I’m not above a fight

See, I don’t really like it when people are cheeky to me. I mean you can be upfront and shout at me and I’ll be fine with that. My sisters have conditioned me to that. But if you are being passive aggressive or cheeky in front of me or behind my back, I won’t hesitate to fight.

No this isn’t coming out of the blue guys, but something I did yesterday kinda got my blood boiling if you get me. Anyways, here I was at my friend’s house for moral support because I was about to call my work and be like “hey girl so for medical and educational reasons I’m not gonna be able to work more than 8 hours a week but obviously I can work more on holidays thanks”, and here my manager does the longest sigh ever, literally I could almost smell her stinking breathe it was that loud, and I was like shit what is about to happen. Then this bitch really stops the sigh and goes “that’s not really helpful for us”

😮 Did I ask?! No I think the fuck I didn’t so why the hell did you have to say that. Would you prefer I didn’t work any hours? Do you want me to quit because I’ll be more than happy to get out of this bitch. Like I actually don’t even like work. When I tell you I was shocked, I mean I was back-from-war-tazer-in-the-back shocked. I still am at the moment tbh.

But anyways, after that, I paused because I was in denial at that stage or something and then I was just like “Ummm well… It’s for medical reasons as well” because my doctor told me to say that so she legally couldn’t fire me for it (I also wouldn’t care if she did because then id use and never have to work again, I’m not too proud to miss that opportunity bitch) and here she was acting all nice again, miss cheeky bitch tryna get on my good side again. Like I actually have to go to work with her today and if she comes up to me and starts talking shit, I will happily throw hands. I mean I’m terrified of her too, let’s not get ahead of ourselves, but she barely knows me and doesn’t know how hard I can hit. BTW this is a joke don’t be calling the police

Anyways yeah that happened and it really made me realise how much I HATE, despise, loath, work. Do I get paid minimum wages to only get a 20 min break during illegal hours?! I think the fuck not. Like I have enough money saved to get my ass out of that hoe and I only stay cause I want my parents to be proud of me lol. But you have to admit what she said was petty uncalled for. Like it was not necessary. I actually despise the working world and it sucks the little bit of life and dignity inside of me.

So what do you guys reckon I should do? Quit or just realise that this is life. Also if anyone is like a law person, is there any way I could use for doing illegal hours with only a 20 minute break. I mean that would be ideal lol. Hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.

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Train wreck of thought

I haven’t posted in a while, obviously, and I ain’t gonna explain why because it’s more boring than you think. It’s not like I went on a fucking trip to the Bahamas despite the fact I hope to go there some day if corona ever goes away. But anyways, a lot has happened like me starting A levels, which I think is 12th grade in America, and my sister is also away to uni in a whole different fucking country. I mean I know you didn’t like me all that much but geez, I get the fucking hint.

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I also got a hair cut that is like shoulder length and made me want to cry on the first day but then when I styled it I liked it which I think is the ritual for any hair cut. Surely that is the same for guys too. I mean even I cry at some of the haircuts guys get. I mean that barber really did you dirty with that ski. You’re starting to look like Stewie Griffin from Family Guy. Do you know I also literally get a wee hairdresser that comes to my house. Not in the way where like I am so rich I hire a personal hairdresser, but as in it is cheaper and kinda just for the lols. That is totally unnecessary for you to know but it is what it is I guess.

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But my mum literally knows her from a friend who is the hairdressers friend and client and my mum is like “it’s a small world” and while I do use that phrase quite often, or at least when necessary, but like it really is incorrect. I mean it’s a small fucking country. Northern Ireland is barely a dot on the map, don’t quote me on that, and it doesn’t bug me but gets me thinking, something that flat earthers never do.

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I actually remember one time when Logan Paul posted a video of him talking to a flat earther and the whole click bate was that he believed the guy and I was like this is bullshit. Don’t worry, I have not been converted. The reason I mentioned it was because it is the perfect transition into telling you very frightening times in my life. Firstly, and I am ashamed to say it, I was someone who nearly bought Logang merch. DON’T WORRY! It is not contagious and I have got it sorted. It was a close call but I made it. I mean I was invested in his man’s life. I wanted to meet him so bad and thought he was such a cool dude. Like when he bought a massive pumpkin, I was on my knees worshipping him. Like it was not ok. I didn’t stick around long enough for him to like do that video in Japan and I think the only thing I have watched of his since is when his bird died LOL. I mean this guy makes everything into a joke. His family, his bird, his life, EVERYTHING. He did start some trends though I have to admit. Not good ones, but trends none the less.

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I think I can forgive myself for that because it was kind of inevitable for me as I was in my flat cap phase. All of my friends will instantly know what this means, but to catch you all up, it was bad. VERY bad. I thought I was so rebellious and edgy. I have this one photo that haunts me to this day. It is me on my holiday after I bought my first flat cap and I swear if you look closely enough, you can see me slowly turn into a disappointment. And again, just to clarify, I am out of that now. Well, the flat cap part, maybe not the disappointment part. I think I need to show this to my therapist

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Anyways, thank you for reading my rant and it was very random so sorry for dragging you down my train wreck of thoughts, but you got to the end now and you can have a rational thought again. As a recap, never EVER fall vulnerable to flat caps. I hope you have a great day, stay safe and stay yourself PERIODT.

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I’m not above a fight

See, I don’t really like it when people are cheeky to me. I mean you can be upfront and shout at me and I’ll be fine with that. My sisters have conditioned me to that. But if you are being passive aggressive or cheeky in front of me or behind my back, I won’t hesitate … Continue reading I’m not above a fight

Makeup and Me

First of all, to the people who are in the comments right now saying “It’s makeup and I, not makeup and me” literally take you Hermione Granger ass outside or “I” will personally make Jeff Bezos land his fucking dick rocket on you. I mean would you slate Marley and Me for the grammar issue? … Continue reading Makeup and Me

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Adults Can Hear Our Thoughts! What Happens Now?

This list could go on forever and have millions of different outcomes but I am going to talk generally and focus more on how I think so don’t worry if you don’t think the same things. There are countless numbers of things I could say, but just know that what you think is valid and I am not mentioning every little thing.


If I woke up one day and my parents and every other adult could hear what I thought, I would be terrified. And no, not for the thing you are thinking right now, get your head out of the gutter. But I would be scared because I think a lot of dark, scary things. Overall, I think my parents would be worried and scared because I am not the ‘little girl’ they think I am. My parents say I will always be their baby, because I am the youngest in the family, by one minute may I add but that’s beside the point. But no, they would definitely be so confused.

In my opinion, parents think that teenagers only think about how to piss them off or when we can run away and do drugs or something, but really, we think about so many mature things that they would think we don’t care about or understand. I remember one day I was volunteering at this run and then this adult was like ‘oh I think it’s going to be a warm summer’ and being the socially awkward person I am I said ‘I hope so’ because I mean who doesn’t like a warm summer. And then the man said ‘that isn’t good. Global warming is getting worse. But then I suppose your generation don’t really care about that stuff’. When I tell you I wanted to shout, I mean I was ready to have a full Greta Thunberg moment. I didn’t say anything because, well, I am socially awkward. It is so annoying how ignorant some people are. If my parents heard me think they would see how much I think about that stuff because, believe it or not, we are the ones that will have to live in this world long after you are gone. Sorry that was really morbid but it’s true. And you can’t blame us for global warming. You guys are the ones who created these greenhouse-producing products, and you are the ones who raised us to use them. And now we are left to clean up your mess. So don’t tell us that we know nothing because we know that we are going to be the ones to fix your mess.

Adults would also be surprised by how much I actually think about the future. These can be good things and bad things. I think about what jobs I’ll do and how to save, start a business, invest in stocks, get a house, a family. But I also think about depressing stuff because my mental health is not top-notch. I don’t know if this is just me but I actually do think about ‘grown-up’ things. I do worry about not being able to get a good job because I failed my test. I do worry about being homeless because the prices of houses are only increasing. I do worry about how I will handle living on my own and paying off everything. They truly do underestimate us because they only remember the bad things we did. They never remember the mature things we do.

One of the useful things for them being able to hear our thoughts is that they would finally understand why we are being ‘grumpy’. Whether it is because we fell out with our friends, our parents came home angry which in turn made us angry, or we are having a bad mental health day. They always assume that it is us just being a ‘teenager’ and then completely dismiss us. Yes, sometimes we can just be having a bad day, but everyone does. We never say to you ‘why are you always so angry? It’s all of that phone time’. No because for one that is disrespectful for us to say what you say but also because we have sympathy and understand that it must be something that happened today. We aren’t all selfish animals you know, if anything I am overly sympathetic and that is why I am never truly happy. I always think about others and never myself. My goal in life is not to make your day worse. It’s not even close to that. If you could hear what I was saying to myself you would finally understand why I don’t want to talk or why I want to lie in my bed all day.


Thank you for reading this. Obviously I didn’t add all the things they would realise but I didn’t want to make this to long. I might make a part two in the future, so please comment if you would like that and feel free to comment any other things you would like me to mention. Stay safe and know you are loved.

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