This is gonna make me sound crazy, but lets hope it is just crazy relatable. Do you know when your life is completely crumbling around you? Yeah? OK good. And do you know when you sit there and you have no clue what to do because everything is happening at once and all you can do is… laugh. Please say you do because I literally do this so much that my mum probably thinks that I have gone insane. I try to explain this to my friends as well but they don’t pass the vibe check so I am just left their looking like I have just given up in life. Which I guess isn’t wrong but like…
This happens everyday and usually during English, because everything is just so ridiculous and no matter how long I search, I still can’t find the point. Ya know. I mean my teachers talk and expect me to be able to read this dead person’s mind and I just stare at the screen like :”’) and I just can’t believe my ears. That isn’t me judging anyone by the way, if someone actually likes English that is completely fine, but for me, I can’t cope. I already overthink my thoughts so I don’t need anymore practice you know. NO I literally also be laughing in pain whenever the teachers give that speech again where they are like ‘I am such a nice, relatable person, because I am telling you that I know so many other people are giving you so much work and that I know what you are going through, even though I really don’t. I am also going to add something about mental health, even though I don’t give a shit, just so your parents think I actually care about you. Hopefully this will lessen the blow of the 15 page essay which I am going to give you 1 day to do instead of just the one hour because I am just that nice’. If that doesn’t sum up their whole speech, I don’t know what does.
I feel like I just laugh because there really isn’t anything else to do in that moment. I can just start crying because I don’t really trust the mute button or the camera-off button. I can’t just leave because I need to get good grades. I just hope that laughing tricks my brain into thinking that I am actually enjoying time like this. There are times though when I laugh for real. But this is only when I get onto the zoom call and the teacher isn’t talking so I go off that screen for a second and do something else, but then later on they just talk out of nowhere and I literally have a heart attack. The amount of times that has happened is probably unhealthy because the wave of fear and confusion is like a literal electric shock.
School is really tough for everyone at the moment, and for people who have even more going on at home, it can be so much worse. And when people get overwhelmed, they can have the tendency to cope with that through laughter or by making jokes. I am not making this post as a cry for help but just as a reminder that people don’t always look how they feel. Maybe you do the same thing. We just need to remember that this will pass and I mean laughing at bad stuff isn’t the worst thing for you. So let’s just laugh our way into normal life and get through it. Soon enough you will be laughing for real, and that is when you know you are on the right path.
Thank you for reading guys, but I also wanted to ask your something. Would you guys be interested in a podcast? It would be me reading these posts with added comments as bit of a comedy thing. I want to do this just because I know there are people out there who find it easier to listen to things, or maybe just so you can listen to my blogs while in the car. Please let me know how you feel about it and maybe you might get a podcast, and you can hear my actual voice :0 don’t get your hopes up though, I hate my recorded voice. So yeah, as normal, like, follow and donate any change you may have because I really want to keep all of my content free for everyone, and if I am gonna make a podcast I kind of want to use one of those wee tiny mics just for the LOLs, but I can worry about that. Hope you have a great day, stay safe, and stay yourself PERIODT.