doing whatever you want because it won’t mean shit in the future because I always feel people are going to use that as a reason for like killing someone or just doing something awful because “it won’t matter” but like don’t think I am saying that. I don’t want to be responsible for murder, but like you know what I mean. It is the things like caring what other people think about you and stuff like that. Trying to make others happy before yourself and that shit. We are all guilty of doing this and that’s fine because that is what we have learned and it isn’t our fault, but it is also ok because we can fix it, as long as it is for yourself. That is kinda why I like being single at this stage. I mean having someone that actually likes you must be nice, but I like the fact that I am free to fully figure myself out and think about myself as an individual and if a relationship comes from that then it is perfect. But from past experiences I know that having a partner can be kinda restrictive and, at least in my position, I always changed myself to be perfect for him and to not be myself. Maybe if you have a healthy relationship then that is different, but you need to think carefully about who you are with.
And also, literally if that person remembers it for the rest of their life, maybe they laugh about how you panicked in a school play until the day they die, then that is only one life and you should move on with it because they will die one day and that is it. It won’t become a family tradition to carry on this story. And the embarrassing thing you did, you aren’t the first person to do that. I mean the earth is millions of years old and even in just the past 100 years, there have probably been millions of people that have done the same as you. What you also need to remind yourself is that if someone actually does hang onto that one thing you did ages ago and makes fun of it, they have no fucking life. I mean would a person who actually mattered focus on that thing everyday or would they move on with life and all the opportunities they will come to have. And the people who remember it and therefore have no life, shouldn’t worry you because it doesn’t make you less than them and you know the only reason they remember that is because they have made it their whole personality trait and that is the only bit of information they can actually keep in their pea sized brain.
So yeah, I hope this boosted your confidence in some way and that you can come to terms with the reality of life and how eventually, just like humans, rumors will die. Stories die and you aren’t weird or dumb for what you did. But yeah, just don’t give a shit and you will be good I guess. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
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Lately, since the whole Logan Paul and KSI fight or whoever it was, all tiktokers and youtubers have literally been fighting for no fucking reason. I mean at the start it was fun you know, like it was new and exciting, like a relationship. But also like a relationship, they get old and you realise the person you are with is quite stupid and irrelevant. You start to realise they are not actually interesting and you only liked them when it was new but now you realise they are not all that they seem. Who the fuck can actually keep up with all the fights going on? Like honestly I feel like I am back in primary school watch two kids flail their arms at each other and crying. Like it is really embarrassing and not the big of a deal. So what you can beat up another guy from the street? That literally doesn’t prove anything other than the fact you have no life so waste all your time training to win some shit contest.
To be honest though, I have grown to respect Logan Paul more because his brother, Jake Paul, is an actual twat. What the fuck was the whole “gotcha hat” shit. I mean where was the need? What mental health issues do you have to think that people would respect you for that? And then it meant he couldn’t watch his brothers match which he trained a lot for. I mean I still don’t watch Logan Paul because I am not a 10 year old boy, but at least he is more mature. And don’t even get me fucking started on fucking Bryce Hall! Like it frustrates me so much for some reason. He really thinks he is the bees knees and when he literally stuck up his middle fingers at the guy he was going to fight, it literally looked like he was going to shit himself, like literally shit himself. It just bugs me so much how they think people really care that much.
To be honest, I don’t even know a lot of the people who are fighting and that kinda just shows they are doing it for the publicity. It’s hardly like if Bryce won I would be like “yes, absolute dream boy I love him” because no, he is still a bad person. Like I don’t like him. When will they stop though for real. They aren’t professional and although I respect the determination, why don’t you just handle it some other way other than just making a fool of yourself. Just go back to the dis-tracks because at least those were funny and say what we all were thinking. Nobody cares if you can beat someone up or knock someone down when they are off guard and you look like a target employee, like literally grow up please. And I do know this will really annoy some people, mostly 10 year old kids, but like they are so annoying and it doesn’t get them anywhere. Why don’t they fight a real boxer who isn’t retired instead of either retired boxers, wrestlers or just random influencers. Make it make sense please.
Do you know what does crack me up about it though? The fact that they really think they are doing something! They really think they are adored and hilarious. Their egos are built up so high that people are beginning to climb up it and put fucking flags at the top. They really don’t need that. They think that whoever can scream the loudest and get their face closest to the camera are elite. They walk around as though they are about to take someones lunch money but I honestly think if they came up to me I could literally flick them and they would explode. End of the world? And at the interview after they act as though they didn’t just beat up a retired or unprofessional man. Like you really didn’t do much. They try to act like the pros as well. Jake Paul really does be trying to be Conor Mcgregor and it could be a comedy skit, no joke. To be fair, the acting is good but it is fucking obvious, so maybe get your own personality for once.
And just incase Jack Paul, Bryce Hall and whoever is dragged into this shit (apart from KSI and stuff who are actually respectful) reads this and gets worked up about it. I ain’t gonna fight you. Like you are defo gonna come to my house and start something but I don’t give a flying fuck bitch. I kinda hope they do read this though because that would be hilarious in all honesty. Watch them come out with a sad video called “I’m taking a mental health break” as though we are about to fall in love with them.
Anyways, this was kind of an immature post but I feel like I just needed it off my chest and that other’s will probably relate to it as well, but make sure to like, comment and follow if you enjoyed this and want more comedy content like this. Check out some of my other posts that are a bit different to this one and I will see you again tomorrow with a new post. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
If anybody doesn’t know what cancel culture is, let me explain it to you. Technically, it is just this thing were people ‘cancel’ (or make them unfamous) people because of something bad they said in their lifetime. And you might be saying “well I mean that doesn’t sound too bad” but let me tell you … Continue reading Cancel Culture – Let’s Address This Bitch
Hi guys, so as some of you will already know, I have my first ever interview tomorrow. And I am shitting it to say the least. It has caused me to have many a breakdown and freaking out about what I should say about the generic questions and whether or not I would end up … Continue reading My Honest Interview Answers
This is not a drill guys! I was called yesterday by a manager of a restaurant I applied for and he booked me in for an interview on Monday. Bitch when I tell you I am shitting myself, I am quite literally shitting it. I mean did I apply for it? Yes. But it is … Continue reading Where Is The Back Button On Life? I Need Out Of This Bitch
I feel like a lot of people will understand me when I say that there are things that people can literally just talk about and that makes you feel exhausted or just unmotivated to do that thing despite the fact you aren’t even going to do it but the thought of it is so horrible you want to cry? That is a bit of a weird introduction but you know what I mean, right? Like if someone was like “oh my god do you remember that time you went kayaking for ages and your arms and legs and everything were exhausted and then you had to do a 10K walk afterwards?” By the way, that was targeted at my dad and I am still mentally recovering from it. But whenever I remember that it is as if I get PTSD from it and literally get so scared at the thought that I did that. I don’t really know where I am going with this intro but I am going to stop now and we can start talking about things that make me physically and mentally fed up.
As a white family, we did some messed up shit. Like that might sound racist but I have seen videos of POC who are like “white people are messed up” and I agree with that because my family just be going outside in the middle of nowhere to shit in a fucking forest and sleep with the bloody insects. We used to do this a lot and I guess it was fun with my friends but like now that I have half a brain and am not made to enjoy things, I really do hate camping. I’m sorry but I just don’t see the point. You gotta pack and carry a bunch of shit and bring in to the middle of nowhere or go to a cramped site with a bunch of kids screaming and people being actually active and going on walks at like 5 in the morning and, while there are toilets, they are so stinking I feel like I contracted 10 diseases just by washing my hands. To be fair, I don’t mind if I set up a tent in my back garden, but if you expect me to bring fucking sleeping bags and a fire starter, I will in fact run away. So I can not be bothered to go camping. I would prefer to look at the stars from the comfort of my bed, looking through the window or standing outside for a sec while the kettle is on thank you very much.
I’m sorry but we need to normalise going straight to the deep stuff. And that doesn’t mean “what is your star sign” because at that point I would walk away, but I mean instead of being like “the weather is crap today isn’t it lol”, why can’t we just be like “What is your favorite childhood memory”. I know that sounds creepy as fuck and I definitely wouldn’t just go up to someone and say that, but like I hate small talk. It is so cringey and awkward and it very rarely leads to anything. We can hardly go like “yeah the weather is crap, but do you know what else is crap? The cats movie” and then go off on a whole tangent because to me it seems desperate. It is also awkward starting off small talk. I know it is kinda just to fill in the awkward silence but I honestly hate starting a small talk convo because you just be like “sooo… how are you” like what the fuck is that.
Raising a Child
To be fair, I am a wee bit away from this happening to me… I hope, and my mind will probably change but does it not sound so scary to have to push a fucking human out and then one day they just kick you out of hospital and you and whoever your partner is are just standing like, what the fuck do we do now. This is the start of their fucking life. There isn’t a big change in the world, sparkles and rainbows don’t magically appear. You have to somehow understand what the baby wants by its crying, unless you are one of those people who can somehow communicate with babies or whatever harry potter, 6th sense, fairy-tale shit you have. And I’m really sorry if I am freaking out some pregnant person out there, I am sure you will be great, but like it could not be me. You need to make sure they are fed, they are breathing, they sleep, they shit everywhere, they get bored, they cry, they live. They are a freaking tiny human and you are making up a personality and a life for this baby. It sounds awesome but like what if they turn out like a prick. What if your child is a prick or just really annoying and creepy and now you have a literal annoying person living with you and if you say anything, they turn into rebellious teens and you are just waiting until they turn 18 but that is a long fucking time. But yeah, good luck to all the parents aren’t there. At least society takes most of the blame for how mentally fucked they have become 🙂
Not Wearing Face Masks
Despite the fact a lot of people are so dramatic with face masks and literally complain every second about how they “can’t breathe” or “this is so uncomfortable”, I kinda am going to be screwed when we don’t have to wear them anymore because I do weird things with my mouth when my mask is on. I have a habit of doing that weird awkward smile all the time or just sticking my tongue out a wee tiny bit for absolutely no reason and also making tiny noises, but when I take it off I will have to remember that people can see my face and the weird shit I do with it and sometimes I can be quite expressive so what if in school someone I hate is talking shit and I just look at them with disgust and then see that I am silently judging them! I defo will be exposed but I think I’m ready for it. I don’t know why but I always feel ready to throw hands at an annoying person if I needed to or just talk shit for a straight hour. Maybe if it leads to that, I can get some of my anger out and it will get better, yay! Watch me look at everyone with a rude face and start fights everywhere lmao.
Working In The Hospital
I was gonna say working as a doctor, but I feel like it doesn’t give the other’s justice because I don’t think I could do any of their jobs. Like, when I was at hospital, the nurses were always so lovely and kind even though they had 10 old people arguing about the TV, 5 kids throwing up, 3 doctors ordering them to do things at a time and a partridge in a pear tree. They really do the most and are still happy but I cry if I burn my toast in the morning. That is a different type of hurt though. I am also watching grey’s anatomy at the moment and, firstly it is awesome, but secondly, what the actual fuck. They just all seem to know everything. This guy could come in and cough once and they would be like “oh my god he has supercalifragilisticfeefifofumI’mgettingrippedtonight. And then they know how to fix it. How do they remember all that! Seriously though can any medical person please say how you know it all instantly and stay calm when you have to save people from near death and you know every detail and name of things. It couldn’t be me. I would get stuck on how to pronounce a word and then not realise my patient is literally having a seizure right next to me. I respect you guys honestly. I also want to know if you actually do literal 48 hour shifts! Is that not literally kinda bad for you and also having to diagnose people. Do you not just cry at every single patient you see. Could not be me but thank you for volunteering as tribute *wistles*
Anyways, that’s all I can be bothered with today in all honesty. Here’s a bonus. Can I be bothered to do more? No, so yeah. But please do comment below if you have anything else to add, I always love seeing what you have to say, and make sure to like and follow for more. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
Hey guys, so if you have read my blog before, you will know that I have a twin sister. We have pretty much the same friend group but there are a few people that she would be more friendly with than me because… well, I’m a socially awkward kinda bitch. But the reason the title … Continue reading The Audacity
So I know this is quite a broad topic guys. I know what I am getting myself into. An existential crisis. But I am ready for it you know. I am ready to question life and everything there is to do about it because… to be honest, I’m bored and don’t have anything else to … Continue reading Do You Know What’s Weird? Everything
Bro, obviously it’s me but I just needed something a bit more exciting as the title because I don’t think many people would click on “Sorry I have posted the last few days, I was busy” so yeah, if you guessed right then well done, but if not then I hope for you sake that … Continue reading Guess Whose Back!
I think we all related to this title a bit too much when you first read it. I know that whoever clicked on this was like “this shit about to be good” and it is because I am going to tell you about a few times that I have asked that question in my head and I am pretty sure you will be able to relate to at least a few of these, and if for some reason you don’t, you either don’t have any siblings or you are a foetus and haven’t experienced the world yet. So lets get started shall we.
“Are you in a bad mood?“
This one needs a bit of context but you can probably understand what I mean already. I hate whenever you are just having an overall bad day and you just feel a bit low and can’t be arsed to do anything or act nice all the time and then your parents go ahead and say “why are you in a bad mood”. I don’t know if they don’t understand but it sound so freaking condescending and I wasn’t in a “bad mood”, I was having a bad day and they are not the same thing. Just because we may not be smiling 100% off the time, it doesn’t mean we are a full on annoying teen. To be honest, I get annoyed whenever they mention mood at all. Like if they were like “hows the mood today” and you just look at them like, was it that hard to just say how are you. I don’t know if that is just me but it ruins the already depressing day. Just because I am a teen it doesn’t mean that I am grumpy every time I am quiet. I rest my case bitch.
Looking at your phone
You know when you are sitting next to someone and you are just on your phone cause your bored as fuck and then they have audacity to just watch everything you are doing and they try to fucking hide the fact they are spying on you but like you aren’t dumb so you can tell they are side-eyeing you. Like I don’t know why but it stresses me out so much and I don’t want to do anything because if I look up at them or move my phone so they can’t see it, they get offended. Like bitch you were the one that was spying on me so don’t get offended. I don’t really mind if it is my friends or something because if I am on my phone it is for a particular reason you know, but it just aggravates me. Especially on road trips because I sit in the middle (so my sisters don’t literally kill each other) and they both are able to just stare at my phone. Even though they usually don’t, I am too scared to do anything in case they look over for even a second and then shout something like “DAMN YOUR SNAPCHATS SO DRY!!” or “Why are you playing that. That’s so boring”. That is the point where you just put down your phone and stare at them for a while until you reach the perfect moment to say “shut the fuck up” and then you go back to normal.
This one goes out to all the people with siblings who have high blood pressure from the fear that comes with walking past or through a door. It really do be scary because there will also be a 99% chance that someone is going to scare you or throw something at you. It is fun to be fair, if you are the one scaring or throwing something. But I have become very observant in my lifetime because I just scan every sound, movement and light to make sure the coast is clear. Going into my kitchen is the most dangerous place because people can hide at both sides of the door, but if you hide behind the door, I will see you because I look through the crack as I walk by. It is a skill I guess, no biggy lol. And our dog is a big give away too because he just stares at you like an idiot. Another thing is when you are sitting down and you just get the urge to annoy them. It is really weird and can lead to a lot of things. At my stage, we have moved on from attacking the other for what they do and now we kinda just stare at each other like what the fuck just happened. Sometimes, what I like to do is throw a pillow, randomly punch them on the shoulder, leave their door open and then just freestyle it you know. It is quite the fun one, unless they pick to fight back and you get scared that they actually will kill you 🙂
The last thing I want to mention today is whenever people state the fucking obvious. Like they state every fucking thing as though they have just become the dumbest people on earth. It literally angers me to just talk about it. And these people pop out of nowhere. I could be walking outside with my dog on the leash and someone would pop out from the fucking sky and be like “are you taking the dog on a walk” and you just stare at them like “no, I’m leaving the dog outside to die” Like what the fuck does it look like I’m doing. Or when you sit in a room watching the TV and they come in and are like “oh, are you watching something” and you look at them like “no actually, I am fucking blind. Can you tell me where I am?”. They literally ask the most ridiculous things too. I am sure that one of these type of people has just risen up from the depths of hell and asked “are you breathing” and then went back down laughing evilly, leaving the other person on the floor crying with anger. I can picture it now. Can people seriously not just connect the dots, it isn’t that hard bitch.
Anyways, I hope you guys enjoyed that and you related to a few of them. You have to admit though, you have been through at least 2 of these. Comment down below if you have and also feel free to tell me what you get annoyed by and I might mention you in my next post. Don’t forget to like, follow and comment if you liked this content and I will be sure to make more like this. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
Hello guys, so I have posted in like two days but don’t worry it was just for my birthday so didn’t really have much time, but I’m back now so we are good to go. And what a better way to get back into things than a weekly reminder you know. I don’t really have … Continue reading Weekly Reminder
So, it is my birthday tomorrow no biggy. I’m not going to say my age because, despite the fact I may have said before or if you have already made a guess, I don’t really want any 70 year old creepy men popping up in the comments, but anyways. I am at the age where … Continue reading Here’s What I Think About Birthday’s
This isn’t your regular “get ready with me” bull shit. This is some relatable content. I’m not about to say “I write down everything I love in this world. I smile because life is great!” Nope because who the actual hell even does that? So, prepare to feel stalked because my bedtime routine is going … Continue reading What I Do To Get Ready For Bed
Hey guys, so I haven’t really posted on here in a wee bit but like life happens so deal with it. Anyways, I guess I just wanted to just talk about how today I am kind of transitioning back into a normal, pre-covid, life. And what is it that I am doing you might ask? Well, I am going to be going back to Ju-Jitsu for the first time in forever which is kind of fun but at this point I don’t even know if I am interested in going and that could be because it has been a while or it could also be my mental state lol. A large portion of it is also not being able to body slam people and knock the shit out of them. You don’t really do that in Ju-Jitsu anyways, but like I did karate before and there were fights that you could do and it was actually quite fun. I think the only reason I stopped that was because it was becoming very serious for me and they wanted to put me in world championships and that shit but I am quite a home-bird and also that was around the time I started first year and my mental health was… declining. So yeah, in another world you could have been watching me knock the shit out of someone on the Olympics, but that would be women’s sports so I guess it isn’t that big. LOL THAT WAS A JOKE I SWEAR. I AM A WOMAN AND JUST MAKING FUN OF THE FACT MEN THINK WOMEN’S SPORTS IS BORING.
But yeah, I think I tried 4 different martial arts classes in my lifetime. I also swear that when I first asked my parent’s if I could start karate I thought I was making up a word but I must have heard it from someone subconsciously and I was so freaked out when they said “sure”. I’m not sure if that was a mistake or not but I did ballet before and that was not my cuppa tea lets just say. I have a really embarrassing story from ballet but I don’t think I will ever tell you what it is. So I don’t know why I just told you that if I am not even going to tell the story lol but yeah it was embarrassing. Do you know what is funny though, and my English teacher would literally eat this up, is that I started my ‘martial arts journey’ in the leisure center and the 4th that I am in now is at the same leisure center! Cyclical structure?! I hate how I thought of that. LETS ANALYZE IT! no. I never have to do that again and I am thankful for that everyday.
You probably aren’t wondering, but I am going to tell you, why I left each of the classes. They are pretty good stories actually so lets get started
- The first place I went to was at the leisure center and it was for karate. My friend at the time went their too and I was like wow this is so fun. Except for when the grading part came (if you don’t know, this is how you go up the belts). The man that was their was so fucking creepy and there were so many people I didn’t know and the building that it was in was so sketchy and like had the worst vibes. I think a lot of my anxieties formed there. So that was one reason, and literally gave me PTSD to think about, but the other reason was because it was a small class and literally took fucking ages to move up just one belt. I think that for moving up each belt you had to do 2 gradings and then when you got to the higher belts you had to do 4 to get to the next belt. I know the black belt takes a while but like the fucking rest of them!? There was no need. So I left
- The second place I went to was probably one of my favorites because the people their were nice, I moved up pretty quickly because, ya know, I was a pro and all that. I stayed there a while and only left because high school really messed me up. I remember one time I literally cried when I was doing one of my gradings because I was so stressed out about everything. It was in a nice hall this time but like was still far from home and different to usual and really just set a bad vibe for the rest of the day. I liked this one a lot because they were obviously serious about it and actually did fighting and shit. There were competitions I went to and did well at and I nearly got to my brown belt I think, but I still remember the last day I went there and I was literally holding back tears and then when I got back to the car my mum was like “what’s wrong” and you know that hits different when you have been holding back tears the whole time, so then I quit. Little did I know that was only the fucking start lmao. High school was not good for me, let me tell you that. But I actually enjoyed it and fully miss it.
- The third place was BY FAR the worst of them all. I remember going to it and it was a fucking joke. I should have known from their logo and their fucking clown gees. It was new and my mum was like you need to go because you are good at martial arts and I was like fine and I actually hated it with a passion. They made it seem like they were so cool but they pretty much made up their own fucking martial art. These people spent 30 minutes of the 45 minutes doing warm ups and then the last 15 minutes I was having to work my way through literal fetuses doing random ass moves. They had a fucking grey belt! I might as well leave it there. They fully made up a belt and thought they were doing something. Like bitch just stop. And they would have all these literal weapons that looked like they were from an unrealistic ninja movie. I stayed there way too long and it was honestly embarrassing. People literally send their kids there and think they are gonna become a pro fighter but no, they are just gonna become a joke. So I left that place
- The forth place. The place I am at now. The place that I like despite a few different complications. The people there, to start, are mainly nice, but there are a select few who I… dislike strongly and would happily knock out. I am on my purple belt actually so have been there a while. The people are nice and, unlike the third place, they are official and not a joke. I am starting back today and the only reason I am not looking forward to it is that you aren’t even allowed to throw people so there quite literally will be nothing to do, but it’s fine. There are other reasons too but I think I have insulted my peers enough today.
Anyways, that is all I can be bothered to talk about today. Lets hope it all goes well and I can control my emotions well enough. I am also not very fit after all that time off so literally watch me get the reddest face ever lmao. Are you guys starting anything normal at the moment or are a lot of your hobbies still closed? Leave your answer in the comment section below, I would love to hear what you are doing. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
I was thinking about this today and it really got me worried. I have never seen an embarrassing photo of a baby in a long time. I don’t mean in old photos, but I mean that on Instagram, the babies are always in Nike or Gucci with their hair immaculate and they never are caught … Continue reading The Next Generation Are Going To Be Messed Up and Here Is Why
The world needs more pockets. Nope, that isn’t a joke. Today I am talking about why the world needs more pockets *gets kicked out of Climate Change organisation* In all honesty though, I have a solid argument about why we need more pockets. Maybe not in the USA though. They’ll just carry more guns 😮 … Continue reading The World Needs More…
Hi guys. This post is quite late but I am sure none of you really care about that. The truth is though, this week has been tough and I don’t want to hide that from you all because despite the fact I usually upload positive content and jokes etc. my life is not perfect. Not … Continue reading Weekly Reminder
Me, personally, I love languages. I don’t know what it is about them but I find them so interesting because the whole world has different ways of communicating and it makes sense to people despite the fact we have absolutely no clue what they are talking about. To be fair I only know Spanish and English but still. I mean I wish I had the time or the motivation to learn more because it is so awesome, but there are also times where I just think to myself “what the fuck”.
There was a time where there were no languages and then the next day they were just like “ok we need to come up with a way to communicate that everyone will understand” but how did they say that to each other? How did they talk about starting this and using their voices to make words. And I know that a lot of modern languages came from Latin or some shit but how did Latin come around, and if we know what that came from then how did that other language start? There was once just a person that was like ok we need to do this but how the hell. And they were the ones to create the best invention in the world because now we can communicate and thrive.
This might sound a bit stupid but, being the dumb child I was, when I would ask how Spanish people would understand what other people were saying when speaking Spanish, my mum would say “well it’s just their language so they understand it like we do with English” and for some utter shit reason, I thought that meant that they would translate what they said into English and then translate their response back into the language they spoke and then I would be so confused as to why they couldn’t understand us when they have to translate everything into English to understand it. Obviously, I have changed now and actually love languages but how fucking dumb was that. Literally, me thinking that everything revolves around English which is actually kind of does and I feel privileged to be a fluent English speaker, but I was innocent as fuck back then.
That kind of leads me to my next point. Why have we chosen a ‘superior language’? How did we just decide that it would be English? Now, I know that English isn’t the world’s most spoken first language but like pretty much all countries, I think, kind of make you learn English in school as if you wouldn’t succeed without it. I know that I learn languages but it isn’t as stressed as what I would think learning English would be. And English is a fucking hard language. In never fully appreciated how hard it was until a couple of years ago because before I was like “well we don’t even have an accents on our words so it isn’t even that hard” but then I realised that words are spelled and pronounced so differently that it is just ridiculous. I mean who the fuck decided there would be silent letters. Like Pterodactyl. What the fuck is that? Honestly. And then there are the rules like “I before e except after c” but then there are still words that go against that. Honestly, I would give up if I had to learn it. Wait!!! I just remembered one of the most ridiculous words in the English dictionary. Queue. This has to be a joke. You can not tell me that the only letter you pronounce is the very first one while the others are just there for show. Like how the hell is that real. As a person of the English language, I would like to formally apologize for this and I hope this hasn’t fully destroyed your love for languages.
Are there just people who come up with languages though. That’s the thing. And how long did it take for the first speakers to start a language because I mean damn, I can barely speak the language I have known my whole life. Props to them I suppose but I only have one more question for you. Were you on literal drugs when you came up with it because god damn this shit is crazy. But yeah, I suppose that is my questions over for now about how weird languages are. I still love them to be fair but like, they are freaking weird. If anyone is reading this and has had to learn English as a second language, please comment down below and tell us what it was like to you and what other things still confuse and shock you to this day because I am sure there are many. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
Don’t be expecting some type of soppy shit like “the ability to love” or “empathy” because this is not it bitch. This is the honest shit and it is especially relatable if you have siblings but maybe you do still understand. For context, I have an older sister and a twin sister and I live … Continue reading Superpowers You Get Living With Your Family
In the wise words of Ariana Grande, “whoever said money can’t solve your problems must not have had enough money to solve ’em” and I live by that honestly. It is true though. Like a lot of my problems are caused by money but can also be fixed by them soooo. But every time I … Continue reading Money Can’t Solve Your Pro… Shut The Fuck Up
Right, hear me out guys. This may sound like utter shite but I swear when you think about it for long enough, it literally makes no fucking sense, or well, at least it is such an amazingly weird thing. There is just a time of day where you could walk down the street and everyone … Continue reading Do You Know What’s Weird? Sleeping
The past couple of weeks my weekly reminders have been more low-key but this week I want to liven it up a bit you know. Like I want to remind you guys how absolutely awesome you are and how you should not give a fuck what other people think because you are the shit. So welcome to my TED talk bitches, let’s get it started.
How many times this past week did you give a fuck? It’s ok if it’s a lot. Mine is quite a lot. Now, my task for you this week is to lower this right down. Let’s get it down to a half of the fucks you gave. So if you cared about what other’s thought of you etc. around 20 times, lets lower this to 10 times. It may seem like a stretch, but catch yourself when you start to care about what other’s are thinking because that wastes so much of your time and they don’t deserve that. I am not gonna say that life is short because it really fucking isn’t but despite that, you ain’t got any time to give away so stop wasting time on the people who don’t matter. And it is natural for people to make question what they wear or get a bit anxious, but just look at yourself in the mirror and talk to your reflection as though you are hyping up your best friend who is feeling the way you do. Tell your reflection that it is the most beautiful thing in the world and that nobody deserves you. Tell it that it shouldn’t give a fuck about what other’s think because they are the most important thing in the world and everyone else is just jealous. It may feel a bit awkward at first and I know that it will but that is how you should be talking to yourself anyways. You shouldn’t be your own worst enemy.
I can tell that whoever is reading this right now is an absolute beast because, well, you are on the best blog in the world, but also because you are still here. Like how fucking badass is that. You are walking away from a fucking bomb that was 2020 and you may still be in the fire but you are still going. Pandemic? Got nothing on you. School? You can get through it. Life? That shit sucks but I’m getting there. I don’t think that you fully appreciate how awesome you are because I know that others or yourself may downplay what you go through, but by just thinking about this past year, I already know that you are literally elite. You are gonna be the cool grandparent or older person that gives all the best advice, is absolutely hilarious, has awesome stories about living in a pandemic (despite the fact we might oversell it to sound more dramatic), you are gonna change the world just by existing and some day you will walk down the street and know that, although others may not see it yet, you are a freaking star.
I am not sure if any of you guys have heard this quote before by Mother Teresa. It is pretty good and I think about it every so often because it is so simple yet means so much. She says
Isn’t that quite good. Like it just shows that no matter how small you think your impact on the earth is, it is still significant. If you weren’t here there would be that much less than if you were. It all adds up and although you may not see it, every thing matters and if we lost you, we would be a you short. We would be missing a you and that will affect things. You are a part of a big thing and your presence is appreciated. I guess you could also link it to the butterfly effect where, if small thing happens like a butterfly flapping it’s wings, it leads to something bigger, like a hurricane. It may seem a bit weird, but it is true. If we missed a you then throughout the years life would be so different especially in the lives of the ones you love. Because you are here the world is so much different and I want you to know that you do have a meaning, you are so important, you do make an impact and your life does matter.
Don’t let anyone else tell you otherwise because you are a blessing and you need to keep shinning because one day you will finally realise your strength and the world won’t seem so tough anymore. When you realise your worth, you won’t take any shit and you can live life they you want and make the decisions that make you the happiest I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
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My last ever GCSE exam (hopefully) is on tomorrow. Pretty freaky. Didn’t really think I would make it this far. I was wanting to do one of the things where it is like after 2 years, 107 hours of study, 20 mental break downs etc. but I can’t add up all of the mental breakdowns … Continue reading Weekly Reminder
So guys, I didn’t get the job, but I mean it’s fine. Honestly, like it’s fine. This was my first ever one to be fair so if I was expecting results, I would be a bit dumb you know. The truth is though, I don’t know what I would have done if I did get the job. The guy would ring me and be like “hey you got the job” and then I would be like “that’s great thank you” and then it would be an awkward pause just with me on the other line like what the fuck now. And if I got the job I would most definitely be like “well fuck. I don’t actually want to work though”. People always say to look at the positives, so in this situation that is that I have an excuse to do nothing. I guess I will have to look for more work in the mean time, but like doe now I can be like “damn, I wish I could be walking back and forth between Karen’s and a boiling kitchen with heavy plates and 0 hour of sleep. I guess I will just relax and be sad about it”.
For me, I am the type of person whose social battery can go from 100 to 0 in a second. I’m basically an iPhone battery bitch cause it changes real quick. So imagine what I would be like if I had to be crazy happy for a bit and then all of a sudden I crashed. No tip for me I guess. This would literally be me… “Hi, My name is Ally and I am going to be your server today! What can I get for you guys 🙂 Ok, so that’s 2 burg… *crashes on ground, rolls into ball, sleeps*” and the customers are like “we’ll have chips with that too”. It would be a laugh but like everyone would think I am some sort of quirky emo.
I guess I don’t feel too bad that I didn’t get the job because literally half of the people my age applied for it. I wonder how many got it though? Lol, everyone but me. Imagine. I could never step foot in that restaurant again, not like I go there anyways but still, I would keep my distance. The thing is though, I thought the interview went quite well. Me and the guy were kinda hitting it off, in the non-relationship way, as in we chatted. We had things in common and a bit of banter you know. Toxic friendship I suppose. Nrs only real ones know. But no, he actually didn’t really ask that many questions. Maybe that was a red flag that he already found the good ones and didn’t give a shit anymore. Do you guys want a re-inaction of what the thing was like, with a bit of a twist and my inner commentary. No? Shut up, Imma do it anyways.
So I walked in, already sweating like a pig, and the restaurant was kind of empty but like there were a few people working there. I saw one girl and she was like “just wait there for a second” and I was like ok but I don’t want a fucking seat, I want to take your fucking job, but then another waitress was like “is everything ok” and I was like “no actually, life is pretty tough at the moment beca…”, “no I meant can I help you” and then I said I was here for an interview and I sat down for a bit at a random table which was kind of awkward because it was a reserved table and I didn’t know if that was for me or if a family would walk in and just see this random sweaty girl on their seat. Oh, I would also like to clear up that the whole “is everything ok” bit from above was a joke, I didn’t do that lol. Just making sure But I was just there looking awkward as fuck because I didn’t want to go on my phone because the guy defo would have come and said no right on the spot for being a lazy hoe, so I just starred into nowhere as I sat and waited for 10 mins with my CV in my dripping, shaking hand. Then the guy came and I went from 0 to 100 real fast. Like, my waitress mode was turned on to maximum bitch.
Oh my god, this part is so embarrassing, but when we were going to the table he was saying “the hand sanitizer is there but be careful when you press down because it can squirt out a bit” and I was like ok, there is no way I could mess this up, we are fine. The thing is, I thought it just meant it splattered a bit, but no. This bitch FLEW. Like I had my hand over it a bit to catch any spray, but this hoe went right over it. And I looked so dumb, but I don’t know if he saw. Like he just told me to be careful and then I went ahead and got it everywhere anyways. I was near wetting myself because it still was kinda funny to be honest. It really defied the laws of gravity. I really don’t know how it did that you know. Maybe that was the first test and he realised I was an absolute idiot so he just decided on the spot.
There is more to the story really, but it isn’t even that funny or important, I just basically acted over enthusiastically and agreed to what he said. I also can’t be bothered to type the rest because I am quite the tired one today, but I will post tomorrow hopefully so don’t forget to subscribe, like and comment so that I can make this my job instead. Show that bottle of hand sanitizer that I am the shit. But yeah, I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
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If anybody doesn’t know what cancel culture is, let me explain it to you. Technically, it is just this thing were people ‘cancel’ (or make them unfamous) people because of something bad they said in their lifetime. And you might be saying “well I mean that doesn’t sound too bad” but let me tell you a bit more. The types of things they use as evidence to cancel said person would literally be from when they were literally kids. So if, somehow, a video got out of them pronouncing the word “gay” wrong when they were first learning to talk, they would take that and be like “cancel this hoe, she doesn’t respect the LGBTQIA+ community” and then their whole career goes down the drain. Basically the people who support cancel culture are the so called “snow flake” generation. And that I agree with. The only cancelling I will agree with is cancelling cancel culture.
What is so aggravating about it is that the person could have completely changed from what they had been like 10 years ago and they would still be cancelled. I could be cancelled for this post because of the fact I think cancelling people for what they said years back is bad, but like people change bitch. Unless they said it the other day and don’t actually regret it, get over it because we all make mistakes. The things I have seen people have to apologize for are actually ridiculous. There was this one hilarious video I had watched, I forget what it was about, but it was so funny. It was by Spencerwuah I think, and it was the tiniest thing about literally nothing and people in the comments were like “oh my god I can’t believe you just said that” “address it” “oh my god some people are just so awful” and there are points where you actually think it’s a joke but it isn’t and your like who the fuck hurt you to be so sensitive.
People’s whole career’s get ruined for it too. Like when we are kids our parent’s tell us things and we believe them because we don’t know what else to think, like we haven’t made our own opinions yet. And then later on in life people learn that maybe their opinion isn’t right and so they change who they used to be, but people don’t like to see that. No matter how much they apologize, their career that they once loved has just disappeared. Now don’t get me wrong, there are some things that aren’t ok such as recent discoveries about James Charles and Shane Dawson being actual pedophiles, but like that is a literal crime and absolutely disgusting and it is recent with actual evidence that they did it. But like for other times, people really do just twist words. And they also just don’t give them a chance to defend themselves or correct themselves. Kind of like if one time they misgender someone and then they are like “Oh sorry, what are your pronouns?”, all the cancel culture bitches will be like “don’t try to make yourself look like the victim you are so close minded” when in reality they just made a mistake.
So just to finish I suppose, cancel culture needs to be cancelled because people change and some of the evidence you use to prove your point is ridiculous. But don’t get me wrong, if there are pedophilia charges or rape charges, those people don’t deserve to have freedom, but if it is something from 10 million years ago, they have probably changed so get your dramatic, pasty Karen ass out of here because we don’t wanna hear it. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself (unless you are a pedophile or rapist) PERIODT
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Hi guys, so as some of you will already know, I have my first ever interview tomorrow. And I am shitting it to say the least. It has caused me to have many a breakdown and freaking out about what I should say about the generic questions and whether or not I would end up completely fucking it up because I accidentally tell the truth. I mean you do kinda have to make white lies in an interview or to slightly bend the truth, but to get all the thoughts about saying something wrong our of my head, I am gonna spill them here and if the interview guy is reading this, it is all a joke
Tell me about yourself
I’m a chronically awkward bitch who likes to people please and in the event of a customer or staff members slight change in tone, I will have a breakdown. But that doesn’t mean I won’t throw hands if a Karen act’s up. I can remember stuff kind of well but if there is a silence for even 1 millisecond, my face will light up bright red. I can get overwhelmed but that isn’t knew to me. I have a twin and an older sister, one of which I am pretty sure has anger issues and the other is alright I guess but I am always the peace maker between them and that means I have to sit in the middle of the car. I would count that as one of my trauma’s. I can either be very energetic, or I won’t be able to move a muscle. If you hire me, I may or may not be the most awkward person you will meet until you get to know me. Then you will realise I am a ‘unique’ person.
Why do you want this job?
I don’t. To tell you the truth like. I mean I will get paid though won’t I? That is literally the only reason I am here right now but even if I get hired, I might just leave because I think everyone hates me. I guess I also want tips, as in cash, not like training or anything like that. Although if you have any tips on how to enjoy life, that would be great. I also kinda need this job because it is the socially acceptable age to get a job like this and if I don’t get one I will be broke and also judged, so not too different from now, but like I want to keep it at the same level
What is your biggest weakness?
ahhaha, I think the easier question would be “what isn’t your biggest weakness” because we could be here for days. But let’s see… hmm… oooh this ones my favorite. You see, I do this thing where I feel as though I don’t belong here and that everyone hates me and wishes I wasn’t there. Also, I sometimes speak really fast or slur my words and I also can’t write that fast or that well, so the cooks might have a bit of a problem with that. I also don’t take criticism well so if I do something wrong, I may or may not cry or never speak ever again. I also have a tendency to not make friends because I think they all hate me, think I am weird, don’t want me there and I also am very much awful at small talk. Do you want anymore?
Why should we pick you?
I have no clue bitch, but if you need a reason not to pick me, ask my ex because he seemed to have a lot of reasons to treat me like shit. Also, if you do pick me, I will think that you did that by accident and that the other people who didn’t get it now hate me. Also I will panic a lot and although I will work very hard, I will be shaking so much that I don’t think I could carry out any plates or drinks. I also can’t do math all that well if I don’t have a calculator. And if you don’t hire me, I don’t think I can ever go back here again because I will be highly embarrassed so you would loose a customer as well
Tell me about a time you have been in a stressful situation?
Oh, so my life story? Ok, well it all started the day I was born… 5 hours later… and here I am pissing myself because I realised that I just told you every single memory I have and you guys have actually left I just realised so now I am talking to a wall. Oh, and the lights just turned off so I guess I am the last one here. Why am I still talking to myself?
Do you have any questions you would like to ask us?
Yes actually. What am I applying for again?
Anyways, thank you guys for reading this post, I hope you enjoyed it. It was kind of a piss take but like that is honestly what I would say. Wish me luck for my interview and hopefully I don’t say anything like I just did above. Tell me about what your first interview was like. Did you make any mistakes, or panic or any more bad experiences? Write them in the comment section below. I can’t wait to read them. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
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For the past couple of weeks I have been making more comforting weekly reminders, but it’s about time we speed this shit up. Its time for some hype and I am here for it. This is gonna be cringed as fuck but I don’t give a crap because it is what it is and nobody … Continue reading Weekly Reminder | Who Is The Baddest B*tch?
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This is not a drill guys! I was called yesterday by a manager of a restaurant I applied for and he booked me in for an interview on Monday. Bitch when I tell you I am shitting myself, I am quite literally shitting it. I mean did I apply for it? Yes. But it is all too real now. They are all gonna judge me and be like what is this bitch doing. And if I even get the job, I won’t be able to make friends with the other staff cause I can’t even socialize! Like I am going to be so out of place and I literally won’t be able to get everyone’s food on time or hold all the plates or talk or write down quickly. I hope they got tablets for us because I don’t think anyone could understand my writing. I have a literal doctor’s handwriting after a 24 hour shift and 200 pages signed. Like it really is that bad.
I don’t know why I am freaking out already though because I haven’t even got the job and it isn’t until Monday that I have the interview, but this is my first ever one. I don’t know what to wear and like what if I dress up too much or too little. What if I can’t hear what they are saying and I have to do that awkward shit where you ask them to say that again for the 5th time. Or what if they ask me a stupid fucking question that I didn’t prepare for and it is just me staring at them awkwardly like “oh shit”. I don’t think I am cut out to be a waitress in all honesty. I had always been excited to start a job and earn some money, but now that there is a chance that could happen, I don’t want it anymore. I am happy to just live on the streets. I’ll sneak onto a cruise and go across the world. Or maybe I will make friends with some rich old man who will let me live on his boat and when he dies I can just sail away and never have to work. To be fair though, I am looking forward to tips though, and also if there are Karen’s I can actually say something, to an extent I guess. Because when you hear them in a restaurant you literally want to shout over to them and say “watch your mouth bitch. It isn’t their fault that they don’t serve your great grandma’s famous cheese sauce”. I won’t be able to say that but like I can say something a bit passive aggressive and slabber about it later.
What I also can’t stand the thought of is being the new girl. Like what if they call me newbie for the rest of my life or if I make a mistake they will call me something like… I don’t know a nickname for that but you get what I mean. I am not ready for that. They will all have their friends already too so I will just be that awkward girl who is sweating profusely and being really quiet. I don’t want that. They could all be chavs too or like really annoying and it would be so awkward if it was just me and one other person just staring like “hey” with that awkward white person smile. I think that if I wasn’t hired, I could never go back to that restaurant ever again because that would be embarrassing as fuck, like imagine me going in and then everyone is like “look at that actual idiot that couldn’t even get into a crusty restaurant. It is a nice restaurant though but just for the purpose of this post let’s say it is crusty. It is also gonna be so awkward because when I go in I will have to be like “hey, I am here to like take your job” and then they will have to lead me to the room.
Also when I was on the call, the man sounded nice and all but he cut out for a minute and then I did understand him but like I was panicking about what he could have said and then he said what time to come down and now that I look back at it I am scared in case I got it wrong. Like what if I go in and say “hey I am here for an interview” and they are like “bitch that isn’t for another week” or “you stupid bitch, that was 2 days ago”. Like I can’t handle the embarrassment. And what if I go “hey I am here for an interview” and then they look at me like “ok? the fuck you want me to do?”. I would walk right out to be honest. After the manager had called I literally sent a fucking documentary of a rant to my friends, pretty much like this, and because I am the first one to do this, they did fuck all and I was here like wow, so much help guys thanks. And some were like “oh my I’d be shitting myself”. Yeah no shit. I also told them to apply for it and I don’t know if they have yet, but like that would be so much better. It would be bloody awkward though if they got it and I didn’t and now they are the ones alone and I am just standing awkwardly like “so… was it that scary”. I also don’t cope well under that much stress and people concentrating on me and it always shows as well. Like my face goes so red that it looks like it is about to explode and I sweat like a bitch. I slur my words and literally get sweaty ass hands, so if they go to shake it, they gonna be getting one unpleasant surprise.
So, if you haven’t noticed yet, I am terrified. If any of you guys have any tips with interviews or being a waitress, that would be really helpful to hear in the comments. And maybe if you have any of your own stories or how you felt getting your first interview that would be great. Hopefully on Monday I tell you a success story, and not an embarrassing one because I may have to just leave this planet forever. Everyone always says to “just be yourself” but I don’t like myself so why would anyone else?! I have the worst sense of humor so if I attempt a joke and they just stare at me, I am running out, or at least trying to with wobbly legs. Anyways, please send in any tips or stories, whether that is embarrassing, fun or just normal. I hope you guys have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
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Hey guys, so if you have read my blog before, you will know that I have a twin sister. We have pretty much the same friend group but there are a few people that she would be more friendly with than me because… well, I’m a socially awkward kinda bitch. But the reason the title of this post is “the audacity” is because she went out with one of her friends and I realised, she has a life away from me. That cheeky bitch.
Was that time we spent together in the womb not enough for her?! I mean how can she function and survive away from me. It just isn’t allowed. I mean if they asked me if I wanted to go out, would I say yes? Probably not because I am starting this thing called “slowly growing apart from others until I have no friends and eventually be in the elite level of depression”. It isn’t funny. I highly don’t recommend but I can’t go back now lol. I really can but that is besides the point. I then realised that my older sister and my mum and my dad have a life. They are not just characters that only live for my life. They have friends, a personality, they must be nice if people actually want to be around them. People see them as a friend or a co-worker and not as a parent or a sister. And sometimes you just gotta take a moment to realise all that and kind of understand the… what’s the word… the audacity. Even you, the person reading this, has a life. You are somewhere in the world doing something, maybe you are on a train, you are on a plane, you just woke up from a nap, maybe you are having lunch. I don’t even know! But you have a whole freaking life and by some miracle you are reading my own freaking post and I don’t know how low your day has got to get to reading this shit of a post, but hey, thanks I suppose.
Do you know what else makes me go “the audacity of that bitch” is whenever you are walking and a person that clearly sees you doesn’t move out of the way even a bit when the are taking up the whole path. Let me tell you a few stories about a couple of those times. So it was last Christmas. I was walking my dog as you do, and this kid, an obvious prick, was on his bike around his street. I was on the footpath and he was on the road and I was walking, minding my own business. There were no cars around or nothing. Just me on the footpath and him on the road. And guess what this idiot decides to do. He looks me straight in the eye, goes onto the foot path and cycles right into me. He nearly fucking hit my dog and I wouldn’t give as much of a shit if he hit me, but if he hit my dog, lets just say I would be on Santa’s naughty list and he would be on the ground. He is defo gonna be a chav when he grows up. I just glared and was just thinking that he is gonna be a prick to some poor person in the future. He is gonna be so mean to whoever he is around and I hope to fuck it ain’t me. Next time I plan to just stop and let him move out of the way first because ladies first bitch!
Another time something like this happened was literally last week and again I was walking my dog and it was in a forest park so the paths are a fine size, but there isn’t much space to go off the path if you needed to. So I was walking and this man and his wife we walking towards me. They dead-ass looked me in the eyes, they fucking saw me, and I moved to the side a bit to be polite because I know there is still the whole “respect your elders” bullshit, but I couldn’t move much further so I expected them to at least move to the side a bit, especially with the pandemilevato. But guess what, they don’t move an inch. Not a fucking millimetre and here I was looking like an actual ass because I had to turn into a fucking leaf just to not bump into them. And you may say they didn’t have enough room or they didn’t see me. But they looked right at me, they could have gone one behind the other or moved over a bit, and they did the same thing again. I am going to make a pact with you guys though, and you have to try and do the same. Next time you see that someone is going to do something similar to you, don’t move. Stand your ground and then if the people turn around and be like “your rude” or “why did you hit into me” just say “because I haven’t got no more fucks to give”. I mean quite obviously, don’t do this to a car or if you yourself are in a car because I don’t want to be charged for being the cause of a murder.
Reading through this post, the vibes changed quite quickly didn’t they, but I think that was a pretty relatable one if I say so myself. But anyways, don’t forget to like, follow and comment if you enjoyed that content. Make sure you check out some of my other posts as well because, not to toot my own horn, but some are pretty good. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
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For this post I am excluding all the annoying people, which is quite a lot, and just focusing on one thing. But I promise you that basically everyone reading this right now will understand. This thing can make or break your day. You either like it or despise it and in my experience, there is … Continue reading The Most Annoying Thing In The World
If you thought this was gonna be some informational shit then you are gonna be disappointed, because I am just as confused as you. Literally I wake up and the first thing I say is “what the fuck”. That could be for 2 reasons, one being the dream and the other being the fact my … Continue reading What Do Our Dreams Say About Us?
Bro, obviously it’s me but I just needed something a bit more exciting as the title because I don’t think many people would click on “Sorry I have posted the last few days, I was busy” so yeah, if you guessed right then well done, but if not then I hope for you sake that this is the first time reading my blog. I don’t really know what I am going to talk about in this blog but I promised myself that I would post something today because I haven’t posted in a while and I feel like, as a very very professional business woman, it is not in my optimal interest that I do not expel a writing into the world of the internet. I really hope you guys know that was a joke and that I am not some sort of business bitch with a stick up my ass. So yeah, I just thought I shouldn’t leave my blog posts so far apart.
If you were wanting an explanation for why I wasn’t posting, it is because it was my birthday and because of corona and all that crap I couldn’t have all of my friends over at once so I kinda split it up into groups. I know that makes me sound like a proper popular bitch, but the truth is I am not and it is just because my mum rented me and my twin a hot tub and we couldn’t have a lot of people in it, and the corona thing of course. Also my question is, why do I always try to reassure people that I am not popular. I mean is it because I think it makes me look more ‘relatable’? I don’t think so. Is it because I think a lot of popular people are as fake as Nicki Minaj’s ass, or as toxic as my last relationship? Maybe. But I do find myself doing that a lot which kind of also makes me seem like one of those ‘pick me’ bitches who wants to seem so #relatable. Anyways, that is a bit off top, except there was no topic so really it was off. But off what? If it isn’t off anything then it wasn’t on anything so then it is nothing, so I guess this whole paragraph isn’t off topic so that’s good.
For my birthday my mum got me 2 driving lessons with the young drivers things and I have to say I am quite buzzing because I have asked my mum for ages if I can even just turn on the car and she was like “no” every time. I am pretty certain that she has like trauma from teaching my older sister and isn’t quite prepared to have to teach 2 at the same time, so that isn’t the best for me I guess. I don’t blame her though, I mean even now that my sister got her license I am terrified because her road rage is… let’s just say it could start WW3, so yeah. Those trips are fun But like mum why would you develop 2 people in your womb if you couldn’t teach them both to drive? I mean were you not thinking about that?! Absolutely raging. I don’t mind though, except I kinda do, but like I am not even at the legal age to get my license, so I suppose I shouldn’t be complaining, but I am to you guys so enjoy that I suppose. I wonder what the people in the young drivers thing are like. Are they super relaxed and are ready to crash into some sort of building, or do they have so much anxiety of a minor driving a car for the first time that they ensure absolutely nothing happens. What if they have road rage like my sister? I couldn’t be dealing. I also have this thing where I have to say every little thing I am about to do when I am learning something and it is quite embarrassing to be honest. It isn’t until I have perfected it that I stop and even then, if someone is watching, I do it. Like in Ju-Jitsu, whenever I learned a new throw or something, I would be like “ok so punch and then block and turn around, foot there, arm, lean forward, throw, grab wrist and punch ok ” Like I whisper it under my breath so it isn’t even that but what if I sound insane like I am talking to someone and then the instructor is just like “what the fuck” and huddling in the corner just staring at me. I also go really red whenever I do something wrong or am with any living being so he will either think I have stopped breathing, turning into the devil, or turning into baby jack jack from the incredible’s. But it will be fun right?!
Anyways, this post kinda went all over the place, but like I think I might start the podcast I had been talking about because it is much easier to ramble on when you talk than with a computer and it also makes you seem less like a psychopath. I keep saying that I will but then nobody even says anything so I don’t know if you just don’t give a shit or what but I have a tendency to not doing something until someone else agrees with it or replies in a positive way so like if you think I should start a podcast, defo go ahead and comment because I am quite messed up mentally. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
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In the many years of my school life, there are a lot of things I have realised, such as the quiet kids are forgotten and the loud, rude ones are adored. And there are many more, so I want to address some as if I had to tell a teacher what I think. If you … Continue reading What I Wish My Teachers Knew
You have to admit, there are a lot of weird things that we have made as a society and this is kinda just funny to me. I don’t know why though, but like the concept of a bucket list is so weird. We literally plan out a step-by-step guide to what we are going do … Continue reading Bucket Lists… What The Fuck
You have to admit, there is some ridiculous shit out there that has literally no purpose and when you see it you are like “what the actual fuck”. And that shit is me. lol that was just a joke But seriously, there are literally people who make a fuck ton of money off the stupidest … Continue reading Why Do They Even Sell Those! But I Want One…
Hello guys, so I have posted in like two days but don’t worry it was just for my birthday so didn’t really have much time, but I’m back now so we are good to go. And what a better way to get back into things than a weekly reminder you know. I don’t really have a set theme for today to be honest, but I guess I want to make it more motivational this week I suppose. But this is also coming from the least motivated person in the entire world, but I always seem to give better advice to others than I do to myself so lets get into it I suppose.
My school makes all of the 5th years do a careers talk with a career advisor. And during mine he was asking me if I was interested in going to school next year or university. Me being the indecisive bitch I am, I said that I had always wanted to go back to school, but at the moment I don’t know because I don’t have the motivation for it and I kinda don’t know if it is for me (but that is a whole other story). And he told me that he was hearing that a lot from other people in my year, especially during quarantine. He said that our lives have completely been turned upside down and the school state of mind we had built up was completely shot down so it is understandable that we are rethinking these types of things. And that is so true you know. I mean in my most important years of school I barely studied for more than 1 hour that whole year and me being confused is normal. Nobody else has ever been through this type of thing so we, the generation who were previously fucked up, have no guidance and nobody to relate to that actually knows what we are going through. So I guess this information might be better for those wondering whether or not to go back to school, but I will tell you how you can benefit from this if you aren’t going to school or anything like that. I would also like to mention that not going back to school is completely fine and I respect that, so if somebody thinks I sounded like I was being judgmental, I wasn’t trying to be
So now for all those who aren’t thinking about returning to school and just over all have low motivation and confusion about what their future is going to be like. I am going to start of with the cliche “it is totally ok” because honestly it is. I think that after all the shit you have gone through for over a year, or maybe more than that depending on your life, it is your right to feel like you have been knocked of the tracks of life. It takes a very strong person to be unfazed by what is going on because pretty much everything changed in the blink of an eye. I still remember the day that I came home from school and sat down with the news playing on the TV and the whole world was told that we must go into lockdown for the foreseeable future. So in that split second, what was expected to be a week off school, turned into 6 months of complete lockdown. I didn’t step back into school for 6 months and that all changed in one split second. So that is a shit load to process and we had to restart that process every time the news changed and that was literally every day. So don’t beat yourself up for not knowing what to do next. Give yourself the respect and the time you need to process what has happened and move on from there when it is right for you. Although it may seem that we are expected to bounce back from all of this like it is natural, it is totally ok for you to take the time you need to readjust. I am not sure how long that will take for you but it will happen eventually so ride out this wave and don’t try to speed up the process because that won’t be helpful for you in the long term. I guarantee you that you are not alone and I know that if you were to ask someone if they know what they are going to do next or what their future holds, no matter what stage of life they are in, the will most likely say “I have no fucking clue” and that is fine because you can figure it out together. You quite literally have your whole life to figure it out.
I hope this helped you guys out their who feel a bit lost and unmotivated because I know that I do. I am young and still have so much ahead of me which is fucking scary, but we are in this together ok. So please feel free to comment down below how you have been feeling lately and maybe someone will reply saying they feel the same way. Like and follow for more content like this and make sure to look at my other posts which are more comedic and different to this post. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
I don’t know about you guys, but this week has been tough as shit for me. This whole week I have been waiting to post a weekly reminder because there is something I have want to say to you. It’s something that you probably haven’t heard this week, or this month, but I want to … Continue reading Weekly Reminder
Lol, sorry that title literally gave you a seizure but I thought it would be funny for some reason lol. So yeah, all over the world there are sayings. Things that imply something else. But during my hourly existential crisis, I started thinking about talking and then about what we say and how fucking weird … Continue reading Sayings Are Saying Things That Saying Would Be Too Boring To Say
We need to stop misusing our privilege, but we need to start using it effectively I saw a tiktok yesterday. It was a black girl who was talking about the time she was at a peaceful protest for BLM. She said that all the white people there would be throwing rocks and water bottles at … Continue reading We Need To Stop _____ But We Need To Start_____!!
So, it is my birthday tomorrow no biggy. I’m not going to say my age because, despite the fact I may have said before or if you have already made a guess, I don’t really want any 70 year old creepy men popping up in the comments, but anyways. I am at the age where talking about getting old makes me sound like ‘that bitch’ because I am not that old, but I would say that the difference between me now and me when I was pretty much a foetus is quite different and I am wondering if you guys think the same way.
I ain’t gonna lie ok, I like going to people’s birthdays, but when I have to think of gifts or when I have to plan my own birthday, I run out of fucks to give you know. Like so what I was born onto this earth on exactly this day so many years ago, but as far as I am concerned, that isn’t something to celebrate. And I also have a twin which makes it a nightmare because we are literally polar opposites and, luckily we have mostly the same friends, but there are things that I want do and she doesn’t. And eventually it gets to the point that we just disagree with any of the other person’s ideas just out of spite. Like why am I organizing something for my day? But do you know what is fucking hilarious about having to share a birthday with a twin is that, because I am 1 freaking minute younger, my sister would always make the joke that I should do everything one minute after her, and then when we were younger cakes were very confusing too. Not because we shared one but because when we went to visit other family members for our birthday, we would bring other cakes like the classic Tescos ones or the OG Collin the caterpillar. And being the dumb fucking child I was, I wouldn’t catch on that this cake was for us and there were other people who have birthdays around the same time as us. So one day, when I was turning 7 (and so was my twin! What a coincidence !) I saw my dad taking out a cake and some candles and then later on that day they brought it out and I started signing happy birthday because of course. Tell me why my dumb ass thought it was my Granda’s 77th birthday! And then my dad put the cake in front of me and my sister and it took me a minute to click that it had literally been my birthday yesterday and they just got a candle for us each to blow out. How dumb must I have looked to be singing Happy Birthday to myself while looking around looking for the birthday girl or boy. Maybe that’s where my life started going down hill?
What I have also realised is that the excitement for my birthday has really plummeted because back then I would be counting down the bloody minutes until my birthday, but now I really do not give a shit. I never even know what to ask for my birthday and everyone is popping up like “what do ya want” and here I am like “I don’t know! A fucking life?”. I mean there are many things I want that you can’t buy. Maybe a hobby, happiness, excitement! But then you end up with a pair of socks (which I actually do like to be fair but lets just say it for the point of this bit) that I have to be like “ah yes exactly what I wanted”. I also hate opening presents because they are just staring at you and you need to act as though this is the best thing you have ever witnessed in your life while trying to make it not obvious that, although you like it, you aren’t absolutely jumping with joy, you just want to make sure they know that you like it. And then after you open it all you just sit there quietly for a second like 😐 What the fuck do we do now. It’s a whole awkward situation and there is a lot of trying to make it seem like a special day, but in reality I am just glad that there is one year less to go.
What I find funny though is thinking of your age as your level as if you were in a game. Like imagine being like “yes I’m level 26!” That sounds a lot cooler and maybe then older people will be less embarrassed by their age and we won’t have to hear “oooh I’m 25” whenever you ask them what age they are turning. We know your fucking ancient Karen! No need to lie! And it also makes sense because at each level you unlock something new. At 18 you can go into 18 films in the cinema. And when you get to 21 or something, you get student debt! Then when you are around 25-30 you get married and unlock a kid if you want. And you get a mortgage! How fun. And depending on how you live, you may get damage points like “-100 back health” or “+100 obesity”. That kind of thing. Watch the FBI agent in my computer get freaked out like “FUCK THIS BITCH HAS CRACKED THE CODE” LMAO imagine. I wouldn’t care to be honest with you.
But yeah, don’t really know what else to say about birthdays at the moment, I guess you kind of just grow out of them as you get older. You don’t get all excited over the Lego set that you asked for, or the face painters that are coming over tomorrow. Wow, not me literally depressing you all, but anyways I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
Hi, if you don’t know me, I am a straight white teenage girl with no disabilities and just a mental health problem. What does that mean? That means that the only discrimination I have faced is being a woman. Now, there has been problems with sexism at the moment, but over all I have got … Continue reading I Need Your Help
A lot of you are gonna think I am crazy, but then you will realise that I am a genius because it will make so much sense. So just hear me out. Some of these will be obvious, but then others will leave you absolutely gobsmacked. Female=cat Male=dog I just wanted to say that I … Continue reading Things With The Same Vibe
To all you creeps out there that thought of something else when they read this title, go away lol. We are talking about the fact that ANYTHING is better when it is tiny. Even though it is usually so overpriced and a complete waste, they are so freaking cute. Currently, I don’t actually own anything … Continue reading Sometimes Smaller Is Better
This isn’t your regular “get ready with me” bull shit. This is some relatable content. I’m not about to say “I write down everything I love in this world. I smile because life is great!” Nope because who the actual hell even does that? So, prepare to feel stalked because my bedtime routine is going to be the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.
Usually I get ready to get to bed at around 9. Now this doesn’t mean I am about to fall asleep as soon as I hit the pillow, but I get ready to just lie around for the next 2 to 3 hours, as per usual. By 9 I am already in my pjs so that is one thing done and I have also had a cuppa tea so I’m in the bedtime feeling if you know what I mean. I get all the boring as shit done and over with like washing my face and brushing my teeth. But because I am such a pro dentist, I have until it is half an hour since I brushed my teeth because of acid and teeth and all that crap. It does fuck all I think but I feel very… como se dice… grown up. While I am doing those things though, I never want it to be silent, so there is literally a boring ass tiktok video repeating itself like 10 times until I can finally swipe it with my finger. It’s bloody annoying but better than nothing. I also do that when am brushing my teeth which is actually really pointless because I literally can’t hear anything because I have an electric toothbrush but again, worth it. Then after that I usually walk between my room and my bathroom around 9 to 10 times because I always seem to forget something. The amount of times I have forgotten my glasses until the next morning when I am literally blind as a bat is literally embarrassing. Like my brain just doesn’t give a shit by the end of the day.
So when that whole process is over, I switch on the LED lights. I try to keep them fitting with my mood, you know. It hasn’t been on green for a while but anyways, then I am just vibing and trying to get all comfy while I watch more tiktok or just any series on Netflix. Although, it can’t be a scary one because if it is I always feel like someone else is in my bed. That will be quite difficult when I eventually get married and end up punching my husband in the face because I thought he was the green ghost from ghost busters, but oh well, that will be his problem. In all honesty though, why can you never find a comfy position when trying to lie in bed. I mean it is so random because during the night I could be sleeping like a fucking mushed banana and be comfy as shit, but I could be in a normal position while I’m awake and feel like I’m in Shrek’s swamp or something. But anyways, I like to get to that point where my eyes are so heavy I physically cannot open them, but you can also measure it by whether or not you have got to the Indian digger, mansion people on YouTube. I gotta give it to them, they make some good content. But after a few of their videos I know that it is probably best to not get any further. I do wonder what is after that stage. The answer to life? Who knows.
Now comes the time that you turn your phone off. This can really resort in a number of things, let me list them for you.
– Existential Crisis
– Embarrassing moments
– Not feeling tired any more so you roll around for ages
– Going back on your phone because your bored as shit
– Making up a dream world to fall asleep to
I guess that is a few of them, but depending on who you are I suppose there are more. The most rare one is actually falling asleep. For me that stage only comes after completing 3 or 4 of the above. But it’s all a bit of fun. My real genuine question though, completely off topic, is there a quick moment where we suddenly just switch off and we are like unconscious, or is it like a gradual thing because we never know when we fall asleep until we wake up, but yet we witness it everyday. Like isn’t that weird and scary that there is a point where we are now asleep and we didn’t even realise it.
But yeah, I suppose that is my night time routine. I would say I am more of a morning person myself so that is why I am not one of those people that you usually find moving their whole bedroom around during the night. It’s pretty chill I suppose but comment down below what else it is you guys do to get ready for bed. Or don’t, I don’t care tbh. But anyways, I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
Here is the thing with people. Most of them can’t take a fucking hint. Say I wanted to even just go to a park, I could say ‘going to the park now would be fun’ and they would be as clueless as I am during an English test. And now I know that you are … Continue reading Take The Fucking Hint!
I have made a few story times in my blog. Many of which are so bad I will probably never show my face to you guys, ever. But, as I am never going to show my face, I may as well tell you some other times that I want erased from my mind and everyone … Continue reading The Most Embarrassing Moment In Human History
So as a teen going through corona, my list of things I am not bothered to do has pretty much tripled within the fast week, and I’m not angry about. You could blame it on my mental health but you can’t blame it on something that doesn’t even exist any more. So I’m just gonna … Continue reading Could I Be Bothered? #2
Hi guys. This post is quite late but I am sure none of you really care about that. The truth is though, this week has been tough and I don’t want to hide that from you all because despite the fact I usually upload positive content and jokes etc. my life is not perfect. Not one single bit. I just wanted to be honest with you guys because it is ok to have a hard time with things and you aren’t weird for feeling that way. I am not quite sure what to write in the rest of this and I am going to keep it short because, well, long story short, I am very exhausted in more ways than one.
I guess I just wanted to remind you all that social media is the fakest thing on this earth. More fake than that ‘pick me’ girl in the back of your class. Like the pictures you see of men with rock hard abs or girls with the ‘perfect body’ are all utter bullshit. They are put into the perfect position where the lighting is great and the makeup is on point, and then for the imperfections that are inevitable, they are photoshopped. I know you all know this anyway, but it can be so bloody easy to remember. I could look through one person’s Instagram and see how they have the perfect life with a bunch of friends, a massive house, a massive yacht, going all over the world, and at that moment it is as if everything I have ever been told doesn’t count them in it. Every other photo on Instagram is fake, except this one right here. But how? When you say it out loud it makes no fucking sense but when you look at a post, it seems like the truth. And then you scroll on and the same thing happens, and again and again and again. But what we need to ask ourselves is “have we ever seen a picture of someone in their bedroom crying, or someone feeling lonely and lost and depressed?”. That answer is most likely no. And why is that? Well, because that doesn’t get views. It may at one point but it could ruin their whole presence on social media for the rest of their life. If you saw a video of someone complaining about how miserable they were while on a sunny beach in Greece, would you subscribe to them and adore them? Or would you scoff at them and call them entitled. It’s ok if you do scoff at them. It is completely human nature because from the outside they look like pricks. And that is my point. They are fake because they have to, and despite the fact we support those who are open and honest, their career gets shot down when they do.
So don’t get the impression that I am trying to put the blame onto society for being hypocritical or something like that, but I just wanted to remind you that people don’t like to put the sad moments of their life where everyone can see them and they only put the moments online that look like they are having the best day in the world. Even if they are happy in that moment, the next day they could be unable to get out of bed, and so they won’t post anything, and you won’t see that. So no matter how someone looks in terms of their body or their emotion, that isn’t the whole picture. We aren’t shown the whole picture and we may never know, but we need to believe that there is one and that, just like normal human beings, they aren’t perfect and neither is their life so we can’t compare ourselves to that one tiny moment of their lives. You are brilliant, you are much more than anyone knows, nobody should ever underestimate your strength, and you need to understand that everyone is blessed to have you in their life. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
This is the phrase that I get told every single time that I talk about not wanting to get back to school. I complain and to try and comfort me they say, it is only 5 weeks and then you can have summer off. Yeah, that is easy to say when you aren’t in it. … Continue reading “It’s Only 5 Weeks”
I have so much utter crap in so many posts whenever it is clearly a middle aged mum who wants to be “relatable” with her teen children where they literally say that “cleaning your room hits different” or something like that. No. This isn’t cancel culture, but they just need to stop. So in protest, … Continue reading Things That Hit Different – Actually Relatable Edition
This post sounds like it is going to be really sentimental and I mean, I suppose it it, but just let me tell you what the sentence says. So, one day I was walking around town with my friends and we went into this shop just for the lols and then when I saw this … Continue reading A Wise Woman Once Said… and She Lived Happily Ever After
To all my friends out there, I am sorry bitches but like this is my big goal. You are already my whole life so that’s why it isn’t a goal but of course I will still spend time with you. Or I will for as long as my mental state will let me lol. That was totally irrelevant to be honest lol because I don’t think any of them read this, if you do though please comment below lmao, or not because, well, I don’t care 😮 But anyways, I am just rambling so let me tell you what my one goal is for summer. Drum roll please… BECOMING MY OWN BOSS AND NOT HAVING TO GO TO SCHOOL EVER AGAIN IF I DON’T WANT TO. Quite the ambitious one isn’t it. But this summer I have 3 and a half months off for summer so if I work my ass off with my blogs and other affiliate marketing things on the side, surely I can get at least enough money to prove to my mum I can do it.
The other week I was kinda like “I donny know if I want to go back to school for my A levels” and then she was like “ok, you don’t have to” (in the petty mum voice which sends shivers down your spine) “but you have to come up with a plan of action” and I was like “you know what, I will bitch” and so I sat down with pen and paper for a second and then was like “fuck” I have no clue how to bloody get there. But the great thing is, I am young so really I have no financial responsibilities of having to provide for my family and I shouldn’t even have to think about that yet. The thing is though, when I get to A levels I won’t have as much time to do all this stuff, but summer started yesterday for me, so I have all the time in the world (well… 3 and a half months) to be able to reach my goal of financial freedom. And trust me, I am bloody scared that at the end of that time I will be on this blog like “heyyy, so… here’s the thing… BYE” because I can’t really afford to pay for this blog if I have a McDonalds minimum wage, you know.
And I know this sounds like I am about to go into this whole “GIVE ME ALL YOUR MONEY” type shit, but in reality I am only talking about this here because then I will feel like all of you guys are going to judge me if I don’t get it, and you will know about everything I do so I can’t just drop out as though nothing happens. So that is why I am kinda giving this a whole post, not for the charity lmao, but for the pressure :] But yeah, if you could give some motivational speeches in the comments or something that would be great. I know what I want to do to achieve it like, but kinda feel like I will chicken out or just accept I will have to stay at a 9-5 job for the rest of my life. And if by the end of summer I haven’t made my goal, please add some resumes in the comment section because I will need the help. I really do have confidence in myself don’t I.
You may be wondering, “why the hell do you want to make that your summer goal? Why not a hot girl summer or something like that?”. Bitch you obviously haven’t met my pasty ass because I am not attractive or confident enough to do that, so why not just hide away until I have the money to become tan as fuck and get all the babes in Miami instead of bloody Portrush which is teeming with chavs and pedos? I also don’t want to have to live a paycheck-to-paycheck life because that isn’t me. I want to be able to earn passive income and eventually make it so that my parent’s never have to work again, and I can go on holidays and do whatever the hell I want, and also give back to others like actually getting my hands dirty by building schools in Africa or some shit like that. I want to make a change while making money too. And it most likely won’t happen but I am used to disappointments and I already am one so what do I have to loose? Literally nothing. Maybe just some self-respect but I don’t have much of that anyways, so I am going to fucking try because this might be the last chance I ever get. Comment down below if you have any motivation or tips and tell me what your goal for summer is? I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
My last ever GCSE exam (hopefully) is on tomorrow. Pretty freaky. Didn’t really think I would make it this far. I was wanting to do one of the things where it is like after 2 years, 107 hours of study, 20 mental break downs etc. but I can’t add up all of the mental breakdowns I had because it is a fuck tone, while on the other hand, I could count all my study hours on one hand. Why is that literally not even a joke though lol? But anyway, this is serious. I have my biology exam tomorrow and let’s just say it isn’t my strong point, but I am excited to get it done and over with after 5 years of being forced to do it. I am kinda scared, kind of excited, very much exhausted, but I just wanted to make a reminder to all of the people out there who are in a similar situation or are doing something difficult at the moment. You never know, somebody could be reading this in 2050 on mars and they are reading this in their mind thinking it is so retro that I have to use my fingers to type and they are just vibing in some space hope. Either that or WW3 wiped all of humanity out lol. But even if you are that person, I hope this will help you in some way, although isn’t the only problem is the shortage of mums? Mars needs mums sorry that was a bad one I have to admit. This is supposed to be serious actually, but I also wanted to talk about it in another way, through a story. So enjoy.
I am on the first step. You know, the steps you are told to take if you want to succeed. There are only 4 of them which seems easy, but it’s kinda hard. But maybe I am just overthinking these things. The first step, the one I am on, is getting straight A’s in school. That was a hard one to. I had to ignore friends and write lots of notes. I got very little sleep, but I got there eventually. Sure, I lost a lot, but it’s worth it, right? My next step is getting a degree. This one seems fun with the parties and friends, but I can’t quite see why people pay so much for it. I guess I will find out when I’m there. The thing is, step 2 is quite dangerous in terms of survival. A lot of people usually don’t make it past here because of mental problems, some completely lose the degree and go tumbling down the stairs. I have never seen anyone get back up after falling down. But that won’t happen to me. Obviously, it won’t, because I am different. My parents told me so. After you get your degree you can move on to step 3. Or as it better know, the point of no return. Once you get there they don’t let you back down, or at least they very rarely do. What is up there? Oh, a secure job. Or, well, they call it secure, but I have seen lots of people fall down from there. But that won’t happen to me when I get up there. I am going to be so smart and ready, and just like my parents said, I am different. So I am not worried about it. You have to stay there for a while though. Pretty much for the majority of your life. But it’s cool. You can get a family and a house. But that is pretty much it, I suppose.
Then comes the last step. Step 4. That can only happen if you have gathered a good enough pension in step 3. If not, then you are booted down the steps again. I don’t think they do much up there though. It is a lot of waiting to go through the pearly gates at the end. Why? Because the pension they got usually doesn’t leave much room for adventure and by that point, they are exhausted. Who can blame them though, it is an awfully long journey. I am not sure what is past the gates though. People come up with all types of stuff and it is pretty cool. I am looking forward to it I guess. I mean if I went all that way to get there, it better be worth it. But no matter what, I am still on the first step. Just waiting on the cold rock steps. People seem to like it here, but I don’t. I can’t stop getting the feeling that there is something more. I have asked others about it, but they say that is all fake and never actually happens. Especially to people like us. But I swear that at times when I look around, I see other steps in the distance. It just flickers and maybe it is a hallucination, but it seems so real. So fascinating. There are never many people on it though, despite the fact that it looks so much nicer than over here. Every time I see it, it stays for longer and it gets closer. I am fed up with trying to show the others because they make me feel crazy and it makes me move farther away. So I keep this to myself in hopes that someday I get close enough to reach them.
It’s been a week. I am on the 3rd step now. I mean it is fun but it gets me distracted from the other steps. I feel as though I am always looking at what else there is, and not at the next step to success like everyone else. I think I am just dreaming and I haven’t come to terms that this is the best way for me to get to the gates. The way that I can make my parents proud of me and get the right job for a comfortable retirement. It still bugs me though. I mean why, after all these years of being so set on what to do and how I will do it, I suddenly don’t want it anymore. I mean I am fixating on the impossible.
Another week. I have decided that I am going to jump. I can’t bear being on these steps anymore when I know that there is something else out there. At this point, I don’t even care if I don’t find anything because it will always be better than there. I have lost too many people to step 3 and I don’t want to become one of them. I have no skills for this, no knowledge. All of my schooling years have taught me nothing about how to make it to the other steps, so I have to find it on my own. There is no turning back now, but I am going to try everything I can to get to a better place.
I’ve made it! After all the long, lonely weeks, I have found the steps. I made sure to not let it out of my sight. I put everything I had left into getting there and I made it. When I got there, I looked up and my breath was taken away. I finally found where I was meant to be. The steps were nicely laid out, there weren’t as many people, it looked like a steep trek, but each seemed so much better than the one before. The people who fall down a step don’t get stuck at the bottom. They seem to have the support of some kind. I am pretty sure they call it knowledge, or determination, or something along those lines. There are so many more steps, but they get easier and shorter every time you get to the next one. The people look so much happier here than on my other step. Why did nobody tell me about this? Why was I told that the steps to success were over there when the ones right in front of me seem so much better? Well, I guess it is time to find out. It is time to get started.
I am on the first step. You know, the steps that were only in the movies and never talked about. There are many to go which seems hard, but it’s kinda awesome. Maybe I am different after all.
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Anyways, that’s the story. What this kind of means is just that, despite what other’s tell you and what you think is right, there are different steps out there. Despite the fact you might be told it is ridiculous or fake, it is possible. So no matter what happens with your exams, or later on in life, you aren’t useless, these just aren’t the steps for you. But when you find them, you will be so happy and it will be so worth the wait. So take the risk, go against what they say, and it will be so worth it.
Hey guys. So this week has been a very “what the fuck” week if you get me. Like there are a lot of moments where I have been asking myself “what is even the point lol”. NO, I don’t mean that in a mentally ill kinda way, but like when I am told to do things or I see someone doing something, I am just wondering why the fuck I would do it
Do I really need to say anymore? I mean why the hell would I be like “on my time on this earth, I will only feel proud when I can run a fucking long distance”. Bitch what sort of trauma do you have because that isn’t sane people shit. Like I am sorry but why would you want to. You would get so bloody bored as well. So you are sore, tired and bored, I go through that all on a regular bases anyways, so I don’t really see the need to run to get those things. I mean I suppose I could see if it is for a charity, but like Mo Farah and other Olympian people literally do it as a warm up or something. I used to run and do 5k but that shit was so boring and I hated every second of it. To any runners out there, are you ok?
I just know that my friends are reading this like “will this bitch ever let it go” because we are making a bucket list of things to do during summer and a couple of them were like absolutely, camping is such a great idea, and me and others are like “but why”. But like seriously, this needs talked about. Why would I willing sleep outside, in the cold, where there is no body that can hear me scream, no help near, I have to piss in the woods, sleep with insects, get all smelly, have to carry a bunch of things there and back, not have a very nice meal, literally be kidnapped etc. When I could literally be warm in my bed, watching a movie, hear the rain from the comfort of my house, no insects, have nice food, not have to carry anything anywhere, relax, piss in an actual toilet, and have less chance of being murdered in my sleep. Like give me a reason why camping sounds better? There argument was that it is an adventure and unique, but bitch the only thing making it unique is that you won’t be able to do it again because you are dead. Like… And it is hardly like you are going to do anything groundbreaking when you get there. Like you are hardly going to set up a tent on top of dinosaur bones, or right next to a top-secret Russian spy base. Like we live in Northern Ireland. The most you are going to find is an empty Guinness can.
I am definitely not mentioning this just because I never have a chance with going out with anyone, so don’t get that idea in your head But in all seriousness, are you telling me I have to pay attention and talk to them on a regular bases and leave my house? I don’t do that with my friends so why would a man be any difference? I have been in a relationship once and, maybe it was just the guy, but it really ain’t all roses and kisses. Like it is tiring as fuck. Maybe if you find an actual nice person, but like other than that I could not be bothered. I really have lost all faith in men at the moment so maybe I am biased. But at the moment I am fine with just living in my shell, only talking to people when I have an ounce of sanity, and having no real responsibility to go out with people and be interesting. lol
The Responsibilities of Being Famous
I am not gonna lie. I feel like it would be cool to be famous and have a bunch of people who know you and actually like you, but then you hear so many stories and then I am like “ok maybe no”. Like they have to go to award ceremonies, talk to people, act happy all the time, always say the right thing, always have to post and be active on social media and things like that. They all have really busy lifestyles, and for me productive day is having a shower. Like maybe I am just having a mental breakdown, but surely they have them too and they still need to keep on doing so many things. Maybe it is worth it, I will never really know that, but like do they ever just get a day to stay at home and do literally nothing?
Being a Mum
So this one might be a controversial, might get on some people’s nerves, but like if it does you are probably a misogynistic twat so… But what I mean is that, I would like to have children and be a mum, but it is the things you have to do as a mum that gets me. Not even the dirty nappy’s or the no sleep part, but the fact that I feel as though mums are still the people doing all the house work. At least it is like that in my family. My mum has a job, like my dad, but she does more work in the office, at home, does the dishes, makes the dinner, cleans, brings us to and from school, the laundry, literally everything. I am not sure if it is like that for all people but it is for me and although I try to help out, I can’t do enough to help her. My dad just works and does the dishes/makes dinner whenever he actually has to. The reason I said this might be a bit controversial is because some people will definitely say “oh well women are supposed to be in the kitchen. They are supposed to do those jobs” and I am not saying all of these things should be put onto men, but like why can’t it be equal work for both of us. I don’t want to become a mum if it means it will turn into the traditional gender roles in society, you know.
Lol anyways, this is kinda what I think about sometimes. It really got a bit deep at the end there didn’t it but like oh well. Please like, comment and subscribe if you enjoyed this type of content. I think it is a wee bit of a laugh and I enjoy it. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
In the many years of my school life, there are a lot of things I have realised, such as the quiet kids are forgotten and the loud, rude ones are adored. And there are many more, so I want to address some as if I had to tell a teacher what I think. If you are a teacher and you learn from this then you are as good as a teacher who already does these things already. Just because you hadn’t done these before, doesn’t mean you are a bad teacher because if you changed some things then it shows that you actually do care and I respect that so much.
I wish that teachers started to talk more to their quiet students because I am one of them and, although it sounds a bit attention seeking, we have things that we are worried about and need help with, but we are too afraid to ask because that comes with so many repercussions, like drawing attention to ourselves and getting judged or shouted at by the other loud ones. I do understand that a lot of you do try but then because we are a bit awkward and quiet, you don’t really talk to them anymore. And I understand how that must be so awkward for you, but if you talked to us more than just the one time, you would see that we are actually nice people with a lot of things to say, we just don’t have the voice or confidence to say it. I know that for me, it means so much for a teacher to just say hello or just appreciate that we are there because a majority of the time, we get drowned out by the other people who act like complete idiots and are being so disrespectful to you. I just wish that teachers got to know all of their students and understand how they are feeling and what they are getting stuck on because it can be really tiring sometimes when you feel like you aren’t getting heard because despite the fact we stay quiet, we actually have an opinion. And to add to that, make sure that you don’t let the quiet people get bullied especially in your class because it is so obvious sometimes but teachers usually just laugh at them like “boys will be boys”. Showing that you care makes a big difference in our life.
This is such a big one and since somebody mentioned this to me, I have always thought about this whenever meeting a new teacher. Are you a human before a teacher, or a teacher before a human. Now I am not accusing teacher’s of being literal lizards or something, but what I mean by this is, do you empathize with your students and understand that we make mistakes or forget things at times. And maybe you remember that nobody is good at everything so if we are struggling, actually understand and help instead of rolling your eyes like we are a burden. Here is a quick test to see whether you are a human or a teacher first.
- When someone forgets their books do you a) shout at them and give some form of punishment or b) say that is ok and to try and remember next time
- When someone forgets their homework do you a) shout at them and give a detention or b) tell them that is ok and to try and hand it in as soon as they can
- When someone stops doing well in class do you a) embarrass them and make them seem lazy and a failure or b) after class ask them about what is going on in their life they need help with or just anything in class they need help with
- When someone is late to your class do you a) tell them to stay after class and interrogate them for why they are late and tell them to never do it again or b) welcome them in warmly and if it happens multiple times ask them how everything is.
- When someone doesn’t participate in class do you a) put them on the spot or point out their quietness or b) ask them if they are ok or just don’t understand anything
I could go on all day asking you questions like these, but I think we have enough. If you answered mostly a) then you are a teacher before a human. If you answered mostly b) then you are a human before the teacher and I applaud you. When you are a human before a teacher, you are caring and understand students abilities and emotions and you actually care about their wellness and future. But if you are a teacher before a human, you are teaching them that mistakes are wrong and they are going to be useless. You teach them how to live in a military society and make them feel unwelcome and as though they are stupid. So please just know that we are just kids and teens who literally have no fucking clue what is going on or who we are. We have so many things to think about outside of school and just because we don’t do everything perfectly, doesn’t mean we are rude or disrespectful, we just need a bit of time to collect ourselves.
This happened to me just the other day where I was walking down the corridor and this teacher, who had clearly seen me, was walking past. This was an empty corridor, just me and her, and I went as close to the side as I could to be polite because, respect your elders and all that. But she literally barged into me and didn’t move as though I was the problem. Just because you have been on this earth for longer than me, doesn’t mean you can disrespect us. Respect goes both ways, so if you are getting talked over by students or generally not listened to, you probably just need to show us the respect we deserve. Don’t get me wrong, the younger years are bloody annoying so it is ok to put them in their place, but for the older years, we are nearly adults and at this point we are sick of your shit. We aren’t all bloody chavs and literal idiots and we do respect you, but only if you give us the same back. I just find it rude that they think everything they do is right and we are just invisible because we don’t want to be here any more than you do. You chose to be here. You get paid to be here. And all we get is a busy schedule and mental health problems.
The last point that I wanted to mention today was that we actually appreciate some motivational talks, but it just depends on what type of one it is. Now, if you give us the same bullshit as everyone else, like on the first day back when you give us a talk about how we are gonna do so well and that we are going to make this year so great… save your breathe because we have heard that 10 times in one day already. There are some teachers that genuinely are so nice with what they say and you can tell in their voice and the way they look that they do actually mean what they are saying and actually care. These talks are the best, and when said at the right times, can make our day. My English teacher did one today and it did make my day a bit better. It was still a shit day, but not as bad as it could have been. But listen close to this. If you are ever going to make a motivational speech, no matter when you say it, don’t ever diminish what we are going through. This isn’t even just because of corona. This is every time of the year, in any decade, in any month, never make our situation look easier than it seems. I don’t mean that you should just say “your life is shit, school is shit and it will never get better” because we need to know that someone actually has hope. What I mean is that you shouldn’t be like “but if you think about it, you are actually really lucky and your better off than other years because blah blah blah blah blah”. Turn that shit off because I don’t wanna hear it. This happened not long ago from another teacher and I was just looking at her as if she just was mental because who the fuck is she to tell us how we should feel. She literally could have said something like “keep your head up because I am going to get you guys through this and you will do great” but instead you really had to assume what we think and feel. I do not feel luckier than any other years and I most certainly don’t think I got it easier because this has fucking sucked so much and having you put words into our mouths is making this situation feel so much worse. You make us feel isolated or dramatic because we think nobody else feels this way. Try not to be too uplifting with things and think before you speak I guess.
If you are a teacher and you have made it this far, you are a real one. I know that you care and aren’t offended by what I said because it is the truth and you want to help improve your students lives. I really appreciate it if you are one of those teachers because you are going to change someone life. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
A lot of you are gonna think I am crazy, but then you will realise that I am a genius because it will make so much sense. So just hear me out. Some of these will be obvious, but then others will leave you absolutely gobsmacked.
I just wanted to say that I am sorry if this offends anyone. I know there are more genders, but I am only talking about these two at the moment because this is what I think of.
I am not really sure if this is a given to be honest, but it makes sense. Whenever we see a dog we instantly think “what a good boy” and when we see a cat we think it is a girl. If I am being stereotypical, it might be because cats are more poised… sometimes. And they just seem very pretty if you know what I mean, they don’t give a fuck and just vibe. Cats also seem quite smart too. They can’t really do any tricks or anything, but compared to my dog, they are Einstein. They will also throw hands with anyone which is quite iconic. And now to the dogs. I know this is stereotypical again, but like still. Dogs are literally so crazy. They will do the dumbest without even thinking about it. They make friends with everyone, can piss where they want and literally go mad. And from my experience with my dog and men in my life, they will not listen to a word you say and only stay for the food.
Can someone please tell me when the fuck they took the letter y out of the vowels because I swear it belongs there. As I have aged I know that the vowels are AEIOU, but I swear y had been in their. What tea happened between them because whatever happened, I am on y’s side and you can’t change that. The whole English language is so rude for doing that to us. All world problems can be linked to this. It is so aggravating for some reason. Where the fuck is cancel culture when you need it because this monstrosity needs fixed. The funny thing is, when I think of the word vowel, I instantly think of Y but it isn’t even fucking one of them. Well it was fucken one of yaas! Desgustan! Sorry that needed to be said
Guns and America Violence and America
Great British Bake Off and Being Inside On a Rainy Day
Now I would first like to give a shout out to whatever person on tiktok that talked about this because it is relatable as fuck. I did change it a wee bit but it is pretty much the same as hers. It really does though. It is such a cozy and comforting show because they are all nice, it is a cosy set, they bake things and it is something I have watched for while. I don’t even know how I didn’t think of it before but it is so true! The thing that confused me though was that this was said by an American and I don’t know if this is stereotypical but like I thought that Americans were basically shut off from anything non-american and didn’t really watch other stuff lol. But I mean fair enough right.
Being In School After School and Being Cold
You have to admit, whether it is for an after school club or a school play, the vibes where off. It kind of feels like it is a strangers house, but mainly feels cold and uncomfortable. It is scary as fuck right and it felt so wrong, kind of like you broke into someones house. I hate it so much and even when you go back home afterwards, the whole day is just messed up. As though everything is delayed and completely destroyed
Pins and Needles, TV static and Dr Pepper
I don’t feel like everyone will understand the Dr Pepper part, but I remember like 10 years ago I accidentally drank someone else’s drink and it felt like such a weird drink for ages and then 2 years ago someone asked me if I wanted a drink of Dr Pepper and I had never tried it before, so I said yeah. The first sip I had gave me literal flash backs and it was so weird. But it really does taste fuzzy though. You have to admit it. And if pins and needles were a tangible thing, it would look like TV static and taste like Dr Pepper, and that is a solid fact, right?! I also have to say that pins and needles are literally the worst thing and I will also never be drinking Dr Pepper ever again.
This was kind of a weird post and kind of gives me weird vibes but like I kind of was stuck on what to do. I hope this makes sense to someone and please feel free to comment down below if there are any things that have the same vibe. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
I have made a few story times in my blog. Many of which are so bad I will probably never show my face to you guys, ever. But, as I am never going to show my face, I may as well tell you some other times that I want erased from my mind and everyone elses.
This one has literally been burned into my mind and everyone reminds me of it at random moment, just as I forget about it. So it was in first year. I was waiting outside of Latin (I know it sounds so fancy but it was crap) and it was a really busy corridor. And for some reason I was leaning against the wall with my legs out a bit and then I ducking slipped. As is that wasn’t bad enough, it was in front of a bloody teaser and they just looked at me with disgust and was like “get up of the floor”. So as if it wasn’t embarrassing enough being a first year, I had to slip in front of everyone smh
Right, so when I was younger, maybe p7 or something, I did karate. I was a proper pro so I went to competitions and at one point you had to fight someone, with gloves obviously, but that’s besides the point. So my coach was like, can you fill in for someone in their fight, and I was like of course because 1, he could literally beat me up and 2, it was fun. So here I was walking to the fight and I was like where is everyone? I look down and there they were. Literal foetuses. I looked at my mum like “is this even fucking legal” and it was so bad. I could have inialated them, but I had no clue what to do and it was so crap. I quit not long after that lol
The Tea Was Too Hot
This moment was literally so painful. So my mum made us go and meet her cousin when I was like 12 or something. I was so awkward as a kid but when she asked me about my teachers I was now a literal extrovert because there was finally something I could say about. There was this teacher that was really strict and that people were scared of, it was a Latin teacher actually, and I was telling her about the teacher. She looks at my mum and goes “ THE *teachers name*” and my heart dropped. Tell me why, out of the billions of people on this earth, this bitch had to be the teachers stepdaughter. So I just told her that everyone was scared of her mum. I can never forget this.
Zoom Call Disaster
Here I was, another day on online school. It was the last lesson before we got of for 1 week. So k was excited and exhausted you know. And by this point I was sick of the awkward silence whenever she asked something so I was like, I’m just gonna get this I over with. So I waited for someone else to go first and then I eventually spoke. No joke, someone else spoke at the exact same time as me, so it was just a second of us speaking over each other and I died inside. And I never spoke on zoom again.
Goodbyes Are Always Difficult
I think this was like 5 years ago, but I had been part of a club called ‘Guides’ with my friends. For Americans, it is basically girl scouts but sexist. They taught us to like clean and cook you know. But yeah, we wanted to quite, so at the end of our last guides holiday, they were asking us what we wanted to do in guides next year and we were like, we are kinda going to quit. Let’s just say our timing was not good because they talked to us for ages and we had to spend the rest of that day, and the hour car ride home, listening to their passive aggressive comments. What made it more embarrassing was that when they were asking us if we were leaving, I was like “well we are thinking about it but probably we might 100% be leaving”. Why am I such an awkward bitch?
Anyways, that was embarrassing so please feel free to comment if something similar has happened to you or whether you have other embarrassing stories. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
Hey guys, another week has gone by and for a lot of us, we may be going back to school next week. Well, I am anyways. I have a total of 18 exams in the next 5 weeks, all which goes towards my GCSEs (aka decides my future) so to say I am scared would be an understatement. Have I revised? No. Will I revise? I have no clue bitch. But I guess I just want to make this weekly reminder about the fact that, just because you are finding revision and school hard to get done, doesn’t mean you are lazy or dumb. Here’s what I mean
For the past year we have been chucked left and right, up and down, with no support or recognition. Yes, the government say they “understand” us, but they fucking don’t. Yes I can hear that they seem sympathetic, but answer me this, what have they done about it? What teenager have they seriously talked to about how they have been affected? What have they solved? Well, for the UK, the answers are, they have brought all the exams forward with little understanding of what we are being tested on or help with the topics. They have asked no teenager about their feelings and have just went off of stereotypes like “the reason they are struggling is because they are on their phone all day” or “they just don’t like school and that is why they are failing, they need to grow up”. And to answer, what have they solved… I have no fucking clue. I guess they are trying to give us a fair shot on predicted grades. Oh wait, but they gave us no warning of tests, with little preparation while a lot of us are in an unhealthy mental state. Hmm, I guess they eventually got us all back into school. Oh, but we have been bombarded with work and stress and little time to breather or settle in. You see, the thing with our generation is that we don’t openly show our emotions, or at least not in a way other generations would understand. I don’t know about everyone else, but for me there is a bad stigma around struggling mentally and when we speak up about an issue, it is seen as “disrespectful”. Then when everything gets to much and a tragedy happens, they wonder why we didn’t speak up and so they have an assembly. Then the cycle starts again. We miss a homework, the teacher gets mad, we tell them it is because we are struggling, they ignore us, something bad happens, they never learn from their mistakes.
You see, when you miss a homework, or when you don’t have the energy to revise, it is OK. And I don’t care what your mum, dad, carers, teachers, anyone, says because they have no fucking clue what is going on. Not the faintest fucking idea. And I have no clue what your situation is right now, but I know that there is something going on in your life. Whether it is just Corona or something else, you have something going on and I hear you. Don’t let anybody make you feel weak for the way you feel, or downplay the severity of your problems because it is not your fault and you need to know that. Shit happens, but for you, too much shit has happened. I am sure missing homework or failing exams is the least of your worries and that is just how these feelings are being expressed. Yet nearly every teacher is blind to that fact. They don’t see you thoughts, they don’t know your story, they don’t see the real you. So no matter how much they harass you, just understand this isn’t your fault and I am not gonna promise you it will get better soon because I don’t fucking know. I sure hope it does, but I can’t promise that. All I can say is that you aren’t alone. You have your whole class behind you, you have me behind you and no teacher can fully understand what you are feeling at the moment. Maybe you don’t even understand, that’s ok though. Life has been changing every single day since the beginning of 2020. News changes, families change, school changes, our routine changes. And just when we feel a bit settled in to one way of life, it is shifted. I know that for me, one of the many reasons I struggle with doing things such as homework or studying is because I feel as though it is going to change, as though I will start to revise and it will all be cancelled. As though I will have to go through all the mental pain of school and then all the mental pain of realizing it was all a waste. These past years have been filled with so much pain and we just don’t want that to continue any longer.
So, if you were to take one thing from this post, let it be the power to not let people make you believe that you are just lazy and that you are overreacting, but that you are confused and tired or the changes and pain. You are so strong and not doing homework doesn’t diminish that. Don’t let ANYBODY tear you down or make you feel less of yourself. Do you realise how much you have gone through to get to this moment? It is amazing how you have made it this far. Nobody knows your journey apart from you, so don’t let them write your future. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
If you don’t live in NI at the moment, the weather has been fucking crazy. No joke, two days ago here was my pale ass out in the sun BOILING, and today I built 3 snowmen and a snowdog. Call me Jesus because I made some pretty good people. Sorry if that was offensive But it do be crazy like. But jokes on my English teacher, pathetic fallacy is fake, I was depressed in the sun and the snow, so… Ha 😐
But yeah, I swear mother nature is on her period or something because these mood swings are something else. But at least she has a heated pillow, global warming. It do be kinda weird to think of it like that. SOMEBODY GET THIS WOMAN SOME CHOCOLATE. I really do be stereotypical with all this period shit but at least I am not an ignorant man.
The thing is though, despite the fact the weather has changed so much, they have been the 2 best types of weather. I got to go out to town without a cost, in a cute outfit and enjoy being outside. And I got to bring out my inner child in the snow. Good times I suppose. She really did us a solid because imagine if it was just sleet and coldness. I mean the audacity of it being snowy but only lies as sleet. And the audacity of it being blue skies but cold as fuck. That’s how you know mother nature is a petty bitch lol. Same though 😮
Do you know what weather literally makes me feel physically sick?! Whenever the sky is so grey it may as well be the queen, but there is a gap which lets out so much sun and the vibes just don’t match. The AUDACITY! It just doesn’t make sense and kinda ruins my day, ah well.
When I am older I defo want to live somewhere warm because, to be honest, the NI weather just ruins it. Maybe not America, for… reasons, but maybe somewhere like Spain. I kinda live there already, just without the S. LOL I swear that is a a joke, I’m ok. But yeah, I don’t really know what this post is about really but you just read it all so I guess we are both bored as fuck. Kinda just commenting on the weather and the fact it has as many mood swings as me, but hey, us girls gotta stick together.
Please like and subscribe if you liked this post and I swear not all of it is based of awkward small talk LOL. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
So here we go with a new series where I tell you whether or not I could be bothered with certain things going on in the world. Don’t worry it will be exciting.
First things first. What has been going on in the world? Despite corona of course because I mean I am so over that. So I guess I can’t be bothered. Anyways, what about…
Now, I am not trying to get all political now. I’m talking about Easter egg hunts and all that type of stuff. I am 15 right now, in that “awkward” phase, if you will. Now here is a question for you? Are Easter egg hunts still suitable for teens? The answer is FUCK YEAH, I’m gonna be bunny hopping this bitch if I need to. My mum had the audacity not to make one this year. So, could I be bothered with Easter? Yes. Normalise enjoying the childish things in life. I mean I can’t wait to have kids so that I can go on Easter egg hunts or trick or treating without it looking weird. I’m gonna be the one begging my child to watch blood Frozen. Childhood rules. So yeah, I = bothered.
You guys already know the answer to this one. HELL NO. I don’t need a class to tell me how to overthink every little word because that is in my genes bitch. These teachers also don’t even do there job. They just stand in front of the class waiting for us to explain a word we haven’t even heard before. These bitches be learning from Dora or some shit. Instead of asking “what is your name” and waiting 10 minutes, they be asking “WHY is your name” and waiting 10 minutes. What the fuck does that even mean? I guess Swipper took all the fucks because I can’t give one. I = unbothered
What I mean by this is the questions mums and dads ask that make it seem like you have a choice but there really isn’t. I mean just tell me to do something and, yes I will complain, but like then you are just being honest with me which is better ya know. I can NOT be bothered with the let-down when you say “it wasn’t a question”. I think the fuck it was. You had a “can you” at the start of the sentence which, if I remember correctly, signifies a question. So just get the pain done and over with. I = unbothered.
Now, I don’t want to seem rude but like I never know what to get anyone and I hate having to think of something suitable for the person and for the amount of time we know each other. The worst thing is buying for boys because there is literally nothing I can get them that they don’t already have. Although the good thing is, the only boy I have to get gifts for now is my dad so it is all good. But yeah, over all, gifts are stressful as fuck and I would prefer to show them what they mean to me in a different way. Can I be bothered? No.
Yes, I am a teenage girl, and yes, I don’t like clothes shopping. I mean if you think about it, it is boring as hell. All the clothes now a days are so… out there, and I am not a very out going person so I don’t like to wear clothes that are adventurous. Wow, everyone reading this definitely now thinks I am a hermit crab… but you can’t prove that 😮 Now, don’t get me wrong, I do like me a few new clothes, but when I have to go and find something I just can’t find something I actually like and then I get exhausted and in the end it is just my mum throwing stuff in the basket that my 8 year old cousin would probably wear. I prefer to buy clothes if I haven’t planned it or if I am just on a wee trip with the mates, ya know. So yeah, I could not be bothered.
My sister’s are very… opinionated. They don’t take shit from nobody and always speak there mind. Which is a good thing, don’t get me wrong. I mean I respect that. The thing is, I am not. I don’t like to argue with people for reasons and I just agree with them, to an extent I guess. There are things I am concrete about and I will body slam people if they disagree. But no, if I said something I found out and they were like “that’s not true” I would be like “oh ok then” and move on. Or if I liked someones music and they were like “that is utter crap” I would be like, yes it is, and never listen to it again. So yeah, arguing is not my cup of tea. UNBOTHERED.
LOL so these are just a few this I wanted to say in this. These weren’t really about current events, but I could not be bothered. Yup, you got another one. I’ll see what I can do for you next time though. Comment below if you agree with any of these or if you have anything else that you can or can’t be bothered with and maybe I will mention them in my next post 😮 Please like, comment, and subscribe if you liked this content. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
The point of this blog is to make people not feel so alone in this world and I really didn’t know if I wanted to share some of these stories because I feel embarrassed but I need to do it I think. I need to fulfill the aim of the blog so here it goes
When I was younger I was obviously a tomboy. And during Halloween I was like I don’t want no cat costume, I’m gonna go out. It was my friends birthday around this time as well so I was excited for her party. I got this costume and I was like damn I am so cool. When I turned up to her house there were other people there literally just in normal costumes and here I was dressed like this
This isn’t even a joke bitch. I really thought I was doing something and in reality I just looked like a literal freak. So yeah that was something. I am forever scared and embarrassed but yeah I mean I- I don’t know what to say.
IT’S NOT A PHASE MUM
Yeah, so I am not gonna show you guys a picture of this because I have tried to burn all of this period out of my brain, although I do have one memory saved because it was a part of identity ya know. This was like 4 or 5 years back when I was still pretty much a tomboy. Everywhere I went, I saw famous people, like Jade from little mix, wearing flat caps. And I was like ‘that is THE coolest person ever, I can defo pull that off’. No. NOOOOO I could not pull that off. But for so long I was like YES I am an ICON. I am not saying that flat caps aren’t nice, I am just saying that I do not suit hats at all lol. And it is so funny because I had a really old one that was from like ‘no fear’ or whatever that brand was called. And I remember I was like ‘this hat is life changing’. I mean I wasn’t wrong but it changed it for the worst. When I wore it I thought I was so grown and I was like this hat really means I have no fear and I thought I was so cool now because I had ‘no fear’. My parents were probably like, this bitch really thinks shes so cool now. I did… unfortunately
Where the hell is my family
I am pretty sure I said about my family loosing me before but this is a whole other time, you would start to think they are doing it on purpose *laughs awkwardly* 😐 Anyways. I strangely remember this as though it was yesterday. I was waiting in line at Disney Land in France and we were going to go on the tea cups. I must have zoned out for a while but I swear I looked away from my parents for a second and the next they were just gone and here I was, a literal FOETUS, and I was just staring up at these 2 absolute strangers. I started panicking and my mum had said if I ever got lost, all I had to do is stay where I was and they would come get me. But then I saw them literally 50 people ahead of me and I was like thank fuck. So anyways, I just walked past all these people so awkwardly because I was quite socially awkward among new people, and i finally got to them. Then my parents had the AUDACITY to be like “what’s wrong”. They didn’t know I was gone! Tee hee. But then they continued to tell me I should have stayed were I was and I was like “maybe you should keep track of your bloody children woman!”, in my head obviously. The thing that makes me laugh though is the fact that all those adults just walked past as if I wasn’t a literal five year old with no parents, staring into the obis. Love to see I am seen.
This happened when I was like 9 or 10 maybe, I don’t know. But here I was just cycling around the street by myself for some bloody reason and then I fucking fell off it in front of one of my neighbors house. I had like 0.1 muscles at the time and somehow the bike ended on top of my legs or something and being the dramatic bitch I was I was like crying because I hurt my knee and I couldn’t get up. The neighbor ends up going out to help me and I was terrified, one, because it was embarrassing, and two, this guy was kind of creepy but yeah he had to get the bike off me and bring me home. That was scundering and I hate myself for it.
This wasn’t that long ago actually. I actually want to curl up in a ball when I think of this but I really hope that somebody has done the same. So I was in a running club, the worst year of my fucking life, and that is saying something. But this was one of the first time I had gone without my mum and everyone else there was an adult so I didn’t really talk to them which was fine but I didn’t want them to think I was a literal freak. Then, after the run, they found a lost jacket and they were like does anybody own this jacket, and nobody answered. Then they were like ‘does somebody just wanna have it’ as a joke, not expecting a response. I thought this was the perfect time to make a joke or something and I knew that that was the type of thing my mum would make a joke about or something because it was a crap joke but she knew everyone there. So there I was and I shouted out ‘I will’. Thinking someone would laugh. Absolute silence. Not a peep. A few people just looked back at me and I was like why the fuck did I just say that out loud. My heart literally dropped and I just wanted to sprint outta there. I don’t think I can ever recover from that to be honest.
Well, that is enough torture for today I think. That was so utterly painful to type but I hope that somebody else relates to any of these. If you do please comment below because I feel like such a freak right now to be honest. The thing is, this isn’t even the worst of them. I will save that for some other day after I recover. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
I don’t know if it is because my older sister judged me for everything or if society has raised me to be a ‘follower’ but i get embarrassed by a majority of things. But the thing is, I won’t find it embarrassing for anyone else who does it. For example, I think it would be so fun to start a tiktok because at the moment I feel like I annoy my friends on my private story by adding to many skits. But the thing is, it is NOT socially accepted in my school or by my sister so I don’t do it. But then when I see anyone else on tiktok I think they are the coolest people so yeah LOL
This blog has been the biggest jump out of my comfort zone to be honest and I only did it because, 1- you can’t see my face (I hope) and 2- I haven’t told anyone about it :o. But I found that I really enjoy it because it is just a wee way to get my head outta the shed if ya know what I mean. But yeah. I am quite chuffed to do something public. I also actually created another blog LOL which is more for making money online, it is called affiliateen, so you can go check it out or whateva. So here I went from not doing anything out of the norm, to having 2 blogs. Yes it may seem small, but it seems cool for me.
I feel like the next big step for me would be making a podcast. I really want to make one and I think it would be bloody fun but the thing is, you would hear my voice. This will be troublesome because someone might recognize me and I hate my voice lol. The good thing though is you can’t see my face. I don’t think that will ever happen unless I become famous or something. Sia? Minus the ablest part tho Yeah I don’t know if I should have joked about that but she is a wee bit of a cheeky fuck for being one. And I’ll say it again PERIODT.
Where was I going with this? Oh yeah, so I think that everything I do is embarrassing but if someone else does them it isn’t, meaning I don’t do stuff that I really want to because I don’t want to be bullied. I think it would be fun to do TikTok, have a YouTube channel, a podcast and more stuff like that but I don’t know. It do be like that tho. So yeah, I have another blog you guys can check out and I know this post isn’t very inspiring but maybe if you guys want a podcast enough then I will make one for you guys 😮 But please be yourself guys. I know I don’t listen to this myself but you are the BADDEST bitch out there and you can do whatever the hell you want ok? Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
Hey guys, so listen, I know that for a lot of us out there, this week has been so fucking tough and I know that you don’t have the words or the energy to explain how you feel but I have an important message that I really want you to hear and I promise I will keep it short.
Whenever you tell someone ‘I am really tired and struggling this week’ and they say ‘yeah everyone is at the moment’, I just want you to know that, although it is true, that doesn’t take away the fact that you deserve to get help with your thoughts. Just because a lot of people are struggling, doesn’t mean that that makes your situation any less because it still affects your life just as much as before. You need to focus on yourself and realise that it is ok to not be ok as long as you get help. Don’t think that it is ok to struggle like you do now because ‘everyone must feel the same way’. That is there problem and the only person you need to take care of right now is yourself because you can’t give all of your love to someone else because then what are you left with.
It is like when you are on a plane and they say ‘in case of emergency, oxygen masks will fall from the ceiling. Put your mask on before you help others’. So in life that means that you need to help yourself and make yourself safe before you should start helping others because, if you don’t, then who know what will happen to you. You matter most ok and I never want you to forget that. So yes, others do struggle but you deserve just as much help and support, your thoughts matter and you deserve to live better than this.
Thank you guys for reading this and I hope it helped some of you to remember this because it is so important to know at this point. Please take care of yourself and know that you mean so much to the world. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
I am going to sound like the most introverted person in the world in this post but I swear that I have my reasons. First of all, let’s get something out there. We need to normalise having a people free day. This is one of the hardest things about going back to school because you literally cannot just answer someone 1 hour later because you can’t be arsed, well unless you want to be rude, but I mean no judgment here.
I love my friends so much and they are the best people in the world, but do I also leaving the group chat for a few days and then pop in one day just to say ‘lol’… yes. And I don’t even care because there are just days (everyday) where I just really do not have the power to carry a conversation because I have no clue what to say and I also just can’t be bothered. And it has absolutely nothing to do with the person either. Like, in no way is this personal. It’s not you, it’s me. But I seriously have no motivation to keep texting stuff, it is effort you know. Please tell me someone else feels this way though because I sound like a mean person whenever someone is like ‘um, I don’t do that, I like talking to people’.
The thing with school is that there is always that class where you sit next to the person that you aren’t friends with but also talk a tiny bit and then all you say to each other is ‘I am so tired’. I hate it so much! The awkwardness is like no other and I really do not appreciate it one bit you know. But on Instagram or tiktok you can literally have the most engaging conversation with a few funny videos and a like. To be fair I don’t mind those, it is just the snapchat I can’t deal with. I have stopped sending streaks which really was a struggle because I had sent them for so long, but as all things do, it had to be put down you know. It was a phase I never want to go through again because I don’t know how the hell I had the effort to do that everyday.
Can I also mention the voice notes the teacher’s send to you on google classroom. Why the FUCK are they so frightening. Like I actually start shaking and my heart is beating so fast because I feel like they are actually talking to me and as though I should be answering. It is so freaky and I am just here like ‘don’t shout at me please’ and just waiting for something bad to happen like maybe if I have completely failed them or something. I don’t even know how to explain it but it is just so intimidating. It isn’t even really a social situation but it had to be said to be honest.
Anyways, today was just a cheeky wee rant because I really just needed this to be said and I hope I find someone else relates too. I mean socialising really is tiring and the fact I actually have to answer people right away is NOT ideal. But yeah, like and follow if you liked this content. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.
Good morning guys. Today is the day I go back to school after 3 months of online lessons and to be honest, nothing could get worse than this moment. As soon as I got up, I got changed into my school uniform and I almost broke down. Why? Because my uniform is tight on me. It is so frustrating and I felt trapped and nearly just decided to go back to be and just sleep for the rest of the day. But then I thought, maybe if I write it down here, I will get it off my chest and maybe someone will feel the same way and we won’t feel as isolated.
I hate my body and I have for a long time. Sadly a lot of people can understand that and they feel the same way. I always feel like someone is always looking at me, judging me, and can tell every time I gain a bit of weight. It is always my stomache, my legs and my arms that I get most stressed about. And my face too but that would mean I could have just said my whole body but I didn’t so here we are now. Anyways, back on topic. My skirt feels really tight around my waist and I just can’t stop thinking about every little thing and feeling ashamed of myself. The thing about me, and maybe you guys too, is that I can give advice to everyone else, but none of that is being listened to by me because I just think it doesn’t apply to me. It sounds ridiculous, this applies to everyone in the world but me. So I thought that I would type out what I say to others and maybe I will believe some of it… maybe.
So what I would remind someone is that firstly, their body is absolutely perfect, and then I remind them how much their body has gone through. Everyone’s body has changed in some way, no matter what, because we have been in a flipping global pandemic. The fact that you may feel different in someway is completely normal because we have been through so many changes and so many stressful moments. The motivation to do some things is absolutely demolished so how would we expect anything else. And the truth is, nobody will actually notice that you have changed, and if they do they won’t judge you because they understand at least a part of what you have gone through because they went through it too and have probably become uncomfortable in their own body too.
What I also want to make sure everyone know is that if anybody ever mentions anything about your weight, they are not worth the worry. They are people who are jealous of you because they also feel uncomfortable with who they are. And that isn’t an excuse what so ever, but I mean that they do not deserve your presence in their lives. Don’t think of it as ‘I am so much less than them and I am worthless’, try to think of it as ‘they don’t deserve my time and I don’t want to be with someone who only sees people for their looks and not for their actual personality’. And I know that is way easier said than done, but try to at least remember this and maybe some day in the future, it will stick with you.
So to conclude this, I know that you are really struggling right now and that is ok but just know that this is totally normal and you are so strong for getting this far. I am really proud of you and it will get better. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
Hi, today is more of a serious blog, so no jokes, just me. I have my first day back in school tomorrow, like literally in the building. And just like last time, I really am not prepared to go back. I am finally comfortable with online school and I don’t think I can cope with all the pressures of school life. I know that there are so many people excited to be socializing again, but I was happy with where I was, or at least I could cope with it.
Next week I will be having tests pretty much everyday and they will be going towards my final GCSE but I have not revised at all for them. I realise in my brain that these are important and I can’t just forget about them but I physically can not bring myself to revise. I am just not in that mindset and I physically can not get myself into it. This isn’t just a case of laziness and procrastination as all the parents will think, but it is a struggle. I am so terrified for these exams and what they will mean to my future but I don’t have the power to get myself into revision. The thing is, when I revise I get into such a bad state of mind and it destroys me, but when I don’t I just crumble out of fear because I have no clue what to do.
I was that person who always got good grades in class. The one who everyone would call a ‘sweat’, so you are probably all like ‘well you will still be getting an A so get over it’, but I am not one of those people who are naturally smart. I have to revise so much just to get close to the grades of my friends who barely revise. One time I didn’t revise for a test and I failed. I am so terrified of that happening but I can’t start to revise. I don’t know where to. Everyone seems like they have it figured out but I am so lost. I have no clue what will happen, I have no clue what I will do when I get bad grades. How am I supposed to compose myself in class when I have a panic attack at the thought of these tests?
For those not living in the UK, the government have cancelled our formal exams ‘for our mental health’. And what they decided to do instead was just move them forward. So now we have to do the same amount of revision in less time which has fucked my mind so much. I have no clue what to think and there are just points where I get so overwhelmed that I just freeze. They always say ‘we know how you feel’, ‘we know you are under a lot of pressure’ but they don’t because if they knew even a fraction of what we felt they would be doing so much more despite the fact that most of them are heartless.
I have been taught all my life that I am a smart, gifted child who needs to get all As if I want to succeed in life. So I got in a rhythm. It was a bloody stressful one, but I revised, got the grades, did the work, had no social life, and I was miserable but I got what everyone expected of me. But now I have lost that all and I shake with fear that I might let everyone down. I have already let myself down but I can not let my family down. They do so much for me and they encouraged me to do so well in school but I can’t make them proud anymore. I hate school and I never want to go back but I feel if I leave they will look down at me and I will fail them.
I am so scared but I wanted to share this to show that you guys aren’t alone. Life is so fucking tough for teens at the moment and nobody fucking cares, so please, if you can, share this will everyone you know. Get this message out there because it may not changing anything but I hope to god that the right person sees this and they wont feel as lonely as I do right now. I love you all. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
I am going to tell you something that everyone knows but doesn’t realise. This fact is that we all live on this floating rock that we call earth. And I know that you have all probably been told that nothing even matters anyway, but that is not always a great way to look at it. So here is my perspective.
Despite the fact that we live in a rock and missing a homework probably doesn’t matter, I still get worried about that stuff and I think I always will. But what I like to think is that these worries will someday go away and never be remembered again. Like, some day in the future it will be a memory and it most likely will not have impacted my life at all. To be fair, this is easier said than done, and I am still trying to understand this statement, but it is true. You can still get worried about the little things because it is hard to get rid of them, but at least we have the knowledge that this will pass and nobody will even remember that moment in class that your voice broke or when you leaked on your period.
Have you heard the story about that man from a couple hundred years ago who accidentally tripped someone up? No, neither have I. It probably did happen but nobody talks about it because it is so insignificant. To be honest, a majority of the time only we remember the embarrassing things that we did. Saying that the things we do wont be remembered is a really depressing thing to think about, but if we flip it to our advantage then it becomes an opportunity. If someone thinks ‘nobody will even remember the fact that I am in this play, why should I bother with any of this?’, then you need to tell them ‘exactly, eventually nobody will remember it so you might as well give it your all because in the end nobody will talk about it and you never know, maybe you will give everyone a reason to remember it because of your great performance’.
I always find that, for me, I only really remember the good stuff and whenever I see someone embarrass themselves, I forget it. And I think most other people think the same way. Because I mean anytime we do something embarrassing we think ‘I am so weird nobody has ever done anything as embarrassing as this’, but the truth is that we just haven’t heard of it because it is so unimportant. They only broadcast the successes which can be down-heartening for us as we feel like less than others, but we need to know that they might have had a million failures in between those achievements. We always feel isolated when we get embarrassed and that isn’t our fault, we have just been shielded from the embarrassment of others because it really does not matter.
So to conclude, I guess I just want you all to remember that it is ok to still get these thoughts and worries, just always have it in the back of your mind that you are the only person rethinking all of your failures and that in the future it will never even be mentioned.
Thank you so much for reading. I hope this meant something to you guys and helped you in some sort of way. I would also like to share that I have made another website called Affiliateen which is about different ways you can make money online, so you can go check that out if you are interested. Please like, comment and follow if you enjoyed this post. Hope you have a great day, stay safe, and stay yourself PERIODT.
There are a lot of common things people get annoyed at, whether that is just having to sit around all day or the WiFi not working, just stuff like that. I am not talking about these things today, I am talking about the little tiny things that others may not notice, just like one of those tiny flies that fly around your face while you are talking and you just can’t stop getting distracted by it.
Silent But Deadly
I know what this title makes you think of, but that isn’t it. What I mean by it is that I hate it when there are certain teachers who ask a question and go quiet for way too long. Nobody is answering and nobody know who is about to start talking first. Maybe nobody will, but that is even worse. There are three ways this can end. 1, you speak first. Nobody else talks and you get it right. Well done you, you stopped the bomb. 2, you start to talk, but so does somebody else. You both stop starting and stopping to talk at the same time, just that little sidestep you do when trying to get past someone. You never speak on zoom again in fear of this happening. 3, nobody talks, the teacher waits longer, still nobody talks. Suddenly, you find yourself in deep shit. The teacher is shouting, complaining about everything going on in their life. Their marriage, quarantine, drinking problem. They stop. Everyone leaves. So yeah, a majority of the time, it is not ideal. I hate the silence with a passion.
Sweet Or Sour
Right, this is literally the most annoying ever. This is when the teacher’s are trying to act nice but everyone can tell they couldn’t give a shit. To be fair I don’t blame them, but passive aggressiveness annoys me in general. Like they just be staring at the camera and you can see it in their eyes that they are ready to slap us all, but they have ask a question like ‘hope you guys are all ok’. Oh my god, or they like ‘just text if you want me to help you with anything’ but you can tell they will give you fuck all if you ask them. The last example of this is also when we have had quite a quiet class, so everyone is a bit on edge, and then at the end of the class they say ‘has anyone got anything to ask’ and then time just stops. We all have our mouse on the end call button, even the teacher, but she just stares as if we have literally failed her as a class. She is as close to giving up as she is to the camera. Just their face staring. It do be giving me nightmares. Yeah, that kind of passive aggressiveness just gets to me :O
*crickets* THANK YOUUUUUU
Ok, so I guess this is nice for the teachers, but this is when the class is so quiet the whole time and then the teachers say ‘bye’ and then there is a long silence when everyone stays on the call waiting for one person to say ‘thank you’. Then everyone erupts and says THANK YOU at the exact same time. I do feel kind of bad if we don’t do that I guess, but the thing is, nobody wants to be the first person so you are just waiting there awkwardly and then all of a sudden your ears are blown off. I just can’t deal.
The most important thing is _/\/\/\_ is that all OK guys?
Just ignore my attempt of trying to portray a glitch through a keyboard. And to be fair, this kind of a big thing that happens to probably everyone, but… get over it, this is my blog. LOL anyways. You could have been sitting through a whole bloody lesson just for this one piece of info that you need and then that is the moment that they glitch. You just waiting for it and all of a sudden, BOOM, WiFi is non-existent. Yes, I probably could just ask for her to repeat that. Will I know? No. Why? Because then the exact same thing I explained in the first example will happen, and I am still recovering from last time. I mean maybe the thing she said wasn’t that important, right?
Time is Ticking Bitches
In our school, our classes are only supposed to be 45 minutes each to give us time for any technical difficulties and stuff like that. Now lets play a bit of ‘never have I ever’. Never have I ever finished class in 45 minutes. Never have I ever not been rushing to go onto my next class. Never have I ever had my class run into break and lunch time. Oh wait! I have actually. The only thing getting them away from it is the fact they are my favourite teacher. And every single time they keep saying ‘I am conscious of the time guys, don’t worry’. Umm, I don’t think you fucking are because the time is ticking. And then they keep going on with other questions and it is so dragged out because nobody answers and then they do a massive conclusion and then there is the whole bloody awkward THANK YOU thing at the end even though we have nothing to be thankful for!!!!
What Is Time Anyways
On the topic of time, I don’t think that the teachers really realise that the timetable is still a thing. They be starting and finishing these lessons as though they themselves are literally time. They also forget that, just because we at home, doesn’t mean we have more time for work. They be like ‘here is a big pile of homework’, we all panic but she says ‘don’t worry, I know it is a lot’, relaxing, then ‘I am setting it for tomorrow instead of the end of the day’, PANIC. They really woke up and chose evil.
Thank you so much for reading, I hope you enjoyed and this actually makes sense for some. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
Hi guys! You made it through the week! I am so proud of you. That week was a bloody roller coaster with all the things about the royalty and the world in general. If you live in the UK you will know that Piers Morgan has left ‘Good Morning Britain’. To add to the good news we also have less corona deaths which is a great thing. So yeah, I am so proud of everyone for actually making it to this post. Thank you for being here.
So what I thought would be a good weekly reminder for this week is to make sure everyone knows that they deserve happiness. Yup, this is something that a lot of people find really hard to accept, me included. And I am not gonna go give you ‘Ten Top Tips To Love Yourself’ because, firstly, the advice is utter crap, they literally say to get a bath and get over it. Secondly, I am no professional, so if I was to go out here and give advice, it would end very badly.
In my experience, I always questioned ‘why do I deserve to be happy while there are people out there who are doing so much worse than be’. I felt as though I was being selfish and stealing the happiness from others, when the truth is I just have the opportunity for help and so will they someday. No matter what happens in life, there is always somebody worse than you, and that may be really unhelpful to say, but what I mean is that, if you feel this way, there is never going to be a point where you say ‘I deserve to get help’. Do you get me? You need to ask yourself ‘when will I be worse enough to deserve help?’. Usually that answer is something really bad, but you need to use that to your advantage and think ‘if I am thinking about getting to that situation, then I need to get help right now before I go there’. No matter what happens in your life, whether you get overwhelmed by the smallest thing or you going through a really really tough time, you deserve help’. Everybody has different threshold for what they can cope with, and if you find it hard to cope with even the smallest thing, that isn’t something that should be ignored. The thing is, you don’t live their life, and they don’t live yours. So no matter what, if you are finding it hard to live in your situation, that is reason enough to get help. Now I do understand that is easier to say than to do but just read this when you need a reminder because it is true and it is important.
No matter what anyone else is going through, if you are struggling AT ALL, you deserve to get help. Ok? Please remember that.
Thank you so much for reading. I hope you liked this post and it benefited you in some way. You all matter to me and I am so happy that you made it through the week. I am very proud. Please like and follow if you liked this content and wanna read more. Hope you have a great day, stay safe, and stay yourself PERIODT
Did you know that we are all born with only 2 fears? The fear of falling, and the fear of loud noises. So what does that mean? It means that the fears we have now were learned. And when you think of your fears you actually begin to realise that it actually makes sense. I remember that one time I went on a picnic with my granny and my younger cousins. Of course, there just had to be bees and I am not one of those ones who stick around, and I am not ashamed to say it. So here me and my sisters were, literally getting attacked my Barry B Benson and his mates. Obviously, we were swatting them away and freaking out just a little bit. Ok, maybe more than a bit. FINE, we were panicking a lot. But then my granny was like ‘literally stop being a bitch’, ok, maybe that wasn’t her exact words, but then she was like ‘you are gonna make them think bees are scary’. I am happy to say they now have a healthy dose of fear. They don’t just sit and do nothing although they aren’t as scared as I am. I think that I am the one who has stopped them from being stung soooooo. But yeah, let’s get into the fears that I think most teens have, that society has given us.
F Is For Failing Your Family
Lol, so maybe that title was a bit over the top but I mean it kind of is true. We are taught that failing is bad. I know for me, no matter how easy a test is, I will be shaking when I get the results back. The thing is it happens for the most ridiculous. I was probably in primary school freaking out about what I got on my colouring page. I mean it ain’t that serious. But we have been taught from literally day 1 to not fail or we will literally fail in life. I hate that fact because no test on osmosis or poetry will ever prepare me for life. Like in school if someone is like ‘this is really hard’, the teacher will be like ‘welcome to the real world’… bitch where? I can’t see any real-world here. It is ridiculous I have to admit.
I don’t really mean disappointing strangers, but like disappointing the people you care about. This may not be true for everyone but I literally have nightmares of doing anything to disappoint anyone. I am pretty sure I had a nightmare one time that I didn’t cook the carrots right or something. I mean my dad isn’t bloody Gordon Ramsey. They aren’t even mean to me. I have no clue why I had a nightmare about that. But yeah I would say that a majority of the time, I only do things so I don’t disappoint anyone
Ok, so I do realise that these are getting sad very quickly but it is true. It doesn’t mean we are always trying to find ‘the one’, but what I mean by that is that we are scared of not making friends, or losing friends and family. We aren’t all selfish people and a lot of the time people can seem really mean and selfish just so they can stay friends with the people in their group and they are just really scared to be left out. I suppose the FOMO also falls into this category, although I do know that not everyone really has this fear. I do though. Literally, whenever I see anyone having the tiniest bit of fun I am like ‘why am I not having fun’ and I feel so left out. Is that just me?
Parents Searching Our Room Or Our Phone
I have no bloody clue why I get so scared when my mum comes into my room for a second or if I want to show her a pic and she takes my phone to look. There is literally nothing I have to hide yet I am like “what if she looks back to my text from last year on Instagram when I had an argument with a complete stranger”, or “what if she comes into my room and finds a bag of drugs even though I have never done drugs in my life. I could imagine that is what it feels like when a police car is behind you or when you are going through the metal detector at the airport.
I should have left a TW sign for that title because this is the biggest one left. Nothing in this world compares to doctor appointments, dentist appointments, optician appointments, or anything else within that region. I swear to god I have no clue what the hell I will do when I grow up. My mum is coming with me no matter what. I swear to god though, my kids better not be wanting me to talk because I ain’t speaking. It’s gonna be a family trip by that point because I am going to have to bring my mum to my child’s appointments. No matter if I literally have my legging falling off, if they ask me what is wrong or what happened, I will not be answering that. But seriously though why is it so hard. They ask me my name, I panic and think “what if my mum lied to me all these years and I don’t know what my real name is”, then they be like what is your date of birth and I think “what the fuck is it? Was I even born? Am I even living right now?” and then when I remember I say “what if I was wrong? Would they arrest me and lock me up forever? I AM TOO AWKWARD FOR THAT!”. But then again, maybe I am overreacting, I don’t know.
Anyways, thank you so much for reading. I hope you enjoyed it and comment down below what you are scared of. Did you actually know that there is a fear that somewhere in the world a duck is looking at you? Let me know if you are one of those people because I did not know about that until last year. Please like and follow for more content like this. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
I am not sure who has watched the interview between Harry, Meghan and Opera yet, but in summary, the royalty were exposed for the tyrannical, cruel and racist organisation that they are. The sole fact that Harry was scared for Meghan’s safety is enough to strike worry through our hearts. And for me, as I watched a few clips, there were a few things that hit especially hard for me. I am not sure if others can relate but lets find out.
There have been a lot of people who have been really close-minded after hearing her talk and I really don’t understand why. She literally just opened up about one of the most difficult times in her life and then you go to accuse her of lying. She isn’t a bad person who would do something like that. With every photo from her past you could see the pain in her eyes, despite her smile. That is something you can’t fake. And it is crazy how none of us knew that. We all had a romanticized perception of the royal family and we couldn’t see that we were close to losing her. The woman who is so kind and influential is falling apart. It kind of reminds me of the fact that basically everything out there is fake. Every picture, every smile, every rumor is fake. And Meghan is the walking reminder of that. She had said in her interview that there was a point in time that she was afraid to be by herself as she was scared of what she would do and I know that so many of you out there will understand what she means on a personal level. It just goes to show that these famous people we see everyday on TV, or maybe in real life, are still people just like you and me. They have thoughts that are terrifying to think of. Despite the ‘ideal lifestyle’, they aren’t happy all the time and they don’t always want to live that way.
So many of us wish to be just like these people. Have all their cars, their money, their fame, their skills, but we don’t realise what else comes with the package. For all you know, they are close to leaving this world. They look as though they have everything, yet they feel as thought they have lost it all. But they can’t really show that because of media and their role in society. When I saw pictures of Meghan Markle, I thought she was living the life. I mean she lived in a palace, she is beautiful, talented and independent, yet her voice, which meant so much to her was silenced. For me, to hear all these things that were taken away from her, her rights, her freedom, it makes me rethink so many things. It made me remember that we aren’t the only ones that are struggling. The people who have made it big in this world are also struggling with their mental health, just like us. Sometimes I watch these videos on YouTube that talk about what other famous people have gone through and, although it usually isn’t good for me, I sometimes get a comforting feeling that they are by my side. Of course I know they aren’t, but I kind of just imagine them being here with me and supporting me because they actually know what it is like. This idle that I have loved for so long is so amazing and strong, and maybe I can become just like them. I won’t be destroyed by this illness, and they are the proof.
And then there were the people who would judge her for every little thing she did. Despite the fact that Kate did the same things, Meghan was literally bullied by the tabloids. She held her baby bump? ‘vanity’. Eating an avocado? ‘Killing the environment’. Somebody come get their English teacher because they are reading into this stuff way to much. And like Meghan said ‘that is a loaded piece of toast’. How dare you disrespect this woman for breathing. It is so ridiculous. Let her live. Let her be herself. She is such a great person who doesn’t deserve this type of abuse. It really goes to show that you can bullied for literally anything. Literal famous people with hardly a fault are still criticized and judged. And it makes me sick that her skin colour was an obvious problem in the royal family. I have no doubt this has happened to her in other stages throughout her life, but the fact that her own family are now part of this abuse it so disappointing. They literally have so much knowledge about what is going on in this world, yet they are still racist and cruel. Yes this isn’t all of them, but at the moment we don’t know who it is. There really is no excuse for their actions and they don’t deserve to have her in their family. In my opinion, they made the best decision by getting out of there.
I can’t say I have gone through all of the same situations as Meghan, obviously, but at the end she said that is takes real courage and strength to actually ask for help and… I am not really sure how to write how it made me felt. Just overwhelmed with comfort and hope I suppose. As though she was actually talking to me. And for me, I really look up to female figures because I feel some sort of connection as in, we are going through some of the same things that all girls go through and I want to use my voice just like she does. Her confidence and honesty really affected me and the interview was really empowering. I know I will never actually be able to talk to her in real life, unfortunately, but I felt like I was there with her. I know I have focused on Meghan this whole time and please don’t think I have something against Harry because I really don’t. I think what he did for his family was really brave and I respect him so much, but I am focusing on Meghan because, well she said the most during the interview I suppose. She said most of the impactful things.
But yeah, I guess that overall, what I am gonna take away from all of this is that, famous people are, in fact, real people. They go through tough crap just like us and we can look up to them as an example that, despite what we go through, we can make it. No matter what, there is a chance to success for all of us.
Thank you guys so much for reading. I know I am not the best at getting all of my feeling down on paper… or on the internet, but I hope I got my main point across. Please like, follow and comment your opinions on the interview. Hope you all have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
There are a lot of materialistic things that make people think ‘wow, I really have made it’, like a Tesla, a mansion, a boat. And while those things are true and would be fantastic, but for me the goal I am trying to get to is a little bit different. I know that I have succeeded whenever I no longer hate Mondays. That is when I know that I am in the perfect place in life.
It has become a literal meme that everybody absolutely hates Mondays. All throughout the week they just dwell on the pain that is Monday and at the moment I am one of those people. And I have never really understood why so many adults hated Mondays. I always thought they loved their job and didn’t mind doing it for a living. I mean you picked that job for a reason right? What I didn’t expect from the answer was that they only did it for the money. Nowadays people look at the paycheck first and the actual job after because we need to live and survive and have a family. Even when I found that out I was still confused on why they didn’t just try to find something they liked because they were miserable everyday, and to be honest they still are. I don’t want to be spending my days dreaming about the weekend to come, but then one the weekend, dreading the week that is to follow. I just don’t see the point in that and I know it is a hard thing to get out of, but I think I can do it. I am not sure how but I don’t want to hate Mondays.
I want to live everyday excited because I get to do the things I enjoy and then on the weekends I enjoy the days, but I am also eager for Monday to start and mark a new week. To have a decent life we basically have to work for the most part of it, so why the hell would I choose a dead-end job, working 9 to 5 at the same boring desk in the same office, when I could take a risk, work when I want to, and soak up the joy of life. I know it is out there. I know that someday I will find what all successful people have. The ability to see the world as an opportunity. Not as a threat or a treat, but as something that will bring challenges and dreams. It sounds really cheesy to write this down, but it is true. I don’t want to hate Mondays anymore. That is not the path I want to take. No matter how many cars I have, where I live, what I wear, I will only be successful once I love Mondays.
So what is your goal in life? Comment down below if it is the same for you or if your goal is to get a car or live in a certain country, because that is equally as valid too. I hope nobody thinks I am trying to make fun of people because everyone has different goals in life, and this is mind. So yeah, please like and follow if you liked this post. Hope you have a great day, stay safe, and stay yourself PERIODT.
OK so don’t even be judging me for wanting to make a wee bit of money. I mean I just want to get out of school and not literally freeze to death. What I also want to do is help you guys do the same. Now look, you aren’t gonna literally make millions from one of these, at least I don’t think you can but if you keep at it you could probably make a good wee bit. I know that I am gonna keep using them so, yeah. Also I would like to add that I am an affiliate for some of the links in here and I will get a wee bit of a commission, just so it doesn’t look like I’m coming for your money LOL
You guys might have heard of this, but it’s a wee app where you can literally sell any service you can provide. For me, I sell my voice. LOL this ain’t no little mermaid shit, it is just that I will do audio books and stuff like that. But no, it is good and it feels very professional although it is still really easy to get everything filled in. But there are so many services you can sell on there. If you know a different language, computer software, website building, designing, logos, or anything like that then you can already start selling, and that is only a small part of it. There are so many other things that you can sell. I will leave a wee pic for you to click on and you can get onto it
The first question is, what the hell is affiliate marketing? And what I can tell you about that is it is kind of exactly what I just did. It is where you join an affiliate position for a brand and you just promote their product and website. And like I said on the first paragraph, I do get commission if someone were to click on it. I just like to get that across so that you guys can trust me and know that I don’t want to steal your money, I would rather direct you to someplace and get a few benefits off it. It is basically just suggesting things to people but you actually get payed. On most websites all you need to do is scroll down to the bottom and there will be the word ‘affiliate’ and then all you need to do is sign up and post these things where others can find them.
One of the programs I am in is in Amazon and that makes me sound all fancy but anyone can do it. It is really simple and you may have seen some on my other posts where I leave a link, sometimes those things are affiliate links but other times there aren’t. So yeah definitely go check out the Amazon one because it is one of the most well know and trusted websites. Just click here
This is a really great website where all you need to do is record your voice while you review a website. So literally you just say what you think, just anything and they pay you for it. There are ones which can go to $30 to $120 but those ones you have to do on a proper face time, so I just do the ones that are $10 dollars, and that is like £6.50 which is pretty good for only 10-15 mins of work if you ask me. Click here to get to it. You can get it on your phone as well so you can do tests whenever and wherever. Definitely a good one for those on their phones all day anyways.
Look, I know you are all probably crying at the screen saying “I thought you loved us!”. All I have to say is that at the start I was like, lets make some money, but then I was like, ya know what, this is quite fun. Totally not because I already put in money for this and can’t back out. LOL please trust me when I say I was joking about that. I actually learned that I really enjoyed this stuff because I can write about anything on my mind and whenever anyone like my posts I just get so motivated because somebody actually was interested in what I said. We all feel like we are too weird for this world and, maybe I am, but there are others out there who actually do want to hear what you have to say and it really is rewarding. I use WordPress for mine and you can use whatever you want really. You might not actually make any money off it, I know I haven’t, but it inspires me to find other ways of making money so that I can keep doing this instead of some boring desk job, although technically I am at a desk right now, but that’s beside the point.
Ok, you guys definitely think I am some type of English freak. I am not I swear. I haven’t read a book in ages, but then I heard of this book that helped people to be financially stable and I was like, well what have I got to loose. £13 to be exact. But so far it has been worth it and although yuo may be like, how will a book make you money? Well, Karen, this book will teach you the skills to use and make money, so if I didn’t have it then I wouldn’t have that knowledge or ability to make money, so there is your answer. I would consider it an asset for my future, which you would understand if you read the book. But I am gonna be nice and give you a link to that book. Just click this pic and you can get one ok!
I have just started this and it is one where you just submit surveys that you don’t have to record anything, just answer some questions. It is a simple points system and depending on what you do you can get a certain amount of points which can give you money on paypal or for different gift cards, it is quite good I have to say. Again I haven’t used it for too long but it is professional and I am gonna keep using it for sure. Just click on the pic and you can go try it for yourself.
I have actually talked about this before. It is literally the easiest way I have made money. You definitely are gonna think this is a scam, but all you need to do is sign up and wait for the money to come rolling in. It is a source of passive income and I don’t know how to explain it without it making it sound sketchy but it is so great and yes that literally is all you do. Click below and you can get started, you’ll thank me later
I haven’t actually made money off this yet because it takes more time, but what you do is you go to a site like godaddy.com, you buy a domain for around £10 and then you sell it for more. This can be a bit risky but I have heard of some money who make piles of money from it so I am willing to take the risk if I am honest with you. It does take longer but you don’t actually have to do anything which is great. You know what to do by now, click on the pic
Do you ever go on a walk and think to yourself, “I need payed for this”. Well, it’s all sorted for you. Just get walking and your steps with actually be worth it. I suppose it could save the environment. I mean just walk and get money while you go to the store or wherever you need, without using your car, so, your welcome world. Click the pic below and you can start
Ok I think I just found one of the best survey to money apps. This isn’t an ad by the way but with the other apps you may not even get to take the survey or you may have to do hundreds just to get a fiver, but with this one it is made so much more simple and I love it. Just on the picture
Thank you all so much for reading this and I hope it will come into good use for you all. I use these all and trust them all if that is any consolidation ahaha. But yeah, just one more reminder that, as an affiliate, I get a commission for any purchases, so thank you if you bought something LOL but yeah, hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
So this one is getting’ a tad wee bit more personal I suppose. The thing is that probably the majority of us, if not all, have these, yet I am still finding it hard to talk about. I’ll stop building the tension and just tell you what it is. Stretch marks. Yep, that thing that is uncontrollably made when we grow. The thing so many people are embarrassed about, including me, despite the fact they are completely natural.
It was long ago when I was looking in the mirror and I saw on my back that I had so many stretch marks. To be honest, I never really knew that you could get them on your back, but I mean obviously you can because, well, your back grows so. And then every so often I would find more and more. Literally my back just looks like a road system at the moment. I obviously have stretch marks elsewhere on my body but these are the ones I hated the most. I just felt so gross and ashamed of myself. I mean what is a guy gonna think when he sees that all the way down my back. It was crazy how all I was thinking about was what others would think. How would they act? What can I do to stop this?
The answer is, you can’t. And one day I stopped and I thought, what do I think about this? I really thought for a while and then I came to the conclusion that they are kind of like your story. Whether that story is just your growing, or whether it is something more personal. But no matter what, it seems cool. As though they are your ‘battle scars’ or something. Like people could have gone through so much and having stretch marks could have been one of the results. Yes, that could bring back bad memories for people but I am gonna try and focus on the beauty of it.
A lot of the time we kind of just need to stop for a second and focus on what we think, without the fear of judgment or the future, but just kind of look at it in a different light. Yes that is easier said then done, and I know that, trust me, but the only person that truly matters in your life is yourself even when that is hard to believe. Teens and adults have become so obsessed with our bodies and I mean who can blame ya because we see on Instagram the perfect features of a model, without any imperfections and we just think, how the hell am I supposed to compete with that. Well, you can’t, because it is totally unrealistic and fake. I also just wanna make something clear. I am talking for both men, woman, or whatever pronoun you associate yourself with. Just every person lets say. Every single person gets stretch marks. Every single person can get embarrassed by their stretch marks. If you associate yourself as a man or any other group that usually gets frowned upon if they show any sign of weakness. It is OK that you have these stretch marks, OK. It is normal for you to have stretch marks. You guys can be embarrassed by these things too, so yeah I just wanted to make it clear that I am talking to everyone, not just girls.
Now for the reason of the title, ‘How the hell do I get rid of this’. Now, before your English teacher devours this and somehow link it back to that one time I looked at a blade of grass, this title is only talking about the fact that I was embarrassed by my stretch marks. Well, I mean I still am to be honest, but what the title means is that we need to recognize that there is no magic potion that gets rid of them, I think. We are stuck with these things so we may as well embrace them. No matter how much I look at them or think about them, I will still have them, and so will you, and so will everyone. So we kinda just gotta live with it and move on. Yes I know that made it sound easy but I know that over time you will notice them one day and be like ‘oh yeah… I’m a bad bitch’ and just move on ya know.
Thank you so much for reading. I hope you enjoyed this and made you realise that there are so many people out there that are embarrassed about the same thing as you because it is a normal thing that we can’t change. But anyways, please follow and like this post because it would mean the world to me. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
This is gonna make me sound crazy, but lets hope it is just crazy relatable. Do you know when your life is completely crumbling around you? Yeah? OK good. And do you know when you sit there and you have no clue what to do because everything is happening at once and all you can do is… laugh. Please say you do because I literally do this so much that my mum probably thinks that I have gone insane. I try to explain this to my friends as well but they don’t pass the vibe check so I am just left their looking like I have just given up in life. Which I guess isn’t wrong but like…
This happens everyday and usually during English, because everything is just so ridiculous and no matter how long I search, I still can’t find the point. Ya know. I mean my teachers talk and expect me to be able to read this dead person’s mind and I just stare at the screen like :”’) and I just can’t believe my ears. That isn’t me judging anyone by the way, if someone actually likes English that is completely fine, but for me, I can’t cope. I already overthink my thoughts so I don’t need anymore practice you know. NO I literally also be laughing in pain whenever the teachers give that speech again where they are like ‘I am such a nice, relatable person, because I am telling you that I know so many other people are giving you so much work and that I know what you are going through, even though I really don’t. I am also going to add something about mental health, even though I don’t give a shit, just so your parents think I actually care about you. Hopefully this will lessen the blow of the 15 page essay which I am going to give you 1 day to do instead of just the one hour because I am just that nice’. If that doesn’t sum up their whole speech, I don’t know what does.
I feel like I just laugh because there really isn’t anything else to do in that moment. I can just start crying because I don’t really trust the mute button or the camera-off button. I can’t just leave because I need to get good grades. I just hope that laughing tricks my brain into thinking that I am actually enjoying time like this. There are times though when I laugh for real. But this is only when I get onto the zoom call and the teacher isn’t talking so I go off that screen for a second and do something else, but then later on they just talk out of nowhere and I literally have a heart attack. The amount of times that has happened is probably unhealthy because the wave of fear and confusion is like a literal electric shock.
School is really tough for everyone at the moment, and for people who have even more going on at home, it can be so much worse. And when people get overwhelmed, they can have the tendency to cope with that through laughter or by making jokes. I am not making this post as a cry for help but just as a reminder that people don’t always look how they feel. Maybe you do the same thing. We just need to remember that this will pass and I mean laughing at bad stuff isn’t the worst thing for you. So let’s just laugh our way into normal life and get through it. Soon enough you will be laughing for real, and that is when you know you are on the right path.
Thank you for reading guys, but I also wanted to ask your something. Would you guys be interested in a podcast? It would be me reading these posts with added comments as bit of a comedy thing. I want to do this just because I know there are people out there who find it easier to listen to things, or maybe just so you can listen to my blogs while in the car. Please let me know how you feel about it and maybe you might get a podcast, and you can hear my actual voice :0 don’t get your hopes up though, I hate my recorded voice. So yeah, as normal, like, follow and donate any change you may have because I really want to keep all of my content free for everyone, and if I am gonna make a podcast I kind of want to use one of those wee tiny mics just for the LOLs, but I can worry about that. Hope you have a great day, stay safe, and stay yourself PERIODT.
I wrote those two words on a post-it note yesterday. It’s simple, but out of context it probably seems a bit strange. But what does it mean for me?
Let’s bring this back a wee bit. So I am trying affiliate marketing and I am learning how through ‘Legendary Marketer’. I won’t go into too much detail about them but that is just a wee bit of information. I purchased their 15-day challenge and I am on day 5 now. I still have the motivation to do it, despite the fact I had to let down their blueprint offer due to financial issues. I asked my mum for a bit of financial support and of course she was skeptical and was unsure if I should purchase it. I am completely fine with that too because it was a large sum of money despite the discount. My confidence took a little bit of a dip though. She looked up some other peoples opinions and they said that it takes a lot of time and hard work. I knew that though. But I don’t know if I was tired, or what, but I just kind of thought ‘maybe I am overreacting about this opportunity? I should just quit now and pursue a normal career like everyone else’.
So what did I do? I went upstairs and sat for a bit. A bit depressed at the thought that I might just have to work a 9 to 5 job. I literally thought to myself, ‘I will not be able to carry on this life if I need to go to University and then work a boring job with financial stress and all that shit’. After I thought about that for I while I finally said ‘if I don’t want to live life as expected, then I won’t. I am going to keep going and if I fail, then we will go from their’ and I was later thinking about what could help me to sustain this motivation. The answer may be different for everyone else, but, for me, as you probably could tell from the title, I came to the conclusion that I am not just doing this for me. No, because that would be too risky, I would only disappoint myself if I quit. So I have the question ‘for who?’ written in my room to remind me of the main reason I want to become financially successful because I can’t fail for them. I need to be successful for them, my family. This probably looks as though I am seeking attention, but I am just showing you what I find motivates me to keep going so that you guys can be inspired to change.
For teenagers especially, I feel as though we are underestimated because ‘we aren’t smart enough’ or ‘not as well informed’ but yet we are the generation that grew up with technology. Of course I don’t know everything, it is impossible, and yes I could get scammed but I don’t look at the ad that says ‘get 10 iPhone 12s just by putting in your email’. I mean I know a scam when I see one. It can be harder for teenagers to focus on one goal as well because we fell as though, no matter what happens, we have a plan B, a safety net. This can be great and I am glad to have one, but it means that I won’t try as hard to make everything work because, if it doesn’t, I will just move on. I still have school, a social life, a family, a roof over my head. If you do, however, only focus on that one thing and don’t have any Plan B, I am impressed and you are on the right track but we all get scared of being judged. I don’t know how to describe Affiliate Marketing to anyone because I am still quite new but that means that they feel as though I just want to get rich quick. That isn’t it though, I want to learn the skills that will make me financially stable in the future. I feel as though, if I told someone that I am really committed to this and I feel as though this will be what makes me financially free, they won’t believe me or trust me. What I have to remember though is that they didn’t grow up with the access to all this and so of course they won’t trust it. I just have to trust my gut feeling and work harder to prove my point that teenage girls can still accomplish this. To show the world that I am not settling for anything less than my dream. That I will make it.
Thank you so much for reading. Please like, follow and donate some money if you can so I can keep all of my content free for everyone. I really hope this inspires you to look for your reason. Why are you doing what you are doing? What do you want out of it? I hope you have a great day, stay safe, and stay yourself PERIODT.
But I will share some tips of what I do to prolong my survival.
For me, I like to zone out whenever I am on a useless topic. And because I am zoned out for the majority of the day, I like to create a world in my head that is even slightly better than the one I am in now. For example, I go to the deepest darkest pits of hell, that’s my favourite one. Really takes your mind of how horrible your day is. Or you could imagine that you have gone into space and your helmet falls off, the good thing about that is that I am not stuck in my house and my continuous headache actually makes sense. So yeah, 10 out of 10 do recommend
Oh don’t get me wrong. I am not researching the work we are doing ahaha definitely not. Actually, I am researching ways to make money to get out of school. My teacher is literally talking about fibre and water right as I am typing this so… I am also trying affiliate marketing so hopefully blogging and marketing will get me THE HELL OUT OF HERE. Sorry for shouting. But yeah I just have the class as ‘background music’ while I look up actual useful stuff. Multi-tasking?
LOL I am not out here literally just juggling in class, well… not all the time anyways. I just have the juggling balls for some reason and just throw it at my wall and catch it or just throw it up and down. To be fair this one is a good one to do. Definitely does help to be honest. And then you could put juggling on your resume… if you want to be a clown. But anyways it is quite the fun one.
Clean My Room
If you have got to this point during class, that is when you know you have just given up completely. Me? Yeah I have got to that point in pretty much all my classes, so yeah. But somehow my room never actually gets any cleaner. Kind of just an organised mess but I mean what else am I supposed to do? Listen?
LOL I swear I don’t talk like that in real life, but like why is this kind of a bargain. Like I literally have you hooked. I got the promo codes for you. I mean I can’t just fuel your online shopping addiction with at least helping you a bit. I am currently wearing my desert sky boutique jumper and I mean comfort is one of the most important things for online school. So yeah, I won’t snitch on you. And besides, you are just supporting small businesses.
Talk To Yourself
Firstly, don’t judge. Second, I am not crazy. Lastly, It is quite fun. You don’t have to start a bloody conversation, just talk your thoughts aloud and make whatever weird noises or songs you want because I mean who is gonna hear you? Nobody you care about anyways so. Just a warning though, MAKE SURE YOUR MIC IS OFF. Please, spare the embarrassment. It can me fun to do this because you distract yourself, you don’t just hear nothing and you can say the weirdest things that you want to. You may also find that you are quite funny, ya never know.
Anyways, you will still get bored as FUCK in the end but this will slow down the process of literal diagnosed boredom. Hope you all enjoyed this and please like, follow and donate some money so that I never have to go to school EVER again. Thank you. Have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT
You know that feeling when you finish a book? Neither. But I guess that it is a similar feeling to when you finish a movie at the cinema and then when you are walking out you feel like a whole new person. Please tell me we all act like that. I mean obviously not for all movies. I mean I wouldn’t walk out of ‘The Joker’ or ‘IT’ feeling motivated, you know ahhaha. For me the movies which influenced me the most, the ones where I walked out feeling like I had a new calling in life, didn’t actually influence me. Let me say that again. The movies which influenced me, didn’t actually influence me. OK I think I am making this a bit too difficult, but what I am trying to get across is that I have never been influenced by the plot as much as I have the people in the movies. It is the actors which have influenced me.
For me there are just movies that you watch and you can’t help but focus on characters, usually only the well-known ones for me, and think “they are just so inspiring”. How could you look at, lets say, Sandra Bullock, and not be proud to be a woman. I mean she is so confident and doesn’t take shit from nobody. Obviously all the actors are, well, acting, so obviously you don’t know what they are like in real life. But when I see a movie I really like, I somehow just get sucked into basically all the talk shows they have ever been on. I mean half of Graham Norton’s views are basically all me. And even there you are just stunned by how great of a person they are. Don’t even get me started on Jennifer Lawrence, I mean how can you be that perfect. She is down to earth, pretty, funny, a good actor. I mean these people are part of the reason I would love to act because then maybe I could meet one of them. I literally aspire to be as bad ass as them one day.
It literally does make me re-think my life because I am just like, how am I here when they are there, the place I want to be. How will I live my life never seeing these absolute legends. It does make me sad though because after the cinema you think ‘wow, could I get to that point in my life? I mean how could I become as great as them’, but as time goes by that way of thinking just dissolves. And it makes me sad because it is so hard to hold on to any dream in your life. I mean people can influence you so much, but for me it is hard to sustain that because there are so many things that outweigh and drown those thoughts. Whether that is school, the area you are in, the people around you, the place you live. Like for me my dream of acting and maybe some day becoming friends with these amazing people is so far from reach because, well I live in a dot of a country. How the hell am I supposed to become well-know and get good parts. And it leads me into a storm of google searches, about how people from my country have become famous. The thing is, a majority of the either had famous family or moved to LA and I mean I can’t do that any time soon obviously.
But lets move onto some of the influential guys in movies. They literally restore my faith in men. I mean I don’t have the best opinion of them due to stories, experiences and just being scared. But like these guys in movies, which I know are fake and unrealistic, but it makes me want to not settle for less. You know Jim from The Office, played by John Krasinski, I mean like you can’t go wrong with that. All I want is a respectful, funny, outgoing, confident person, but all I get here is… well nobody but that is too sad to say out loud. The only OPTIONS here are roadmen, smokers, druggies, chavs. I mean it is like finding a needle in a haystack. Yes I know not all men are like that but you have to be fair, a majority are. I guess I am a bit lucky to not be talking to guys. Damn that got sad. A few examples for me are Tom Holland, John Krasinski and Will Smith. I mean you see those guys and you just think ‘they are really good people’. I am not just choosing them for their looks by the way guys, I mean I am not talking about that. What I am talking about is who they are. How they make me expect more from men. I mean not all men are slags and they prove this. Obviously I don’t know them personally but from what I can see, they are great people. They make me confident that not all men care about looks or weight or stuff like that. They are just comforting, great people when I see them in movie, one, I know it will be great, and two, it reminds me that maybe I will end up with someone nice.
Over all, the plot never affects my day to day life, but it is the people have motivate me to expect more from myself. To become more like they are, confident, outgoing, successful. People can make fun of actors and there jobs but they really do more than just star in movies. They influence and motivate people. They have such an impact on the way people think about themselves and other. Especially when you read stories from their past and you realise they didn’t have an easy journey to where they are now. You realise that your past doesn’t define your future and you can really do anything.
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Wow, part 3. What an achievement. I mean I feel like you guys like these and I hope they are helpful because lots of people may have nobody to tell them what it is like. I mean of course your parents could but I mean the vibes of school have changed since they have been their if you know what I mean. In today’s post I think I am going to talk about some of the different groups you expect to find and kind of how you can spot them.
Right so this is obviously more of a UK post and I am not really sure what it is in US terms. Maybe like the Chads, but more intimidating and non-american. But I mean we all know what Chavs or roadmen are so those guys are pretty much the lads. These people will most likely have a ski hair cut or the perm top styled one. They are always the really loud ones in class who think they are funny but really just aren’t and only get laughs from the ‘loud girls’ or other chavvy girls in the class. They always talk back to the teacher and sit so low down in the chair they are one minute away from getting scoliosis. That ain’t even a joke. Like there legs will be taking up all the room under the desk. They will all most like vape, smoke, drink everyday and ask you for homework even though you have never spoken to them in your life. You may be lucky though. You usually discover that some of them are actual decent people alter on in the the school years. Yes, you will find out some of them are creepier than you thought, if you know what I mean. But you can see that some of them are good people and just act like that in front of their friends. Just don’t expect to get anything back that they borrowed from you.
The Loud Girls
So I guess this depends on what school you go to, but these girls can be chavs or just the people who think they are better than everyone else. Try not to get caught in the trap though. I always thought that I needed to be in that group because they were so popular and got all the guys. Bitch trust me, it ain’t worth it. They have lots of ‘friends’ but always fall out and get in huge arguments. They do go out with a lot of the guys but I mean they either get cheated on or just break up the next day. I mean they take on and off relationships to the next level. These are also the people who laugh at the guys ‘jokes’ even when they aren’t funny and flick their pin-straight hair. This group of girls and the guys I was talking about are always the teachers pet. Don’t ask me why but some of the teachers literally worship them. Usually those teachers prefer the guys. Like the guys could spit in their face and they would be like LOL, but if you forget to finish one of the questions, they will rain fire on you. It is usually the PE teachers who love the girls because they usually play hockey or netball or something like that. They will literally ignore you as though the other girls have like hypnotized her. They want all the gossip and think they are best mates. Like it is weird. You kind of also want to stay out of their way if you can because if you are in a group with them, they will do nothing. They would stand up in the front of the class and just take the piss which gets so annoying. You will find out more about them when you get to school but just know that they aren’t as great as they seem. Just find some solid friends and you will be fine.
The Normal Ones
These guys don’t really have a name. Usually this group is more girls and then the guys are slightly weirder. That sounds mean but I didn’t mean it that way. The teachers that I was talking about will literally ignore your existence. Their whole attention will be on the others. No matter how hard you work they will not appreciate it. However, you will have teachers that are the nicest people. They could literally be your mum or dad, and these ones will be so nice to you. They are fed up with the others and actually watch out for us guys. They let us answer. Get our voice heard. Congratulate us. Actually talk to us. I mean these are the guys who were born to be teachers. Not the ones who despise their job and project that on us. The people in this sections actually have a personality and are nice people. They can actually keep relationships with friends and they don’t always have a boyfriend but when they do it is actually something meaningful. They do well in school, they are nice and just over all good people. Yes they may not have such a big group of friends but with the friends they do have, they have a strong bond
That is all for today really. I mean of course there are other groups but these are the main ones and the others kind of just depend on your school. Of course there are other obvious groups but I didn’t want to talk about them in case I sounded rude or offensive. They are good people too but just slightly more annoying in a different way to the lads. I think that you should just try to be yourself and whatever group you are in, you will be happy. Nobody really thinks about groups when you are in school so don’t worry about that. All I wanted to get across was the type of people you will meet just to show you that you aren’t weird for not being really loud or chavvy. Just be yourself and people will accept that. Even the annoying groups in school have a heart and they respect your confidence. Don’t let them get to you and just try to enjoy these years I guess.
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For many, this question is easy to answer. They know they want to move onto A levels, then go to uni and get a job. I used think that I was one of those people, until now. The year I am making this move.
I know that a lot of people are making this life changing decision now, and you might be one of the lucky people who have it all sorted. For me, I am stuck. For as long as I can remember, I wanted to be a police woman. I wanted to help people out, be out and about, and I just found it interesting over all. I just supposed that I would go to university because that is what everyone did. But now so much has changed and while I do have the idea of being a police woman, I don’t know how I am going to get their. Right now, I want to drop out. I never wan to go back to school or be so controlled like that all the time, but there are so many things making me stay in school.
For one, how will I get a job when I am only 16. I mean I can’t just lay at home all day and laze around because my parents would not be happy would that and, frankly, neither would I. I am gonna be honest, blogging was one of my ideas to earn money for a living so I could drop out, although I found out that I do actually enjoy it. I mean I would love for this to work out but what if it doesn’t. What is my backup plan. I can just sign up for being a police woman and start my training but I always feel as though I will be looked down upon as that young girl who dropped out of school. And currently it is hard to find jobs because of, well, corona.
Secondly, is being a police woman right for me. That’s the thing. What if I drop out and find I don’t get in or I don’t like the job. What if I drop out and my ‘dream job’ was a failure. Lately I have also been having doubts about even trying because, if I am being honest, I have kind of been warming to the idea of acting. I think that would give me great opportunities in life and then, hopefully, I can use my platform to get my voice heard and others about problems in the world. Because I mean, who would listen to one police woman? Also the stigma around the police at the moment. I hate how they have shown themselves as racist, blood thirsty animals. They just attack and think they are above the law and I never want to be associated with that. I would never do something like that and even though I can tell others that, they probably wont believe me. And they have every right to not believe me because all we see are how crap and corrupted they are. I never want to be accused of something like that. And how could one young girl go in and save that. Why would they listen to me. And that is kind of why I am questioning that decision and that it would be a good idea to build up my voice in the world. The problem is, I live in Northern Ireland. So how the hell am I supposed to build up auditions and feature in serious films or series? Honestly though, please do comment if you have any tips or opportunities.
Another reason I am stuck is because I often wonder, what if I am wasting my life? I am not trying to rub this in people’s face, but I get good grades in school. I work hard, I am well behaved in school. And when I think about dropping out I get anxious that I am wasting my hard work by not putting it to use and ‘helping the world’ in some way. The thing is, I am not smart. I am just book smart. I have to revise for all my exams. I work hard but still forget so much stuff. I am not like others who just remember stuff and can do great things. All I can do is revise, but I hate it. It literally makes me scared though to think of dropping out and missing so many experiences and becoming lonely. What if I miss all that and don’t even get anywhere with my life. When I tell you I can NOT end up in a 9 to 5 job, I mean it. That just would not work for the type of person I am. I can’t put into words the anxiety of dropping out though. Not really about jobs and money, but about what I could be throwing away. What if I should do this or that because I am ‘smart. What if I could of made a difference or gone into a really important job. I just don’t know what that is. I am literally getting stressed thinking about it, but I don’t want to let my parents down by throwing away the knowledge that they have given me. This talent to learn that others would want. I know that sound stuck up but I feel bad for misusing my intelligence and ability to revise.
My last point for today, about how I feel stuck in my decision is just the whole formality of it. I don’t want to live a life where I go to school, go to uni, get a job, retire, and then die. I don’t want to be in debt my whole life with the bills I have to pay for my uni which got me working a repetitive job which means nothing to me. I want to be able to be financially free. I don’t want a job. I want a career. A way of life that I love. Where I don’t hate Mondays. I work because I want to, not because I have to. I want to have a family and be free and enjoy my life. But for me I feel like uni would stop that. As though I would step into the school gates and be locked behind a bars of debt forever. Never getting where I need to be. Always worrying about paying the electricity bill. I just don’t know why people have made uni such a ‘need to do’ part of life. I don’t want to be dragged down by this. I don’t know what I will do without it but I can’t have that stress of revision and thoughts about my future in my life. How would I be able to handle such important tests, meeting new people, going to parties. But then again I am scared to miss that.
Over all, I am just scared.
Thank you for reading that and I hoped that other people related to that and now know that they aren’t alone. These are hard decisions and it sucks we have to make them at such a young age. Please like, follow, and donate some money so I can keep all of my content free for everyone. I also have some great promo codes for you and a great app that I found for earning extra money. I love you all and hope you know that it will all be worked out eventually. It may be hard, but you will get their. Just stay the bad bitch you are PERIODT.
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